Panic.
He couldn't handle it anymore.
The OCD...I-it was to much,he was gonna end it once and for all...after all it was the right thing to do...was it not?
He assured himself it was.
"All you do is bother people,their only you friends because of pity"
He hated it all of it brought him a lot of pain, both physical and emotional.
He would hear people talk about it in the halls.
"Poor kid"
"Oh watch out guys here comes the prince of symmetry"
They would pull on one side of his shirt which pissed him off extremely.
"To hell with them"
He brought the gun to his temple.
"Sorry Liz,patti,tsubaki,blackstar,soul and most of all...sorry maka. I've had a crush on you since we first met, and I've never had the balls to say anything about it-"
"Kid...don't" kid didn't bother to look, he knew who it was
"Why not, it's not like I'm ever gonna live in comfort with myself."
"Kid, we can help you-"
"Don't bother, why are you even here"
"Maka said you have been depressed lately, 'thought I should check in on you"
Kid was happy that maka was worried about him. Not that she needed to be-or did she?
"How long have you been here"
"For about a few minutes"
"So then you heard-"
"Yea"
Kid flushed red
-not something he thought was possible to do while holding a gun to your head.
"Why Kid, you've got a big house loving friends,and a loving father."as he said this lord death sat next to kid.
"Have you not?"he said in his usual voice.
"I do, what I have yet to obtain is self comfort ."
Lord death knew that medicine would not work on a shinigami,
Therefor a medicated substance's attempts would not have an affect on kid.
"So you Immediately jump to suicide?"
Kid dropped the gun on the floor.
"What else is there to do?!" Asked kid.
"Talk to someone dummy"said death mousing up kids hair.
"To who!?" Yelled kid." All my friends are dumbasses my weapons are stubborn...and worst of all...my father dodges every question i throw at him and looks like something out of an anime!"
"I don't think you should be bottling up your emotions so just because of my appearance you think I'm incapable of listening. Kid,you can talk to me anytime." Said lord death patting kid on the back.
Kid smacked death's hand and stood up with an angry expression on his face. "YOU DONT THINK IVE TRIED!When was the last time you had a relevant conversation with me!?or with anyone for that matter?!"
"What do you mean by 'relevant conversation'"asked death.
Kid looked like he was about to explode
"one where you don't dodge questions or hide anything. I may be bottling up emotions but your the one who hides from others."kid pointed out.
"Son you have to understand"began lord death.
"Understand what! How am I supposed to understand anything...wh...when I've never. Not ONCE seen my fathers face. When I don't know if my mother is alive... Or if I even have a mother. WHAT THE HELL AM I?!WHAT AM I TO YOU HUH,LORD DEATH."Said kid emphasizing on his last words.
Lord death was completely dumbstruck that his son would say something like that.
"Just tell me"said kid beginning to cry"why can't you trust me."
"Kid I do trust y-"
"NO because you couldn't tell me about the kishin under the academy."
"Kid-"
"AND you failed to tell me that that kishin was my BROTHER."
Said kid pounding his fist into the some students down below that were walking by."I'm pretty sure that can be called a lack of trust."
Lord death looked up"kid I understand that I've made some questionable choices but you can't say that you haven't."
"What do you mean."asked kid.
"Kid it's not just you here, your not alone. There will always be someone to help. Someone who will gladly hear your problems."responded death.
"Yea"said kid with a chuckle"like who"
"Lets run down the list shall we"began lord death."there's Marie: she's nice and loving and very motherly. Would be very happy to help.
Stein who would gladly give you advice- although he might ask for a frog to dissect in return.
And then there's spirit,he's been like a second father to you."
"What are you talking about the only time spirit talks to me is when he's telling me not to try anything on maka."spat kid.
Lord death grew a small smile under his mask."I remember when you and maka were kids, spirit took you guys to get ice cream and ended up on the reviving end of a thugs knife."
Kid gasped"what no way"
"Yes kid a thug was joint to mug him but being who he is he resisted. He ended up with a wound on his collarbone. It was rather large and deep if I might add but he didn't even go to the hospital"added death.
"How come I don't remember any of this."said kid.
"I don't know really I guess you were to young." Replied lord death. "Kid you and maka were good friends as children. You helped her learn to read! Do you know how much that must mean for her. If anything I'd say you were her first crush."
Kid looked at his father with glowing eyes."so you think I've got a chance!?"
"I know you've got a chance" said lord death standing up and hugging his son.

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