This feeling felt like pure bliss. Nothing else mattered. I welcomed this with a smile, well as much of a smile that I could manage. Some may call me a masochist but this had nothing to do with arousal. This had to do with satisfaction. I was finally getting what I wanted out of life and I finally had the power. My ability to control my life had been ripped away from me long ago. I was just drifting along. But now see now the power is back in my hands. What power is this? This is the power to bring out the darkness that clouds my insides and push it to the light. No longer would I have to toil over thoughts of anger and sadness. No longer would any emotion rise up in me. I wouldn't have to go back to that piece of shit diner, because with this power I happily quit. I wouldn't have to worry about what I was going to eat or how I was going to pay the bills because it didn't matter. Yes this is it this is the grand finale that everyone hopes for but only a chosen few get to succeed. And I was a chosen one. I was given the power to allow my choice of ending to a wretched life. I was given the power to pick my own death. And I welcome it with open arms.

4 hours earlier…

I Eren Jaeger have finally had enough. I don't know why I allowed this to go on. I feel as if I just keep handing over my life to unknown forces that are intent on pissing me off. Here I am at the ripe age of 16 and living it up. And by living it up I am wiping the shit off of the floor at the exclusive and luxurious Titan diner. Only the best eat here. We have everything; from week old doughnuts to the greasiest burger you can imagine. Our customers are the finest in the land. We have the truck drivers, the hitchhikers, the biker gangs, an assortment of prostitutes who could be my grandmother, drug dealers, and whatever kind of crook you can imagine. Yes they gather together at this fine place of dining. Unfortunately for me I wasn't a waiter. I was a bus boy and also the clean up boy. I was in charge of removing shit whether it was from tables or from the toilet. I was to mature to go out, party, drink like a fool, and hang out with friends like other teenagers. It had nothing to do with me being broke, parentless, friendless, and a high school dropout. Nope this is the life I always dreamed of. And this is what I will tell myself everyday as I wake up in my half lit piece of shit studio apartment. The only furniture I had in this dump was my bed, my TV, a dresser, and one chair. No table just a chair. I had a fridge that smelled like old people farts no matter how many times you cleaned it. My stove should be part of a museum because it is a UN workable fossil. If I didn't work at a diner and had a nice cook who let me take food home I would most likely starve. But not many people could say they were living the young, wild, and free life like I was so who am I to complain.

See this life is all about control. It just so happened that I own none of this control. I couldn't control the car accident that took my parents away. I couldn't control the government who decided they couldn't take me in so they gave me an apartment and a job and said "good luck". I couldn't control that said apartment was away from all my friends and in the "best" part of town. Well at least I also got a car out of this. I couldn't control that the heater, ac, or radio worked. But hey it got me to work and back home. It was so ugly it wasn't even worth stealing. It is 2013 and I am driving a car that is 3 years older than me.

I should probably stop daydreaming and get back to work. I should also pay more attention to the three creeps who have been eyeing me like decadent dessert since they came in. this isn't the first time I have seen them. I should say something but my stubbornness and pride won't let me admit I'm most likely getting stalked by men. So I will do what I do best, ignore them. At least I can control that. I have the power to shut up and not get fired so ill do that. I get off in 20 minutes anyway. I can eat a grease filled dinner; watch a shit rerun, take a shower, and go to sleep. The good life.

"Take care Eren!" my boss says to me as I walk out of the diner. I just need to throw the trash away and I can slip home. Not too bad of a day I even made some tips.

"Hey sweet thang you look real adorable in that uniform."

You have got to be kidding me. I turn my head and see none other than the three sons of bitches who had been creeping on me. Tonight must be their night to make a move. Fuck this I am tired and cranky.

"Um thank you. I will be leaving now."

The tallest one with an ugly hair cut and an even uglier face steps out and blocks my path. Fuck.

"Now where do you think you're going? We were watching your pretty little ass all week. I know you've seen us. Now how about coming with us and making some real money. We would take good care of your cute ass."

"As much as I would love to fuck a horse I really would rather not!"

"What did you call me you little shit?"

Well this wasn't going to end well. I had no control over how this situation started but I had control of how it would end. I wasn't for getting impaled by men I wasn't attracted to I decided to do this my way. Instead of answering I punched the horse faced freak in the face. And I even had begun to kick his ass till I remembered he had friends. And I was reminded by the kick to my face and then being kicked to the ground. The fun didn't stop there; I felt kicks coming from what felt like 10 men. I didn't know if more had joined in but it felt like it. I felt the air leaving my lungs and I am pretty sure I heard something snap.

Present moment.

The darkness is kicking in. I will gladly take this than being some fools butt prostitute. Right as I felt death wrapping its arms around me in a loving embrace I heard screams coming from all around me. I couldn't move my eyes so I just fell into the darkness.

