Hey guys! This is a new story, I am excited about this one! I like a lot of my other stories, but I think I am going to LOVE this one! I am really excited for you guys to read it. Tell me what you think? I don't want to continue a story if no one likes it. But I hope that you do. Its different.

Show: Victorious

Characters: Cat, Robbie. (I must warn you, this might be a little OOC. But not all the way though, like Robbie wont have Rex in the story.)

Plot: Cat hides her sadness behind her laughter and smiles. But when you look closer, you see scars on her arms, you see pain in her heart, you find bones. Cat has turned for the worst. Find out what happens, and how her crush tries to help her through it all.

Cat's POV

I just wanted to be wanted. I didn't want it to get where it was. I didn't want to start cutting. I didn't want to hurt anyone. But I did. I am ashamed of what I have done. I am ashamed of what is going on. I shouldn't have let people figure me out, figure out what was really going on. They are mad. I think. I hope that they can forgive me and we can move on. I didn't do anything wrong.

But they are starting to figure me out, I am not really a bubbly person. I don't always smile, I never smile actually, because I have nothing to smile about. There isn't anything to smile about.

"Cat... what is on your arm." Robbie asked concerned.

Oh no! I forgot to put the makeup on my scars.

"Oh, nothing! I feel and something scraped my arm." I said, trying to sound convincing.

"It scraped your arm like 300 times? Or did you just fall and happen to scrape your arms 300 times." He asked with sarcasm, with a bit of worry in his voice.

"Robbie, there is nothing to worry about! I promise." I reassured him. He was still worried. You could tell, it was in his eyes.

"Cat... are you cutting yourself?" He asked me strictly, but quietly, so no one else would hear.

"No Robbie." Lies. I started to get up and leave the table outside of Hollywood arts. He grabbed my wrist and pulled me back to him.

"Cat... What is wrong with your arms. Tell me the truth!" He yelled to me. People were staring at us.

"Robbie! Nothing happened! I told you! I fell!" I told him back, this is the first time that he has ever seen me mad or upset.

"Cat! You have scars up and down your arms, everywhere you look, scars! Cat, are you cutting yourself?" He asked me again. I avoided his eyes.

"I have to get home Robbie. I have to feed my cat." I was upset but then got a sudden burst of joy!

"Hehe! She is a cat! And my name is Cat!" I giggled and lightly tapped his shoulder with my hand.

"Cat this isn't the time to joke." He was mad.

"Jeez. I am going home. I really do need to feed my cat." I couldn't help but giggle again.

So I guess that it looks like my bubbly personality isn't all that fake. But after such a long time of acting so... Bubbly, But when you acted for so long that is who you are, that is all you know. The fake stuff. Truth is, I am a girl who is horrible, at everything, I was shocked when I got into Hollywood Arts. I didn't know that they would let in a loser. A no talent loser. After my mom and dad let me get my own place, I haven't seen them. At all. That was a year ago. I don't really want to deal with there fighting. So I ignore there calls. I ignore them. Because I don't want to be dragged in the middle of it anymore.

I sat at home, crying. I can't believe that Robbie just found out! This is horrible, he is going to tell everyone. I sat on my bed, when my phone rang.

Jade.

Ignore.

Then my phone rang again.

Beck.

Ignore

After ten minuets, Jade, beck, and Tori had called me. Then the texts started coming in.

-Cat! What is going on? Robbie just called me saying that you had scars all over your arms!- Beck

-Cat, please call me! Are you okay? Robbie said that you are hurting yourself... like cutting, is this true? Cat please call me! You can talk to me!- Tori

-Cat, you know I am the last person to worry, but I am worried about you. You need to call me, okay? I am worried about you! Really! Are you cutting yourself!- Jade.

I didn't respond to anyone.

-Cat! You seriously need to tell me what is going on, I thought I was your friend. Do you not trust me? Tell me what is going on with your arms! Are they anywhere else? I am coming over!- Robbie.

-No! Don't come over Robbie! I am fine.- Cat

-No you aren't, and I am coming over. I don't care what you say right now.- Robbie.

-I wont answer the door.- Cat.

-I have a key, remember?- Robbie.

Shit. I forgot I gave all of my friends keys.

My home is theirs.

I didn't respond to Robbie. I just couldn't. So I waited for him to walk into my house and yell at me for cutting myself, but I will just keep denying it. There is no reason to tell him the truth, I mean he knows, but I don't have to admit to it, I can be in denial. It works for me.

During the next 10 minuets I got another 5 texts.

