Summary:

Jack Frost has been the school's biggest heartthrob and the school's biggest jerk. He was part of the school's most popular clique. Elsa Winters is the quiet, mysterious girl that everybody picks on. Jack was her biggest bully, her former best friend. But all tides turn. And he finds out that Elsa has a secret and a horrible past. The most shocking thing is… Elsa is secretly leader. He finds out that Elsa Winters was not the girl he thought she was. And he regretted underestimating her. (Jelsa) (High school AU) (Spy AU)

Warning, there will be:

Gore, sadness, depression, bullies, mentions of suicide, fighting, self harm, and lots and lots and LOTS of angst. Be prepared to ride the feels train.

I suggest you not to read this if you are sensitive to the topics and can't endure (forced) cannibalism.

Never underestimate me

CHAPTER 1

ELSA'S POV

I exited out the door; the cool morning wind greeted my face. The rays of morning sunlight went into my field of vision. I looked back one more time before I entered the dark cruel place this world was in. It was the start of another horrible week. A certain girl with strawberry-blonde hair came up to me with understanding eyes.

"Do you really have to go? I-I mean, I know you hate it there but-"

I cut her whimpers off. "It's gonna be alright, Anna. I promised mom and dad that I would finish my studies."

Anna sighs as she looks down at her shoes. "A-Alright. If you need me, just call."

I limply waved a goodbye to her, and shoved my gloved hands in my hoodie pockets. I was still feeling cold inside, but no matter. The cold never bothered me anyways. Not now, and it never will. I limply bounced down the porch steps and unto the gravelly pavement. No one was up and about except for a jogger and some early workers.

Here I am, walking to the hell hole that everybody calls 'school'. I don't know why I even bother on going here. I just can't wait for my high school to be over so I can just run away and never leave a trace to anyone there ever again. I try to enjoy my walk to school for as long as I can, because it's the only good thing about the day. I had to walk through a forest, which is good because it conceals our home, my home.

I arrived in Burgess High school, where all the students here are either as*holes, emo's, or actually pretty decent people. Well me? I'm the odd one out. I'm the kind of girl who tries her best to stay in the shadows and to be well hidden but everybody picks on me. I'm the prey to bullies, although, I never fight back. If I did though, well, they would be crawling away like ants.

If they only knew.

As I walked down the halls of this crazy demented asylum, a few girls pointed to me and gossiped about nonsense. Those crazy idiots, can't they just leave me alone? They babbled about nonsense like:

"Look! It's the freak!"

"Eugh, what is she wearing?"

"It's, like, super hot today. Why is she wearing that?"

"Why is she always wearing gloves?"

"I mean, like, she always wears gloves."

I didn't mind them. I was used to it. I stopped caring long ago. I stopped feeling long ago. I've been broken way too many times, now I'm just the cold expressionless living soul now. I wished I was me back then, when I was actually happy. When I was free. When I cared about my life. But now, I'm just a blank killing machine, being forced to go undercover. Being forced to hide the real me.

I arrived by my locker and tried to put my stuff away. Just as I was about to close my locker, a black pouch fell on the floor and the things inside it made a loud metal clank when it hit the floor. My eyes widened, and before anyone could spot it, I immediately picked it up and shoved it back in the deep recesses of my locker. I'd rather die if anyone found out what was in that bag.

I heard the familiar squeal of fan girls, which must mean that The Guardians are nearby.

The Guardians are the most popular clique of the school. They're called 'The Guardians' because they're involved with the school somehow. They're the ones who always bully me. I can beat them up on my own, I chose not to. I'm smarter than that. They walk around with their proud strides, but deep inside I know they're just stupid jerks. They're consisted of North, Sandy, Tooth the b*tch, kangaroo, and Frost idiot.

One of them used to be my best friend. Jack Frost. Until that jerk ditched me for The Guardians, which I think is pretty idiotic. I hated him from that day forward. He was my only friend, the one who kept me alive despite the hell hole I've been living. I've been good to him, I admit, I had a minor crush on him, with his beautiful white hair and blue eyes and all that. But he left me just to be in a stupid group.

That bastard.

I was going to walk to my class, but of course, I didn't get that far. Before I can escape, a hand grabbed me by my shoulder and my back slammed against a locker. It hurt, but I was used to it, so used to it that I was almost immune. Jack smirked at me, glaring at me evilly with those blue eyes.

"Well, well, look what we have here. It's the nerd." Jack sneered, his clique gathered around him and me. I just stared back at him with a cold and emotionless look.

