Give Unto Me
By HonestFFWriter
Rated: M (duh)
Genres: Drama & Romance
Pairings: LXFem!Light, and others coming soon...
Summary: AU. Hikari Yagami's life changed one day when she came into the possession of the Death Note. She never imagined how greatly it would change.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Explanation time. One of the reasons why I haven't been on for the last couple of years...Life. In college, holding down a job. Yeah, been very busy. I finally found some time for myself. For my other fanfic, Burning Desires, I have half the next chapter already done. However, I wanted to do a Death Note fic for quite a while now since these ideas in my head just won't leave me alone! I was inspired by a couple of DBZ fanfics about what it would've been like if a main character were an opposite gender or if they had any other long lost relatives and so forth. I decided to try one with Death Note.
I know there are fanfics out there where characters are the opposite gender, but I don't know if this kind of idea is done already concerning this anime. If there is one like this somewhere, just know that I did not mean to steal anything and that I want to give this a chance. I still hope you all enjoy the story, nonetheless.
Letting you guys know ahead of time, brace yourselves for some drama, heartbreak…and some romance. Enjoy!
Chapter One…
Looking at this place makes him sick to his guts…if he had any. It feels as if it's been so long since he had last seen this realm full of life like it once was. Quite ironic since he cannot remember what this world was like before it's been reduced to this, and he could only guess what would happen to his home if this keeps up. Nothing but barren wastelands, mountains, and if only he remembers where the large bones had come from.
Every day is the same damn thing. Nowadays, the creatures in this world are either wasting their meaningless time either napping or gambling their lives away. Nothing ever exciting happens around here anymore. What's the point of residing in this dying world if all you do is sleep and play?
"Hey there, Ryuk. Would it kill you to join us? You should come play with us for a change!"
That doesn't excite him, not even one bit. Hell, he's not even a bit interested. Aren't they sick and tired of doing the same thing every single day? Is he literally the only creature in this world who realizes this? Now that's just sad.
"No. I'll pass." He responded.
If only there was a way to kill this boredom. If only there was a way to have a change of scenery.
"Listen for the voice of God then follow it, and in time you will find your salvation."
Is she the only one in her class paying attention? Isn't the teacher noticing anything in class right now? Its times like these that she feels as if she's the only person around with common sense. All the other students are either whispering to each other, passing notes around, texting on their cell phones, or playing video games under their desks.
"Yagami, are you still with us?" Hikari snapped back into her senses as she heard the teacher call out to her before he asked, "Can you please translate the following sentence into English?"
Hikari pushed her hair back away from her left side of her face as she got up and turned the page of the book that they were looking over. She gulped down the saliva in her mouth and then translated out loud for the class to hear.
"Follow the teachings of God and receive His blessings, and so it shall be that the seeds will become bountiful and the raging storms will subside."
The class was silent for a minute. Hikari took a deep breath and braced herself for the whispers around her.
"Ugh, what a teacher's pet."
"Must she be such a know-it-all?"
"What a geek."
"Today, at approximately 11:00 AM, a thirty-two-year-old man was found stabbed to death in his apartment in the city of Yokohama Karigara Prefecture. Karigawa police are treating this case as a homicide."
"In other news, today suspected murderer Naoki Tokuji was arrested in the district of Shibuya Tokyo. He is being held in custody facing murder charges for the brutal slaying of his common-law partner, who was only twenty-five at the time of her death."
"Police are now searching for forty-two-year-old Ichigo Sakura who is wanted by the police for the rape of three young girls whose names shall be kept confidential. Their ages ranged between fifteen and twelve."
"A mother has been taken into custody today for committing poisonous acts on her two young children, according to the police and their forensics."
"A man was found dead outside a local bar late last night. Police are ruling this case out as a murder when discovering a gunshot wound in the chest."
Hikari watched the news along with many civilians on the jumbo television at a local news station. Along the way beforehand, she had heard many radio news of other crimes and actions that have taken place within her home town.