-Cat! Call me! Right now!- Jade

-Seriously Cat! Why aren't you answering anyone!- Beck

-Cat! Are you okay? Please call me back! We need to talk! You need to talk to SOMEONE!- Tori

-I am almost their!- Robbie

-Cat seriously! Call me right now!- Jade

I ignored everyone. I don't need to talk to anyone. I am okay. There isn't anything to talk about.

I heard my front door open.

Robbie...

"Cat! Where are you!" Robbie yelled from my living room. I didn't respond. I just stayed sitting on my bed. Making sure that my make up wasn't messed up on my closer mirror.

He walked into my room.

"Stand up." He ordered me. I stood up.

"Take off your sweatshirt." I paused.

"Take it off." He again told me. But I didn't. So he took my arms and pulled up the sleeves. Observing my cuts.

"You are cutting." He said. He sounded mad.

"No. I am not." He put his hands to his face in frustration.

"Cat! Do I look stupid? I am not! Because I see your arms!" He yelled at me. I pulled my arms back, and pulled down the sleeves. He went to my dresser. Opened my drawers and pulled out a pair of shorts.

"Go change into these." He ordered. I looked at him in confusion. "I read that cutters cut more then just on there arms, but there legs to. So go change."I didn't move.

"Now Cat!" I was worried. I didn't want him to see all of the scars on my legs. I was wearing jeans today so I didn't even bother to put makeup on them, but obviously I didn't even bother to put make up on the scars on my arms. I left and went to the bathroom to change into the shorts. I thought it was kind of appealing the way he was taking charge. I took out some foundation to try and cover up the scars.

He opened the door.

"Wow good thing I was changed Robbie!" I yelled, but he caught me because while he came in I was rubbing foundation all over my legs. He picked me up and sat me on the counter in the bathroom, opening the cabinet and taking out a rag, wetting it, and rubbing them all over my legs, revealing many, many more scars then where showing before.

They have been here for so long that I forgot that they are here most of the time.

"Cat! Seriously! Is there anything else I should know about?" He knew so much, I should just show him the rest. I jumped off of the counter and lifted up my shirt to reveal my stomach, and my ribs. Cuts filled my hips and my stomach. But that wasn't all that I was showing him.

"Robbie I am an anorexic and bulimic." He stood there for awhile, shock on his face.

"Hmm." He said.

"Robbie, look I am sor-"

"Don't. Just don't. You need to stop this Cat! You need to stop all of this nonsense bullshit that you are doing! You need to stop right now! I am not even kidding!"

"Robbie? Are you here?" I heard Tori yell.

"Hey Rob." I heard Beck yell. So that means Jade was here too. He grabbed my arms and dragged me out of the bathroom to them.

"Look at her." He pushed me towards them. I tried to turn around and run, but Robbie grabbed me before I could, picked me up, and sat me on the couch.

He is so strong.

I can't believe right now I am turned on by Robbie while he is being so... mad. He was so cute when he was all caring in his weird ways.

Robbie made sure that I was going to stay seated while the other looked at me by sitting me on his lap and holding me down. I didn't struggle. I just sat there.

"Cat... Are you cutting yourself." Before I could even answer Robbie decided to answer for me.

"Yeah! Not only that but she also told me she was anorexic and bulimic." Everybody's faces grew in shock.

"Cat, is this true?" Beck asked. Tori turned around because she was crying. I escaped Robbie's grip and ran to my room in tears and locked the door behind me. You could hear them all chasing after me. Banging on my door.

"Cat! Let us in! We need to talk to you." I just kept sobbing.

"Cat! Open the door!" I just kept sobbing.

"Cat, please let us in." I just kept sobbing.

Suddenly the door slammed open.

I looked up shocked.

"Jade is a great lock picker." Beck said.

"Yeah I am." She smirked for just a second before she realized what was going on again. Robbie pushed everyone out of the way to get to me.

"Cat." I avoided his eyes.

"Cat please look at me." He had his soft voice on. Trying to be caring and sincere, even though he didn't understand anything that I was doing. I didn't listen so he turned my head for me.

"Cat.. you cant be hurting yourself like this. You know that you can't do this. Cat this isn't you. You are the bubbly girl that everyone loves. You aren't like this." I again avoided his eyes, but he didn't say anything this time.

"Robbie." I said sobbing.

"I don't want you mad at me. I am sorry. I am really, really sorry." He just nodded his head and pulled me into a hug. I cried into his shoulder.

"I am not mad sweetie. I just don't want you hurt. You know this. You have always known that you could come to me, haven't you? Because you can, no matter what. You can come to any of us when you are feeling sad. Specially when you are feeling so sad that you have to stop eating or cut yourself Cat." He hugged my closer.

Thank you for reading! Do you like it? I hope so! I really like this story!

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Thank you guys!

Sierra~~