How much would I be willing to do if the gain was love of all my life? I would like to say for him everything. But It's not true.
I was known for my braveness, after all I was the chosen one, the one who liquidated Voldemort. I am that boy, who was ready to give away life for happiness in the world and peace. Besides I was Griffidor. Yes, I was. I don't consider myself worth fr this titel anymore. Just the one who went through the war. Survivor.
But when It came to my personal life.
Nothing.
I am coward. Pitty but true.
After the war ended I fell in love with Severus Snape. Actually I didn't realize when exactly. But one day when he accidently touched my hand I felt comets in my stomach. That feeling was magic.
He ofcourse didn't even noticed that. Or maybe he was just acting that way, however he was known as one who fooled the Dark Lord. And, believe me, that wasn't easy.
Once I wanted to tell him about my feelings. I asked him to have a dinner with me. But all evening I didn't find any chance to say whatI had in my head, heart. So I kept silent. He didn't try much to talk as well. That night we ate in quiet. Maybe he could read me too well. I am grateful to Severus, that he never showed how much he knew. And he knew much, he was Severus Snape. He even pretended that he thought I had something formed with Ginny. Oh no, girls were never really my passion.
My passion was Severus.
One day I recieved letter from him. He wrote that he prepared to left England. I am not sure why. He said he wanted to see me one last time and asked if I could visit him at Hogwarts that evening. I never did that. Wasn't ready to see him leaving.
He never wrote me anymore. Neither did I.