She leans her head down with a hurtful look on her face with her eyes looking down at the concrete ground below her.
"This isn't fair. Every day is the same thing."
...
"This is all so…ridiculous."
...
"This world is nothing but…"
...
"Rotten."
"Another noticeable consequence is the extinction of many different species on our planet. These species are becoming extinct in a faster rate than anything in recorded history…"
She tried to listen to the teacher, whom the students refer to as "Mr. Ben Stein" due to having a similar voice to the famous American actor and lawyer, through the whisperings and constant noises that the other students were making in the classroom.
Every one of her class is like this. Why aren't the teachers doing anything to silent the students? Are they even hearing the whispers, the recognizable sound of someone texting away, the 8-to-16 bit music coming from handheld video games? Maybe the teachers just don't care. Maybe they're just noticing it but are ignoring it. They don't get paid for scolding students, only to teach them.
Hikari looked out the window with her hair covering her left face like it always has. She has long brown hair and amber eyes, and was wearing those stupid dark sailor outfits the school makes female students wear. Why couldn't the girls also get to dress professionally like the boys are? What? It's not like they're just shipping the girls off to sea when they're done with school here and leave the boys to do all the professional stuff in terms of a career.
She snapped out of her thoughts when she spotted something very odd. As she was looking out the window, she noticed something black falling into the schoolyard. It collided with the ground below and just stayed there, like it came here just to lie about.
Hikari rubbed her eyes to make sure she wasn't hallucinating. She looked out where the black object had landed and saw that it was still there. As much as she wanted to go see what that was all about, it was best to wait until after school ended. Thank goodness this was the last class for the day.
...
School had finally ended for the day with the sun giving a golden glow, signaling almost the end of the day, with dark clouds looming above. It wasn't supposed to rain until nighttime, so it didn't matter to anyone without jackets.
With some of the students either heading home or hanging about around the schoolyard, Hikari walked out of the entrance wrapping a red scarf around her neck and adjusting her backpack. She then looked around to find the object that she saw fall earlier, and walked over towards the bushes of the schoolyard where the object supposedly landed.
She was a bit surprised when she saw it still lying there, that no one bothered to even pick it up. Hikari knelt down and picked up the object. She couldn't help but feel as if a small surge of lightning ran through her body like she was a lightning rod, but she quickly dismissed it.
Hikari stood back up and looked over the object, realizing that it looked like a notebook. She turned it over to see the cover.
"D-Death Note?" she read out loud. In big letters on the cover, it does read Death Note. Hikari remembers that some people tend to decorate their notebooks however they wanted, so it didn't surprised her to find something like this on the notebook. She looked up at the sky to figure out where the book had fallen from.
Maybe someone dropped it from the roof?
Hikari looked over the notebook again and saw that it was in good condition. Why would anyone bother to throw it out? Then again, she didn't see anyone on the roof from where she saw the notebook fall earlier, and the roof is usually a good place for students to hang out. At least that gives Hikari a good reason why there's a safety railing surrounding the edges of the school roof.
She opened up the notebook and saw to her expectations that it was just filled with lined paper. Maybe there's a name somewhere in the book so she could go return it to whoever lost it. What puzzled Hikari though was that there was nothing written in the notebook. No name, no address, not even a 'Dear Diary' topic.
"Hmm?" Hikari looked at the front page and couldn't help but notice something written right by the first page. She looked over it and couldn't help but compare it to instructions you'd see in a manual. The first sentence almost spooked her when she read over it.
"The human whose name is written in this notebook shall die."
Hikari shook her head a bit and simply closed the notebook. She held it against her chest as she turns around and starts to leave. What's this? The next big thing since chain letters? What is someone trying to prove? She remembered what she had read that the human whose name is written in the notebook shall die.
She raised her brows as she suddenly realized that she was still carrying the notebook. Why does she still have it? Should she just go put it back where she found it? Throw it away? Take it to authorities? Hikari sighed as a bead of sweat ran down one side of her face.
...
