A/N: I love Zell/Seifer, and writing a whole crazy fanfic re-writing the entirety of Final Fantasy VIII, though fun and all, gives me very few opportunities to write good Zell/Seifer stuff. So this is after VIII is over, and most of it will be from Zell's point of view, some may be Seifer's. There is also some implied Squall/Irvine going on. And Ifrit is junctioned to Zell, and will be in his head making obnoxious observations. For the time being the M is mostly for my language. I can't stop swearing.
Alone
I stared up at the ceiling in silence. Squall was too busy to go train with me. Selphie and Rinoa were going shopping, and I didn't want any part of that. Irvine was likely bothering Squall, as usual. Quistis had a class. So I was alone. Again.
You whine too much.
Shut up Ifrit. I don't have time for you now.
You have all the time in the world punk.
Sighing, I got up from the ground, and walked out of the Quad. Even though we were all on a crazy mission and trying not die, I'd enjoyed the whole thing. At least I wasn't alone. But now no one had time for me. And it sucks. I walked out toward the front to see Seifer sitting looking up at the clouds. He turned to face me. Great.
You know you think he's hot.
Shut up.
"Hey. Bored too?" What the hell?
"Yeah, I guess so. No one has time for me," I said sitting down next to him. He nodded.
"Squall barely has time to fuck Irvine."
"Oh, but he makes time. You haven't ever walked in on them," I shuddered slightly at the memory.
You know you looked.
Squall does have a nice ass.
Why am I stuck in your head?
Why do I think this shit?
"Don't tell me you actually have…"
"In his office. Squall was on his desk naked. They didn't lock the door. Last time they did that. I saw way more than I ever needed to." Seifer laughed.
"I'm sorry. What about you, Chicken Wuss? Girlfriend?" He asked. I shook my head.
You with a girlfriend. That'd be quite the sight.
Shut up or I'll give you back to Rinoa.
Don't make me go into that crazy girl's head.
"Not so much."
"Boyfriend?"
"Nope. Just me and my left hand." Seifer laughed.
You spend too much time alone Zell.
Shut. Up.
"I can relate. No one seems to want to be around the failure who tried to destroy the goddamn world. Why the fuck would they?" It had never occurred to me how Seifer felt.
I'm an asshole.
Yep.
Seriously. Next time I see Rinoa, you're going back to her.
Whatever.
"Right."
"So, why are you here anyway Chicken Wuss?"
"No idea. I… I never thought you might be lonely too." Seifer laughed.
"Lonely eh? Used to tell myself that I didn't care, but every fucking time I hear a group of people start talking about me as though I wasn't standing two fucking feet away from them I get really sick of having no friends at all." We may never have gotten along, but we certainly seem to have a lot in common at the moment.
"Hey, you wanna go get some lunch?" Seifer's eyes met mine. Those green eyes. I'd never really looked at them before. They were gorgeous.
…Don't look at him like that. It's creepy.
Just leave me alone!
"Really?"
"Yeah. Why not?" Seifer looked away, but stood up.
"All right Chicken Wuss." I shook my head as we headed toward the cafeteria.
"Zell! I've actually got hot dogs today! Would you believe that?" the woman said. I smiled as he got food, and pulled out my wallet.
"That'll be 50 gil." I paid the woman, and Seifer followed. He searched for his wallet and swore.
"I can't find it…" I shook my head, and handed him 50 gil.
"Here." Seifer looked away again.
"Thanks…" I walked toward an empty table and sat down. Seifer joined me. He ate in silence.
"… so why'd you come after us at Timber anyway?" I finally asked. Seifer looked up.
"Stupidity." He didn't seem like he wanted to talk about it.
"Are you okay?"
"No."
"Now you sound like Squall." Seifer laughed.
"I suppose I do. I don't know. No one ever wants to be around me, so it's fucking weird that you do." I nodded. It was weird, even I agreed.
"Then why the hell are you here?" I sighed.
"I'm tired of being alone. And damnnit, if the only person willing to be around me is one who calls me 'Chicken Wuss' then at least it's someone."
You're depressing kid.
Seriously. Why the hell are you here?
"That's… sad. I'm sorry your friends are dicks." I laughed.
"Yeah. I am too." A group of girls nearby giggled. They were younger than me and Seifer. Likely new here.
"The one in the trench coat! He's so hot!"
"Yeah! The other one has hair that looks like a chocobo…"
"But he is muscular…"
"And what's with the tattoo?" I shook my head, and nodded to Seifer.
"You've got a fanclub going back there man." He turned a little, and sighed.
"All chicks. No pretty blond boys eh?" I swear my eyes might have popped out of my head.
Seifer is gay?
Why are you so surprised? It seems to be a common trait amongst your friends.
Get out of my internal monologue!
I wish I could.
"…boys?"
"What? Offended?"
"No. Just, surprised." I returned to my food, trying to not think about Seifer like that due to the lovely new information.
Stop imagining that. You're making me sick.
I'm seriously giving you back to Rinoa. It's my head. If I want to picture Seifer naked, that's my fucking business.
Not when you share a brain.
"What about you?"
"Hm?" My mouth was full.
"Are you into guys, Chicken Wuss?" I nodded.
"Yeah, I am."
"Well we have something in common. What kind of guys do you like?"
"Tall I guess… I like green eyes… I don't know. Strong maybe?" Seifer smirked slightly.
Oh my god. I've said too much. Foot in mouth. Come on. Idiot. Idiot. Idiot!
You're a moron.
Ugggh. Why do I put up with you.
"What about you?" I finally got out.
"I like 'em shorter than me. And quick-moving. Blond. I like innocence."
"Not what I'd expect," I replied.
Ahh… foot in mouth! Come on!
You're still a moron.
"I'm betting you mean innocence. Well, I don't know what it is, but a guy who has those puppy dog eyes and doesn't totally understand sex just turns me on," he replied with a shrug. Suddenly I was very uncomfortable.
"Well, I'll uh… I'll talk to you later, Seifer." He caught my arm as I left.
"Don't just run away. You're actually going to speak to me again, right Chicken Wuss?" Seifer asked. I nodded.
"I will." He released me. And I meant it. I would talk to him again… soon.
A/N: I had Adam (who's like my brother) edit this for me, since he so sweetly offered to, and after he finished he said this; "That was good. Since when is Zell left handed?" And to tell you the truth, I have no answer for that. I wrote him left handed, so he's left handed. He seems like a lefty to me. Don't know what's with my head. Another interesting thing, Snow, in FFXIII, is like Zell and Seifer's lovechild. Except he acts like Zack Fair…. But somehow dumber. It's like freaking Goku… what an idiot. Anyway, if you've read my rambling this long, you might as well leave a review. :P