"She looks trashier than last week." Tooth sneered. She's like this girl with crazy dyed hair in a pixie cut. Also, her nickname is ridiculous. If she was really a tooth, I would love to be a dentist right now so I can rip her out from someone's mouth.

He seemed to be bothered by me not being scared of him. He then looked at his companions. "Hey guys, wanna play volleyball?" He smirked. The others whooped in response.

"Dude, I would totally like a workout right now." Kangaroo said.

The 3 of them- except for North and Sandy, they never bullied. They were actually pretty nice to me- all pushed me around. I just grunted as they threw me around like a broken volleyball. Jack and his 2 lackeys chortled as they pushed me around. It kinda hurt, but IU was used to it. I was getting mad, though.

Finally, they started to knee my stomach. Tooth kicked me while Bunny- kangaroo's real name- pulled at my hair. Jack just kept on kneeing me in the stomach. The taste of blood filled my mouth. It hurt, but I didn't feel it. Like I said, I stopped feeling long ago. I was used to being hurt. I was used to being pushed around like a maid. I didn't fight back, all because I made a promise. I wanted to fight back. I NEEDED to fight back, for my own sake. But I promised something. And I never intend to break that promise.

I mewled and I groaned in pain, but like I always said, I was used to it.

All the while, they threw insults at me:

"You worthless nerd!"

"Why do you even bother, huh?"

"You will never belong!"

"Why don't you just kill yourself?"

Huh. Excellent question. I ask that myself all the time. I imagined how easy it was, pulling the trigger, sharpening the knife, and tying the noose.

As I lay there on the cold ground, I can see North and Sandy look at me in pity. I know they were too good to be with these 3 jerks. They deserved more. They were nice people, people that I knew.

When the bell rang for class, the 3 hauled me and dumped me in the trash can. They all laughed and slapped hands. Jack hollered one last insult.

"There! Now you're finally where you belong!" Jack hollered. "In the trash!"

The 3 all slapped hands all 5 of them walked away to join class. North and Sandy gave me one last sorry glanced. North and Sandy both secretly mouthed 'sorry' as they regrouped with their clique.

I just climbed out of the trash can, a tad bit of shame in my soul as students gawked, laughed, and pointed at me with glee. I ran away, far until I reached the girl's bathroom. Fortunately, it was empty, like it was waiting for me.

I stared at myself in the mirror. My hair- that was earlier tied into a neat bun- was crazy and was matted into clumps. My clothes was dirty due to the trash can experience. My face was also kind of dirty, because a certain someone bashed my face into the ground earlier. My stomach and abdomen was sore and hurting due to kicks and punches. A few bruises and scratches were here and there. Oh well, guess I'll add that to my collection of horrible memories.

But despite the horrible things on me, my expression was cold and emotionless. I stared back at what used to be my face; all I see are chapped lips, pale white cheeks, crazy hair, thin worm eyebrows, and blue dull eyes that lost all life and happiness in them.

I leaned over and placed my hands on the grimy bathroom sink, using it for support. I stared back at my reflection, back at the girl in the mirror. Silence enveloped me.

Those idiots. If they only knew…. If they knew how much power I had, they would think twice about looking at me. The thing that I hate the most is when people underestimate me. One thing is for sure:

Never underestimate me.

I was tempted. Tempted to unleash the beast in me. Tempted to let out the raging storm that encased in me for so long. Instantly, my gloves began to frost over, and so did the sink. I stared at what I have done, at what I had made. I removed my hands from the sink and stared back at them. Slowly, I tugged off the glove fingers, one by one. Until my hands were bare.

I stared back at my pale, scarred flesh. Sighing as I searched within me. I expected to feel anger, hatred, regret, fear. All I found is emptiness and a cold, dark, landscape. That is what I am, empty and cold.

I balled my hands into fists, my fingernails dug into my palms. Pain. I feel something, finally. Pain. Sweet, sweet pain. Huh, maybe I'm not so empty after all.

I closed my eyes and tried to exit out of the real world. I whisper out the words that kept me alive every since he left me.

"Conceal, don't feel."

"Don't let them know…"

So, hey guys! Here is my lousy attempt at angst. I guess I haven't done this in a long time. Oh well. Be prepared to board the feels train, I am your conductor and we will go and have a tour through 'Tears-And-Gore Town'. :3

If you read the warning and are sensitive to some of the mentioned topics, I suggest you don't read this choice. But if you want to continue… then it's your choice.

Reviews are always appreciated! Guys, tell me if you like the story! Should I continue it or not?

Anyways, see you guys in my next update!