Hikari had taken off her scarf and sailor shirt showing that she was wearing a white tank top underneath. She sat on her desk right by her computer where she looked over the notebook. There must be something wrong with her to even consider bringing this home with her. She opened the notebook and looked at the instructions.
Death Note
How to Use It
1. The human whose name is written in this notebook shall die.
2. This note will not take effect unless the writer has the person's face in their mind when writing his/her name. Therefore, people sharing the same name will not be affected.
3. If the cause of death is written within 40 seconds of writing the person's name, it will happen.
4. If the cause of death is not specified, the person will simply die of a heart attack.
5. After writing the cause of death, details of the death should be written in the next 6 minutes and 40 seconds.
So, it gives me the option of making anyone's death swift and painless or slow and painful, Hikari thought. Who would go through all this trouble making these up for a prank?
Is the Death Note really a joke? As if anyone would believe something like this was real. Hikari sighed before closing the notebook. She got up from her desk and walked over to her mirror, the only thing keeping her company was the sounds coming from the news channel showing on her TV. She pulled her hair out of her face and examined herself in the mirror, looking into her reflection's eyes.
Even though she's not showing it now, Hikari is timid, which is why she has difficulty talking to other people other than her own family. She was told that she was smart and gifted, which is what makes the other students jealous of her. Hikari is in her last year of high school, which she was really grateful for, 'cause once she gets into college, it'll help keep away any unwanted attention, and especially getting away from her enemies.
Hikari Yagami wanted to become a detective like her father. He was always her inspiration…one of two inspirations, actually. Her other inspiration was the world-famous detective who goes by the name L, who never fails a mystery, despite being mysterious himself. Hikari always idolized L since junior high, despite him never showing his face or appearance to the public, though she knew that he had his reasons.
Fighting for justice has always been her dream. When she was younger, she wanted to be a hero just like those heroes in her storybooks her mother would read to her as a child. Being a cop is okay, but being a detective is much more exciting than to be a cop, at least to her. Since she was young, Hikari was always smart and intelligent, being her father's little girl.
Though that made her an easy target for bullies.
Ever since her last year in elementary school, Hikari noticed how people have been mean to her. When she would tell her mother about this, she would always tell her that they're jealous because Hikari is more gifted than they are, but that didn't stop the constant teasing.
Her years in junior high were the worst, and although it lessened a bit when she entered high school, other students would make fun of her not only because she's gifted, but also because her father was also a famous detective…at least in all of the Kanto Region. Despite trying her best to fit in, Hikari would always get shunned no matter what she does. She stopped trying during her first year of high school. She wanted to focus more on her studies than to waste her time trying to make new friends.
Besides, she has her mother and her little sister Sayu around. It's not like she needs anyone else. Her father's always working and would be lucky to see him if he makes it home in time for dinner. Nonetheless, her experiences in school made Hikari into the timid girl that she sees before her in her own reflection. She can also be sensitive in terms of her feelings. That hard wall she tried to build crumbled down long ago, leaving behind only a scared little girl in the middle of a lightning storm all by her lonesome.
Maybe if Hikari were a guy, she bet she'd be more popular in school. Guys are always more popular than girls nowadays, anyways…
"We interrupt this broadcast to bring you the latest news. The same assailant who had attacked six people in the shopping district of Shinjuku has struck again, taking eight people hostage at this daycare center."
Hikari turned her head as soon as she heard. "His hostages include of both children and teachers." Hikari fully turned around and walked over to the TV to get a better view on what the situation is, as a photo of an older man in his forties appeared on the right corner of the screen. "The suspect has been identified as 42-year-old Kurou Otoharada, currently unemployed. We suspect that negotiations will begin immediately."
It made Hikari sick to her stomach of how a monster like that man would exist in this world just to harm others. It's one thing to hurt people, but to have innocent children involved? That's a bit too far. Out of the corner of her eye, Hikari took notice of the notebook on her desk once again. Her eyes darted to the TV, then back to the notebook again.
Does it really work?
