Disclaimer: Like everybody else has said already. I do NOT own CSI or the actors or the characters which are on the show. Although I do NOT have anyhting against if Jorja would someday apper to my doorstep.

Summary: Six years ago she made a decicion. Now she has a diffent life. What happens when familiar people appear back to her current life? Warning! FF relationship so if that ain´t you thing you better hide right now.

Pairing: Mainly Cath/Sara, eventually. Might have some CathOC or/and SaraOC but not sure...

A/N: Yeah.. I know. Summary sukcs. This is my second fanfic ever and the first one which is gonna contain same sex realtionship. So just bare with me okay? Good. I´ll let you go now. Enjoy!

What we have

6 years ago...

"Not this time Grissom. I´m serious about this. I am going to go back to San Francisco and that´s it."

"Sara…"

"No! I´m going. Please, don´t make this any harder than it is."

Grissom didn´t reply. Sara took this chance and left Grissom´s office and walked all the way out of the lab and to her car and drove away.

Grissom just sat in his chair defeated. He still had Sara´s resignation papers in his hand. He wanted to ran after Sara and do whatever it would take to have Sara stay in Vegas. But instead of doing what he wanted he took the assigments which were on his table and went to share them to the break room.

XXX

Catherine, Warrick, Nick and Greg were all in the break room waiting fo Grissom and Sara to appear. And they didn´t have to wait for long when Grissom walked in.

"Catherine, Nick, you have a DB out in desert." Grissom said handling the assignment sheet to Nick.

"Warrick. a missing person."

"And what will I do?"

"You, Greg, need to catch up with your paper work." Grissom told without any emotion in his voice. Everybody else in the room looked each other with the want to ask a question written on their faces.

Just when Grissom was about to walk out of the room Catherine spoke up "Hey, Grissom. Where´s Sara?"

Without even turning Grissom answered to her question "She left." and left the rest of the team to the room with shock and slightly paniced expressions on their faces. No one said anything, they were too busy hoping they had heard him wrong.

"What did he mean? Sara hasn´t left, has she?" Nick broke the silence.

"Dunno man, but I think we should get going with the cases." Warrick suggested.

"I agree. Even if I don´t want to do any stupid paper work. I´ll drop by Sara´s apartment after shifht and ask her what is going on. Okay?"

Everybody agreed and went on with the tasks they were given.

XXX

Grissom sat back to his chair. The paper work on his desk had started to building up but he still didn´t do anything to it. He knew he should but during his current condition he could not do anything anyway. All the memories os Sara filled his mind and he couldn´t help but wonder that what if he had accepted Sara´s request of going to dinner with her? Would things be different now? If he had done based on his feelings and not his rationality would Sara still be here? The only memory which seemed to pop up in his head all the time was the only one he didn´t want to remember.

"Sara. Please."

"I told you Gil, remember? By the time you figure it out you might be too late. And now you are."

"Just give me a chance. That´s all I´m asking."

"What the hell! You honestly thought that I would be still waiting for you after a year? That´s just rich!"

"I.. no... just give me a..."

"No Grissom! You´re too late. Accept it. Besides a while after I had asked you out I realised it wasn´t you who I have feelings for. It was just easier to pretend it was you. You were a safer choice."

"What!?!"

"You heard me. My feelings are for someone else. Now just go. I would like to get some sleep before I have to go to work. And the only thing keeping me away of bed is you."

He shouldn´t have waited for so long.

XXX

It was early in the morning but he knew that it wouldn´t matter. She had once told him that she could only sleep for a couple of hours at a time. Though she hadn´t told him why but he knew better than to push her to tell. That would only push her away even if liked to think he was her friend.

Greg tried to look for Sara´s car in the car park but couldn´t see it anywhere. Okay. Weird. He turned off his cars engine and headed to Sara´s apartment. He rang the doorbell for numerous times but no one came to open it. After ten minutes one of the neighbours doors opened.

"Sir, could you please try to be not so loud? Some people are to sleep here you know."

"Oh, I´m sorry. I was just…"

"She´s not gonna open."

"Excuse me?"

"Look mr…"

"Sanders. Greg Sanders."

"Mr. Sanders. Ms. Sidle apparently moved away."

"What?"

"Yeah, she said something about San Francisco and last evening she carried away, which seemed to be, the last boxes. She moved away."

"Can you tell me her new address?"

"Sorry, I don´t know it. Now could you please keep it down?"

"Sure. Thank you."

"Anytime." The neighbour closed the door.

Greg leaned his back against the door, which he was just few seconds ago tried to get answered, and let himself fall to the floor. She was gone. And she wasn´t coming back. What was he gonna tell to the others? And more importantly: why had sara left without telling to anybody?

XXX

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