One week later

I feel like shit. My throat is burning and I am pretty sure I am in hell. I have to be my body feels like someone that's 500 pounds with needles coming out of their ass sat on me. I don't think I can move anything. I can barely recall my last moment of life. I am pretty sure by the screams I heard I am in some place of torment. But I hear no screams. I manage to slowly open my eyes and take in my surroundings. Everything is really bleak and I can barely see. My eyes begin to focus and I find myself staring into the eyes of an

"Angel."

"Ha-ha well that is something I have never been called before. Oi brat I see you have finally woken up. From the way you have been knocked out the past few days I thought you died."

"Wait I'm not dead? Where am I? Who are you?"

"You're welcome for saving your life, treating your wounds, and letting stay in my house. But if you must know I am Levi. You were about to become a sex toy and I don't interfere with prostitutes and their clients but they usually are conscious."

"I AM NOT A PROSTITUTE!" who is this guy and why the fuck am I here?

"Well sorry. If you had let me finished I would have said I calmly asked them what they were doing and I received a fuck off. Well no one tells me to fuck off so thanks to you I had to fight 3 wanna be thugs."

"Wait so before I passed out it was their screams I heard? What did you do?"

"You do not want to know. Just know they won't be bothering anyone for awhile."

I didn't know whether to feel thankful or afraid of this man. As he was talking I took a chance to drink in his full appearance. I say drink because despite being weird the man was intoxication. I see why I call him an angel. He was pale with sharp blue-grey eyes. He had high cheekbones, a small nose, and fine thin pink lips. He had what looked to be silky hair that was buzz cut in the back. I couldn't see his height but the man looked to be short. He was toned and had a deep voice. If it wasn't for the situation I would jerk off to him at night. Men this beautiful never notice me.

"Oi are you listening to me? Apparently not since you are too busy staring." The man named Levi walked closer to me and leaned in. I could feel his breath on my ear. It felt warm and kind of tickled. I held in a breath as he whispered in what I think I seductive voice "you like what you see?"

I hope that this man couldn't see my face because I feel all the heat in the world in my face. I don't know who this Levi is but he is not fun. I was trying to get a thought out when I felt something cold and wet on my neck. It was with great horror, shock, and arousal (though I won't admit it) that I found Levi licking my neck.

"You know I could see why they tried to gang bang you. You are quite delicious to look at. Your eyes are quite lovely and I must say for a brat you the attractive one."

I was trying to get words out of my mouth but nothing was coming. I tried to gulp in air and swallow spit to calm down. My heart felt like it was going into overdrive. I had no idea who this man was and I didn't know his intentions with me. He could very well just try to do what those thugs did and just knocked out the competition. I wanted to scream and I wanted to run. But I was kind of captivated by those eyes staring so strangely into mine. He had to have known I am too weak to move and I am most likely filthy. I wanted to tell him to move but I also wanted to see how far he would take this.

"Could you um not do that?"

Levi had this shit eating grin when he asked "not do what?"

"Um lick me. You are toying with me and I don't like it."

"You sure about that brat?"

I wanted to say yes when I felt a cold hand under my shirt. I don't know when the bastard placed his hands under there but it was now moving across my chest. This Levi got on top of me and pulled my shirt up. I was at a loss for words and couldn't form a protest. I guess he took this as an ok as his hands roamed my body. He placed his thumbs on my nipples and rubbed them with great force. This got a squeak out of me and a laugh out of him. His cold hands were exploring my torso and I couldn't look away as the sight of him doing this was kind of hot. His hands moved to my sides and then I let out a gasp of pain.

"I guess I caught a placed they kicked extra hard."

Levi moved down on my body went from using his hands to his mouth. The places where I hissed in pain he went to kissing it. My breathing got heavier as he moved to kissing up my stomach, chest, collarbone, and stopped at my neck. I thought for sure he could hear my rapid heartbeat. He bit on my neck lightly and began to suck on it. It left me feeling weird and I squirmed a bit as his sucking got harder. He did this multiple times to other spots of my neck and did finally found my voice.

"What the fuck are you doing?"

"I am merely marking what is mine."

"Yours! When the fuck did I become yours? I don't even know you and I was doing just fine! Why is everyone trying to get in my pants all of a sudden? Damn!"

Levi stopped his vampire act on my neck and pulled his face above mine. I could tell he was heavy in thought. I don't know who hell he was or why he thought this was ok. I didn't like how he was just all on top of me. I didn't like how my body was reacting to it. The fact stands I was almost raped and now I am with some stranger. He must think because he is attractive he can do what he wants. I gave him the meanest glare I could summon and all I got was a chuckle. What the fuck?

"Well you could not be doing so great because you were half dead with your pants yanked down when I found you. I don't usually do the hero thing but I took pity on your sorry ass. You looked so helpless and they pissed me off. I didn't expect for you to be so damn cute. If you haven't noticed I took care of your injuries and cleaned the filth from your body. Upon seeing how cute you are I decided you were mine. You may not know me but you will soon. When I decide I want something I get it. And when I do I protect t at all cost. Marking you will make sure no other asshole will be dumb enough to attack you again."

