Title: Care too much.
Author: Israelianbabe15
Pairing,Character(s): Shelby/Jesse again ^^
Rating: M
Spoilers: none
Notes: Criss said in my stories everything happens too fast ^^ I'll try my best to slow it down a little !
Care too much.
She was never going to be his. He knew that, but he still couldn't get her out of his mind.
The whole situation was totally inappropriate. She was his teacher and he should respect her as that.
In fact, he did respect her as a teacher, although many people might disagree with that, considering how many sexual dreams he had already had about her. But for him, these dreams didn't take away his respect for her. He might have thought about having sex with her, but only because she's a teacher it's disrespectful ?
He refused to see it that way.
He always looked up to her, admired her for both her voice and her acting skills. He cared about her in a way, he knew he shouldn't, but how could he change that ? He knew her too well, to give a shit about her. He spend way too much time with her, to only see her as a teacher.
But he also knew, sex dreams about a teacher weren't supposed to come true, even though he didn't quite know how she would react if he ever told her about it. He was pretty sure she would reject him. She didn't want to coach any glee club, she wanted perfection, which included being totally professional in every way.
Knowing that he would only ever have his dreams and nothing more, made him a little sad, but he would stick with that, as to not hurt her. She would lose her job if anything ever happened between the two of them and her reputation would be ruined. This was his only concern, while that whole Student-Teacher-Relationships-are-totally-inappropriate aspect didn't bother him at all.
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He's your student for Christ's sake, stop thinking this !
Stop looking at his ass damn it !
Nooo, you can't touch him !
Calm down, he's gonna finish the song soon !
No, you can't masturbate, while watching the video of Regionals !
No, you wont put a camera his dressing room !
Stop giving him all the solos, you know his voice makes you come !
Her days consisted of these warnings from the little voice in the back of her head, that always kept her from doing inappropriate things like … well … masturbating to 'Bohemian Rhapsody', or so.
Although at night that voice was really quiet, maybe tired from screaming all day, so Shelby put the DVD of Regionals in and made herself come. It had become a ritual, since Jesse was totally untouchable for her and the pictures of other wins wouldn't do anymore.
Thinking about it, she knew even her current actions were inappropriate, but it she didn't do anything about it, she might end up in jail for actually acting out her fantasies with Jesse himself. She knew, these thoughts made her a bad person, if it wasn't because of the law it sure was because of Rachel. No mother should ever fuck the ex-boyfriend of her daughter (as if masturbating to a video of him was any better). But she knew she had done worse to her daughter and many people knew she sometimes bent the law, so the only thing that really kept her from jumping him anytime she wanted to (and she wanted that way too often), was him. He was young, handsome and would sure as hell make a great Star. She didn't want to ruin that for him. Despite the fact that she didn't really think he would want to sleep with her, she also knew it would ruin his reputation and hurting him in any way, was the total opposite of what she wanted.
TBC
A/N: There will be more to this !
Criss: If you read this (and I sure hope you do ^^), I hope this will be a little more detailed and not so fast^^. Thx for your reviews ! I'm trying my best ^^
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