Hikari took a seat by her desk and took out a mechanical pencil. Before she could write the name down, a sudden thought came to her mind. If by chance this guy dies, would that make me a murderer?
That thought scared her a little. If the Death Note is real, and this Kurou guy dies, would Hikari be damned to Hell when she dies?
"At this time, that is all the police is telling us."
"You can't help but feel worried for the safety of those hostages."
"You're absolutely right. We'll continue to cover this situation from here. We'll bring you more information as soon as it becomes available."
The Death Note can't be real. It's just a fake. No one could really die, could they? Hikari turned her attention at the news again. These are just human lives. Killing is wrong. But then again, there are innocent lives at stake at the moment. If nothing is done soon, who knows what will happen to them. Especially the poor children.
It's not considered murder if you did it in defense, right? Plus, this guy was a wanted criminal…
Hikari turned her attention back at the notebook laying there before her. Father taught me that a detective always has to make difficult choices in the line of duty, especially if it's in a dangerous situation. Well, since I'm bound to be a detective anyways…
Here goes nothing.
Hikari imagined Kurou Otoharada's face and began writing down his name on the top of the page. As soon as she was done, she eyed her clock on the shelf above her computer. She remembered that it takes forty seconds for the Death Note to take effect.
She dropped her mechanical pencil and leaned back against her chair while continuing to watch the news. To Hikari, it feels as if it's taking longer than expected.
Sure enough, forty seconds had already passed. She looked at her clock and then back at the TV, letting out a sigh. The Death Note's a dud.
"I should've known," Hikari muttered while turning off her lamp. She then got up from her chair and looked at the TV again. "Still, those poor kids…" She reached for the remote when she noticed a change of tone in the newscaster's voice.
"Just a moment! We're seeing something here!"
Hikari looked at the TV screen again and saw what was going on in the news. It looked like the police were trying to steer clear of whatever looked like what's coming out of the front entrance.
"There seems to be movement in the front entrance!"
The police then let through what seemed to be six children crying in fright with two teachers guiding them to safety. A feeling of relief went through Hikari like a passing cloud, which brought a smile on her face that they look alright.
"The hostages appeared to be all unharmed! The SWAT Team is taking action and are now moving in! We don't know yet if the suspect has been arrested."
Hikari watched what was going on. After a minute or two, Hikari hears the outcome of this hostage situation.
"We now have confirmation! The suspect has been found dead inside the building! I repeat! The suspect is now dead!"
Hikari gasped in fright, looking as if she had seen a ghost. She looked back at the Death Note in shock and looked at the name she had written down. "He's dead!?" she shouted unintentionally. Fear had claimed her heart as she turned her attention back to the broadcast.
"The police are denying allegations that they shot the suspect."
"So it's possible that he feels himself cornered and decided to commit suicide?"
"Well according the statement by the hostages, the suspect suddenly collapsed. We won't know any details until we have a medical examiner on the premises."
Hikari continued to stare at her TV, still in shock about what had happened.
Oh my gosh! I killed a guy! Oh my gosh! I killed a guy! Oh my gosh! I killed a guy! No! Calm down! You didn't kill anyone! This is just a coincidence! It has to be! The guy could've been under a lot of stress for all I know!
"Hikari!"
Her train of thought was interrupted when she heard a voice coming from outside her room. Hikari almost jumped. She clutched onto her chest as if she was going to have a heart attack herself.
"Hikari!"
She sighed in relief. Oh good. It's just her mother. Hikari immediately went to her door and stuck her head out. "Y-Yeah, Mom!?"
"Its 6:30, hun! Don't you have cram school tonight!?"
She knew there was something she forgot! It's one of her nights for cram school! Hikari responded, "Of course! I was just getting ready!"
Hikari shut the door with lightning speed and prepared to gather her things. She puts her sailor shirt back on followed by her red scarf and grabbed her backpack. Hikari looked over at the Death Note that was still lying on her desk. Without thinking, she grabbed the book, closed it, and shoved it into her backpack.
