I always knew I couldn't keep him.
Whenever he was with me, he seemed distant. Even bored sometimes. He would always use me as a rebound. One day he was with some girl, the next with another. When they get tired of his playboy ways and dump him, he comes to me. He would suck up to me and I fall for it. Every single time it happens.
I know he would never love me as I love him. Every waking moment I think of him. Cliché right? But still. I know my love for him would never fade. Even if he breaks my heart a dozen more times. Even if he uses me again and again. Even if he loves another.
I may only be imagining it or I'm grasping at straws. Sometimes I see it in his eyes. Though I know it is almost impossible. That he might, just might, like me. At least a bit. Sometimes he would show me his vulnerable side. A side he would never show to anyone. Sometimes he would come crying to me. I would take him into my arms and comfort me. It breaks my heart just to see him in that state.
He trusted me with his innermost secrets. One of which is the reason why he sometimes come crying to me. His abusive parents.
Not once in his whole life has he felt any genuine love from his parents. Not once. Which is also the reason why he is being a playboy. He's only looking for genuine love. And I'm the only one who knows and understands that.
Deep inside, despite the cool façade he puts on, he is just a child. A needy child. And I try to fill that void in his heart.
I love Len Kagamine.