"I can't do this anymore." I whispered into the mirror of my bathroom. "I can't be this ugly or small, stupid."
"Rachel It's time for school!" my father shouted up the stairs at me screaming so loud that my body practically shook in fear.
I headed down the stairs as quick as humanly possible, so that he couldn't get any more angry than he already was.
"Rachel, your father should be home tonight to collect the rest of his things and he insists on taking you to his new home with him." My father walked up to me his blue eyes so cold that they were practically ice "And if you even think of what is going on you will be sorry to you hear me!"
I nodded "Yes sir I-I understand." I stammered pulling on my jacket.
"Good girl. Alright I will see you on Saturday, and remember don't you dare tell your father a thing!"
"Daddy, why can't I just go and live with Dad!" I whinned begging him. I knew I shouldn't have done that, but I didn't want to come back to this place. The place that was supposed to be home to me, but where I felt so alone that I couldn't even breathe."
He turned on me back slapping me across the face so hard I slammed into the door my head knocking into the wood painfully "You little bitch, after everything I have fucking done for you! You aren't even my fucking biological daughter Rachel!" He screamed "Pick yourself up off the floor and make yourself fucking useful." He grabbed me by the elbow pulling me into him roughly "You're useless Rachel, such a fucking waste of space." He grabbed his briefcase walking to the front door and slamming it shut.
I tried to straighten my self out going to the hallway mirror and fixing my hair and my shirt. "He's under a lot of stress Rachel, and the drugs he's on." I lie to myself all of the time, the only problem is I never believe myself."
I got into my car, trying to get to school as fast as possible, though my vision was slightly blurry. if I was late I would be truly sorry later. I parked in my normal spot and headed into the school.
"Rachel where have you been?" Kurt asked as I approached my locker.
"Oh sorry, um was I supposed to be here earlier?" I asked very confused.
He rooled his eyes at me in his normal annoyed way "emergency glee meeting remember." He asked tapping his head.
I never forgot about Glee, maybe when my father had knocked me into the door this morning I had gotten a slight concussion. "Oh I um...sorry..." I was cut off by the horrified look on the male diva's face.
"Rachel, what happened?" He asked hesitantly. His voice softer than I had ever heard it before.
"Oh this?" I asked slightly laughing as I pointed to my cheek "I got kicked at tae kwon doe last night, no big deal." I am a great actress. I lie all the time to other people, the only problem is that they believe me.
Kurt looked hesitant reaching up one of his beautifully manicured hands and brushing it lightly over my cheek, shocking me " Rachel, you know you can talk to me. I mean you know that right."
I nodded and put on a great smile "I know." I told him closing my locker, now let's go and get to that emergency meeting."
The glee club was looking around looking extremely bored and extremely angered by the fact that we actually had a meeting before school , and I rolled my eyes at them walking into the room.
"Rachel!" Finn smiled happily jumping out of his seat and walking over to me , stretching out his arms for a hug "Baby, what happened?" He asked angrily ready to punch anyone who had laid there hands on me.
"What the fuck Rachel ?" Puck asked joining Finn in the anger.
I held up my hands and smiled to both of them "It's nothing. Last night I had my tae kwon doe class and I may have gotten kicked in the face." I didn't let Finn opn his mouth so I kept on rambling.
"I assure you all that I am fine and that it did hurt, and still does but it will be gone in no time."
Finn just sighed and wrapped and arm around my shoulders leading me into a chair "I want to punch whoever did that to you Rachel, accident or no accident. People aren't allowed to lay there hands on you.
I smiled wondering how Finn could love someone like me. A waste of space...as my father would say. "I know you would baby, but this is what tae kwon doe is about. On another note where is he is usually very punctual."
"We don't know." Quinn replied looking up at me with...pity. Quinn and I had become, not friends over the summer but something close to it and she had even been nice on occasion.
"So Rach, do you want to go out Friday night?" Finn asked giving me his crooked smile that I loved so much.
I tried to think Friday night I would be with my Dad, and not my Daddy "I'd love to Finn." I smiled at him.
"Great Angel." He kissed my lips softly and I had to fight the urge not to cringe when he touched me. I hated this, and I hated my Daddy for making me feel that would never hurt me, would he be capable? Yes. He could squash me like a tiny little bug if he wanted to, but he was kind Rachel. He would never ever hurt you.
"Hello?" Santana asked waving her hand in front of my face as I came back to reality.
"What?" I asked coming out of my daze thoroughly disoriented.
"Rachel, you okay?" Finn asked as I noticed he was kneeling next to my chair holding one of my small hands in his giant ones.
"Yeah." I shook my head trying to remeber everything that I could, though I was having trouble.
"Rachel here look at me." Mike chang ordered softly stepping in front of me and bending down to look into my eyes.
"Can you look to the right and left?" He asked moving his finger from side to side.
Mike whispered something to Finn and I let my eyes close slightly I felt like a black cloud was trying to cover me.
"Rachel come on we're going to take you to the nurse okay." Finn whispered softly into my ear.
"I'm tired Finn." I mumbled trying to push his hands away from me.
"I know you are sweetie okay, you just need to get to the nurse." Finn said with such urgency that I had to command. I had to do it for me.
Finn grabbed my elbow and helped me to my feet as I swayed dizzly my head in so much pain that I could barely move. I didn't even have to force myslef into taking a step before Finn swept me off my feet carrying me quickly to the nurse. I felt myself being laid down on the cot and finn stroke my hair gently.
"Honey, is there someone I can call to take you to the hospital."
"Call Dad, don't call Daddy." I begged her the pain bringing tears to my eyes "just please don't call my daddy."