For now, I'm not gonna jump to any conclusions. M-Maybe I should test it out one more time? What? No! What am I thinking!? If by chance this Death Note is for real, I might need to get rid of this! But how do I know if it really works if I don't give it another chance?
Just in case, I should test it again on another criminal, perhaps a lesser-known criminal. If they're well-known, it might cause suspicion to the media, not to mention being covered.
But…should I?
That Night...
Hikari waited for her class to get started so it can be over and done with so she could try out the Death Note again. She fidgeted with the ends of her scarf as she watched other students coming into class and the clock just ticking away.
"Ryo buddy!"
"What is it, Sodou?"
"Weren't you going to lend me twenty dollars?"
"What? Again? But I can't do that."
Hikari looked at the corner of her eyes and recognized Sodou and his friends. They were the troublemakers of the classroom, and it's still a wonder that they're even still attending cram school.
Hmm…come to think of it…No, I can't. I should avoid killing people I know. Hikari leaned her head down where she laced the fingers of her hands together on her lap. But…would the world even care if something happened to people like Sodou? People like…
BANG!
Hikari escaped from her thoughts once again when she heard a loud banging sound right in front of her. Right before her were three girls, who were wearing somewhat inappropriate clothing. One has long blonde hair tied in a ponytail with blue eyes, the other has short brown hair with green eyes, and the other has long hair that was a shade of darker brown with brown eyes.
"Aww, what's the matter baby?" the girl with the blonde hair asked in a mockingly sad voice. "Bored with classes? If you think know everything, why not drop out?"
Hikari didn't say anything. Instead, she gave the trio a deadly glare, but this only made the girls laugh even more.
"Mean looks are so yesterday," the same girl said, before the trio turned their back on Hikari. "Don't want that face to stick now, would you? But then again, you've never been pretty to begin with."
The trio laughed once more before walking off. Tears of frustration came into Hikari's eyes, but she took a deep breath and rubbed her eyes before they could be let out. She's there to learn, not to start a riot.
What about Ayumi, Kimiko, and Miyako? Maybe I can use the Death Note to have them commit suicide in the middle of the classroom if it's possible. Hikari shook her head a little. No. I said I should avoid using it on people I know and that's what I plan to do. But if only it was that simpler.
Later…
Hikari exited the building and breathed in the cool air of the night, not to mention that it smelled a bit damped, meaning that it'll likely rain soon. She walked by a group of girls who were talking to Ayumi, Kimiko, and Miyako. Hopefully if she's lucky, they won't notice her.
So much for false hope.
Miyako spotted Hikari walking by them and so she called out, "Hey Yagami! We're having a speed-dating party tomorrow! Wanna come!?"
"Don't bother inviting her," Kimiko spoke. "What kind of boy would want to date a freak like her?"
Ayumi, Miyako, and Kimiko, including the three other girls, started to giggle at that remark. Hikari growled under her breath before she storms off down the street. Soon enough, their laughter faded the farther she goes, the street lights engulfing the streets with bright glows with a few stores also giving a warm light. Hikari also noticed a woman walking in front of her, but she didn't care.
As Hikari continues her way home, she couldn't help but to look around the streets and buildings around her, with somewhat of a hurtful look. She couldn't help but to think, Why do people like them have to exist? Would it really make a difference if they were disposed of? I don't know why society accepts them, but they don't deserve to be here, nor do they belong.
Hikari wrapped her arms around herself as if she was giving herself a hug. It's just not fair. They treat others like crap and they can easily get away with doing whatever. It's sick!
"Hey, pretty ladies!"
Hikari once again escaped from her thoughts when she heard what sounded like engines coming towards her, and they were getting louder the closer they get. Before she knew it, both she and the woman who was in front of her looked and saw that the two were surrounded by four guys, each on a motorcycle, and Hikari knew right away they were a gang.
"What's up, little ladies? Come and have a little fun with us!" One of them exclaimed.