I stared at the man in disbelief. So now I am property. And here is when once again I lost control of my life. Just when I thought I gained power I lost it. Whatever power I had was now in the hands of this fallen angel named Levi.

"What do you want from me? I don't have money and I am really not for fighting off getting raped just to fight again."

"Sweetheart in your condition you couldn't harm a fly. I don't want money from you I have that. I want you to move in with me and be mine. I am the most feared drug dealer in this city and nobody would ever harm you. I get lonely and unless you have a family waiting for you at home I don't see your options."

Damn he bought up my family. I felt tears welling up in my eyes and I couldn't fight back. In the entire time I lived here nobody has taken an interest in me. The nicest people to me were my boss and the cook. And I am banking on it being out of pity and not friendship. I looked Levi in the eyes as he was watching me. I couldn't stop the tears from flowing down my face.

"I don't have anybody! So please don't mention family again."

"Neither does me punk. So like I said come be with me."

"Please do not tell me you are a drug lord with a heart of gold. That is hilarious."

"Actually I am a cold hearted asshole. But I don't think you will ever try and steal from me. I also don't think you really enjoy working at that piece of shit diner. With me you'd never have to work again."

"Life isn't that easy. You say that now but what if you lose everything. We control nothing that happens on Earth we just live life. Why should I give some stranger like you the power over my life? If you don't like me you could easily dispose of me."

"Kid you sound like you've had it tough. We all have. I just chose to do this with my life. Whether I come to regret this decision later is something only time can tell. As for now this is the path I took control of. So I don't starve to death. You have power of your life right now. You can say no to me and go back to your life or you can stay with me. The choice is yours."

I regarded all of Levis words carefully. He was right; this was something I did have control over. The more I thought about it the better moving in with him sounded. I didn't know him and what he was capable of but he saved me from death once. He seemed to understand me and gave me the power to decide. Maybe I didn't want to be alone and struggling the rest of my life. Maybe being with someone would make me feel less cold. However Levi seemed to want to inspire my decisions. While I was still deep in thought he closed the gap between us and pushed his lips to mine. He had sinfully soft lips. He wrapped his arms around my neck to deepen the kiss. I opened my mouth and allowed him entrance. He tasted sweet and bitter all at once. I managed to put my arms around his waist and deepened the kiss further. I was losing myself in this kiss and then suddenly it was over.

"I am going to take this as a yes?"

"You could say that."

Levi just smiled and went back to kissing me senseless. His hands were running up and down my torso again. This time I didn't want him to stop. It felt good. His hands began moving down farther and farther and stopped at my pants. Somehow he had changed them to sweats. I couldn't really ponder this as I felt a cold slip its way into my boxers. His hand had grabbed ay my length and gave it a soft squeeze. I let out a moan and he began stroking my now hardening cock. It felt amazing and I was bucking my hips to get more friction. Levi pulled my pants down and let my cock free. The air was cold against it but with Levis hand around it I felt like I was on fire. I felt pre cum leaking from the tip and Levi rolled his thumb over it. This felt absolutely amazing. This was better than anything I could do with my own hand. Levi moved to sucking my neck again as his hand moved faster on my dripping cock. I was moaning his name by now which earned me harder sucks. I felt something in boiling up ready to explode.

"Levi I... im about to"

I was cut off by Levis mouth pulling me back into a deep kiss. My orgasm then blasted through coating his hands with cum as I screamed into his mouth. I felt spent as my high rolled away. I didn't know what to make much of the situation and I didn't want to over think it. I had just decided to move in with some Scarface of the Midwest. I also decided to let him give me a hand job. I bit my lip and turned my head in embarrassment. This guy must think I'm a fool.

"You're cute when you make that face. Hey look at me!"

I turned my face slowly and faced him.

"You are obviously a virgin so I won't go any further than this. But you need to let whatever shame you have walk out the door. Whatever happens is between us ok. Now I am guessing you want to get your things."

I nodded my head yes. However whatever strength I had left when Levi touched me. I couldn't move an inch.

Levi read my mind because he then said "well give me your address and I'll send someone to get you things and to get your car." He leaned down to place another kiss on my lips and I could feel the bastard smiling. He asked me "so my new lover anything you want?"

I smiled as sweetly as I could and replied "yes some fucking water! Food and painkillers would be great also. If there is any way I could get a hot bath I wouldn't mind that either. Also how long will you be on top of me, my body is still sore. And if you don't mind I really hope you have books and cable I am not trying to be bored all day while you go take over the world with your minions."

The face Levi gave me would make other people shit their pants but only made me laugh. I felt like we were now even. I saw him fighting a smirk as he said "you are a little shit aren't you? Well I sure know how to pick them." I laughed more and he silenced me with another kiss.

We really don't control how our lives play out. We only get the power to make choices. And I had the gut feeling I made the right one.