Disclaimer: Bleach is owned by Tite Kubo

Lightning Crashes

lightning crashes, an old mother dies
her intentions fall to the floor
the angel closes her eyes

-Live

"My Sora." she whispered shakily lifting her frail hand to cup my face. I close my eyes and lean in drowning myself in the sound of her voice. I want to cry , so badly, so so badly, but I can't. I can't because of this horrible disgusting piece of shit body fate cursed me with.

Nononononono I want to scream and thrash and kick like the weak baby I am. Why did life hate me so much.

I cuss at whatever god did this to me for what feels like the millionth time.

I hear her sniff and I open my eyes. I am confused. She rubs my cheek with her thumb, soothing me. She sees through me so easily. Greasy orange messily halos her pale face but I don't care, she is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.

"I'm so sorry Sora," she whispers. The words make me furious, furious at myself and at everything.

" No no no d-don't say that ma. Don't. Say. That." I say with clenched teeth. I grab her frail hand and squeeze it in my trembling ones.

I am so weak

The edges of her lips lift up and she smiles at me (even when covered in sadness her smiles always brighten up the darkness). "Y-you were always t-there for me a-and in the end I-I'm the one l-leaving you.". A tear that had been forming on the edge of her eye spills down her cheek. Before she can reach her free hand up I lean over and wipe it with my thumb. she catches my hand in hers and presses it against her cheek. "You are the sweetest person I-I know." lies lies lies lies

"You look just like him."

I freeze.

Him. The taboo. The lie. The name without a face. The reason for my, and my mothers, misery. Him him him.

I suddenly stand and the chair I was sitting in skids back slightly. I open my mouth to say something but nothing comes out.

"Y-you make me so proud, thank you Sora for giving me a purpose. N-never forget, I-I love you so so much." she smiles and closes her eyes. I can feel her life leave her as the hand holding mine slacks.

I lift my head up and everything, everything sinks downward.

Something cracks in me. Pain bursts from my chest. It feels as if my body is being cracked and torn apart. My eyes burn as acid builds up in them(everything is yellow. green. black). The acid gushes down my eyes burning scars through my skin and suddenly I can see everything, every life, ever soul. and my mother's is not there. An inhuman screech erupts from my chest and a once dormant power erupts from my soul coating everything in a sea of dense black water. I continue to wail in despair as the room starts tearing apart from the chaos erupting from my soul.

For a fleeting second I feel the presence of an equally powerful being before a sharp pain slices through my chest I look down and see a black blade dripping in red protruding from my heart and before I can register what it is the black water engulfs me.

Darkness.

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