"That's Takuo right there!" One of the other motorcyclists introduced. "He can smell some hotties from a mile away!"
The mentioned Takuo lowered his sunglasses a bit to see the two girls better as he introduced himself, "What's up, little ladies? The name's Takuo Shibuimaru! Well, what do you say? Come and play with us, ladies!"
Hikari and the woman watched as the three other motorcyclists got off of their motorcycles and circled around the two. Hikari had seen something like this in the movies before, and she didn't like what was going on. She took a step back towards the wall as the woman said, "Please, we don't want any trouble."
"Hear that?" One of the others laughed. "They don't want any trouble!"
"Aww, isn't that cute?"
Before they could react, Takuo grabbed the woman from behind while another one folded both his arms under Hikari's own arms, trapping them both in their clutches.
"W-What are you doing!?" the woman screamed.
"Let's go, boys!" Takuo shouted. "Strip 'em down!"
"You sure?"
"Let's go for it!"
Hikari tried to struggle while another guy reached under her skirt and feel him pull her panties down.
"What are you doing!?" She shrieked. "Stop it!"
Takuo and another guy began to strip the woman down too, while she tried to fight back.
"Please stop!" She shouted. "Please! Someone! Help us!"
The guy pulled Hikari's panties down completely and was about to reach his hand up under her skirt again. In a last-minute effort, Hikari gathered up whatever strength she can and kicked the guy in front of her right in the face, sending him down to the ground.
"Let go!" Hikari shouted, another idea hatching in her mind. She jumped back and collided with the guy behind who was holding her, making him land on his motorcycle sending both of them and it onto the ground. Hikari took the chance to pull her panties back up as fast as she could, and saw out of the corner of her eyes that the woman had struggled herself free as well.
The woman grabbed Hikari's wrist shouting, "Come on!"
They both took off running down the street, and heard Takuo shouting, "Hey, where y'all going!?"
They heard the loud motor, meaning that he was coming for them! In a last ditch effort, the woman suddenly pushed Hikari into a nearby alley. "Stay here while I lead him off!"
Hikari reached out for her as she took off, shouting, "Wait!" She saw a black blur pass her, and knew that it was Takuo going after that woman. She needs to do something to stop this, but what?
She raised her brows in thought, almost forgetting about something. But what if the Death Note is just a dud? It's a risk, but it's the only hope she has. Hikari took off her backpack and began to rummage through it to find the Death Note. Good. It was still there. She pulled it out and also took out a pencil from her backpack. Hikari opened it and started to write Takuo Shibuimaru's name down on the first page, right below the first name Hikari had written before.
Hikari remembered that she can also write down the cause of death, so to see if it would actually work, she wrote down next to Takuo's name 'accidental death'. She pulled up her left sleeve to show a watch on her wrist, and kept track of the time. If only it was less than forty seconds…
"TAKUO! WATCH OUT!"
That was when Hikari heard a loud crash. She immediately got up on her feet and stuck her head out of the alleyway, where she saw a huge truck crash right into something in the middle of the street. It looked like it crashed into a…a motorcycle?
"Oh shit! Takuo!"
"What the hell just happened!?"
Hikari watched in shock, the same feeling of fear and dread came back and began to clutch her chest where her heart resided, feeling as if cold water was pouring through her body. She started to gasp a bit before leaning against the wall for support, clutching the Death Note against her chest again as if for dear life.
The Death Note…it's for real.
End of Chapter One…
AUTHOR'S NOTES: I feel like I should've done more, but again, I haven't written in such a long time, so my writing style's just...lazy, so to speak. I'm really sorry if this chapter feels rushed, or if the writing is just really awkward! I'm hoping that the story, and my writing, will get better as I continue writing this.
I'll admit, I'm not the best writer in the world. Maybe once I get the swing of writing better, I'll probably go back and rewrite this chapter. For now, I hope you enjoy.
I don't really care for reviews, but if you wanna leave one, be my guest. Other than that, I still hope you guys enjoyed the first chapter, nonetheless.