[A/N]: Be warned! Not my best work. I haven't actually edited much, and I think Clarisse is OOC. The reason I uploaded this was to meet the 5 story qualification for being a beta reader, and my other story is not ready to post yet. Sorry for everyone who thinks this is an insult to PJO, I don't usually write badly (or at least show it to the public). Even though, please review!
I miss her. I know it's an unspoken vow, that no one would ever mention she was a spy or a traitor. I'm writing this down just for me, so I guess it's ok. If anyone found this diary, I would be screwed anyway.
I understand her now. I went through a few stages – mourning, denial, incomprehension, and now understanding. I can't believe I never noticed anything weird with her. I know I sound pretty mushy right now, but seriously, she was my best friend. And that's saying something, especially because she is was a daughter of Aphrodite. I don't get along well with people, as everyone knows. She was truly gifted with getting along with people, for being liked, for just being an overall kind person. That's what made me so shocked about her betrayal, and so sad to see her go.
It's surprising how many demigods have betrayed Camp Half-Blood, but in the end, helped save us. I'm not sure if it's good or bad. I can think of 3 right now, can you? Wow. I feel dumb, writing questions into a diary that no one is even going to answer. I feel weird just having a diary. I guess it's just another quirky trait I picked up from her. Another way of honoring a fallen friend.
I feel a burning hatred for Kronos. Where he went after Luke saved the day, I don't know. Kronos was the reason for all these deaths, all these fallen comrades. More than I can count. Stupid titans.
Hmm, I wonder if I can send this diary entry to the Underworld, as a letter? Maybe she'll receive it at the Elysium. Nah, Hades would probably read through it, no way was I gonna let the god of the dead read my private stuff. She would be happy though, to get mail from me, but I would still be a little embarrassed to let her read it. It doesn't really matter, as she knows all of my secrets already. She was the first person I ever poured out my soul to. Nevermind. That settles it then. No mailing things to the Underworld. I'll just tell her how much I miss her when I see her in the future. The near future or the far future? I don't know. Life is dangerous when you're a half-blood. Sad, but true. Countless lost lives can testify for that fact.
One last thing: I love you, Silena. You were like my sister. True, my completely opposite sister, but my sister all the same. After all, our parents love each other. I miss you too. I'll see you again someday, don't worry. You taught me how to write my feelings in a diary so they wouldn't be bottled up inside me. Thank you. I feel sad that you'll never get to see these words though. I'll just tell you in person.
-Clarrise La Rue
R.I.P. Silena Beauregard, Daughter of Aphrodite.
My best friend, a spy, a hero.
[A/N]: Flames are welcome, I know I didn't do that well but I'd like to know exactly where I messed up. Thanks!