I had a dream the other night
About how we only get one life
I stayed awake and stared at you
So I wouldn't lose my mind
They were lying in Abby's inner office. Four hours ago Ziva they'd found out that Ziva had been drugged.
She had come her lunch break looking just fine, her tea in hand. But after half an hour she'd gone pale, lips blue and body shivering. By that time Tony and McGee was in Abby's lab and Gibbs in autopsy.
Ziva had made it to the door of Abby's lab before whispering Tony with a choked voice and blue lips. In a matter of a second she'd been wrapped in Tony's shaking embrace as they quickly made their way to Ducky.
They'd laid her on one of Ducky's autopsy tables and God he never wanted to see that sight again: Ziva unconscious, lying like a dead body, pale and cold.
Four hours later they had no idea who'd done this to her, but they'd found traces of Benzodiazepines in both Ziva and her tea.
After been taken care of by Ducky, Ziva was now feeling better lying on the pad inside the little room in Abby's lab. Tony's arm was around her waist, his face in her neck as he was holding her close to him, taking in the scent of her hair.
She was still breathing heavily, her lips now a little pale. And that's what kept Tony wide awake, terrified that she'd stop breathing in her sleep.
"You scared me there for a little while" he said, voice shaken from the events of the day.
He knew she couldn't hear him so he continud his silent rambling "Honestly I tried to avoid it. I tried not to fall in love with you. I kept telling myself that we were co-workers. All this time I thought I was fencing myself in. The truth is I was keeping you out. I was scared. Because I thought that if I loved you…. I would fall apart if you ever left. But now that we've realized it… yeah, well it doesn't make the least difference. It still hurts like hell. I love you more than I can control and living without you isn't a choice. So please, please the next time you get you're tea just double check it isn't poisoned and when you feel ill, tell me."
A few seconds of silence followed before he heard a sleepy voice in his arms.
"Okay"
"Okay?"
"I'll tell you. I'll let you take care of me when I need it. But if you want me to check my tea every time I buy one, we need to ask Abby for some easy transportable device I can have in my pockets or something" she finished off with a chuckle from her pale lips.
She could feel his smile in her neck before he pressed a kiss to it, snuggling her closer to him. And that's when her brain catched up and she interwined his hand on her stomach with her own hand.
"And for the record; I love you too"
Ten minutes later they were both asleep.