Never Alone
Written by Sydney Estelle Pleasants
The song Never Alone is by BarlowGirl
I waited for you today, Jared, but you didn't show. As I sat outside dark clouds began to form in the sky above. The roll of thunder sounded in the distance, and the bright flash of lightning lit up the world.
For a short moment the flash of lightning lit up MY world, but then it was once again consumed by blackness. "Now is when I need you most, Jared. Are you still there?"
I threw myself down on my bed and buried myself in the blankets and pillows. Gazing out into the night, I cried out. My very soul seemed to scream in pain. Pain of loss and sorrow. Jared had been taken, he had been lost.
Tears rolled down my face. They would not stop. I feared that they would never end, but then again, what did I care? I yearned to scream as loud as I could. I wanted to let the world know just how much pain I was in. It felt like my heart was literally falling apart, and I knew that no amount of duct tape could even begin to fix the damage.
Now, when I needed it most, the moon was gone. The moon was the one thing that gave me the hope that I needed to live. When I threatened my life I looked to the moon and the stars for the hope and the will to keep on living. The moon and the stars symbolized a bright light that always filled me with warmth-God.
But now, when I needed it most, I feared that the moon had left me. I could not see it, and I felt helpless. Finally, I let that scream go. I screamed for everything I was worth, and it felt so damn good!
Now I know though, that I am never alone. Jared will always be with me. Even though I can't feel him by my side, I know he's always there. He touched my life like no other, and he is now apart of me. We cannot separate.
Rest In Peace
Jared Michael Douglas
"Baby D"
May 15, 1997- April 3, 2010
You are my twelve year old angel. I love you.