Disclaimer: I do not own JA or any of the characters.
Chapter 1: Love Notes
I see her trying desperately to get the fountain to work and smile as I walk over. Glad that Victor asked me to give something to Lauren, it gave me an excuse to talk to her.
"I'm passing love notes."
She looks up, and as she wipes the water from her chin, I hold my breath. "Oh, the kids." She takes it from my hand and our fingers brush past each other.
"Yes," Smiling at the way she reacted. "I'm supposed to tell you, to tell Lauren the new Black Eyed Peas Cd, is like, totally sweet." I said desperate to carry on the conversation.
"I will certainly pass on some version of that." She smiles, "so Victor's coming home tomorrow?" I lean against the wall, relaxed, she carries the conversation forward.
"Yeah. He's doing great. Thanks for the cookies, that was, a big hit. He went through them, in about 15 minutes."
"Did you help?"
"No, no I was good."
"Lauren wanted me to ask you when she can come see him."
"Anytime, really I mean he, he, he's staying at, uh Kelly's mothers place for the next few days. She's gonna look after him while I'm at work. But Lauren's welcome at any time. I mean it's actually closer to your house, anyway."
"Well let them work it out. I'll just be taxi." She starts to walk away, desperate to carry on talking to her I call out.
"Amy...." She turns and I have to swallow before I carry on speaking. She is so beautiful. "If you change your mind." My heart is in my throat, waiting for her to answer, the smile now gone from her face.
"I'm not going to." I almost cried out, but managed to hold back. The hope I had been holding onto had just been ripped from my grasp. She carried on walking away, I was frozen, my hands in my pockets. I didn't know what to do, how to carry on. So many thoughts bouncing around in my head, I felt like a heavy weight had been placed on my chest. I felt like I couldn't breathe, closing my eyes I tell myself, the time will come when she will hear me out.