Broken
I wanted you to know, I love the way you laugh,
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away,
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well,
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain,
Cause I'm broken when I'm open and I don't feel like I am strong enough,
Because I'm broken when I'm lonesome and I don't feel right when you're gone away.
Spike sat in the underground cave, chained to the wall and watching as the master vampire known as Methalius, walked slowly towards the love of his life, fear marked in his eyes.
"Bring him to me!" Methalius said to one of his henchmen. One of the gigantic brutes unhooked Spike from the wall, fastening his arms behind him and brought him to the elder vampire. Methalius grabbed Spike and ushered him towards Buffy. "Drink." He said. Spike shook his head violently. "Drink and I shall let you and your little half breed brat go." Spike looked over at his daughter who was sitting in the corner. She wasn't tied up or gagged; there was no point to. Its not like she could escape on her own anyway, and screaming would do little to nothing in effect. So she just sat the quietly watching her daddy's every move. Spike didn't know what to do. He couldn't just bite Buffy in front of his own daughter, she would never forgive him. But if he didn't, this vampire would surly kill all of them.
"Just do it Spike." Buffy said. "I have well out lived my expiry date." Buffy looked at him. "If you don't then he will surly kill Trinity and you. Her life is more important than mine."
"But…"
"No 'buts' Spike, If I die, I'd rather it be by your hands and not his." She said. Spike nodded. "Can I see Trin first?" She asked Methalius. Methalius nodded and motioned for the girl to go to her. Trinity jumped up and ran to her mother. "Now Trinity. I want you to listen to me, and listen to me good ok." Trinity nodded. "I'm going to have to go now ok?" Trinity's eyebrows knitted together that reminded Buffy of Spikes confused look.
"Will I ever see you again mommy?" The little four year old asked, tears streaming down her face. Buffy shook her head.
"Not for a very long time, but maybe one day." Trinity hugged her mum as hard as she could. "Now, Trinity, I want you to do me one last favor. I want you to go and sit where you where and close your eyes. And no matter what happens. I don't want you to blame your father for any of this. This was entirely my choice. Ok?" Trinity nodded.
"I love you mommy." Trinity asked, as one of the henchmen picked her up and sat her in the corner and obediently closed her eyes tightly shut. Spike looked at Buffy, tears running down his face.
"Buffy no," He said, "I – I can't…" Buffy looked at him.
" Spike, I'll be ok, trust me." Spike nodded and hugged her as best he could with his hands bound behind him. He then brought his chin off her shoulder and bit into her neck and drank. He hated the taste of her blood in his mouth. If this had happened eight years ago, he would probably be relishing in it. But right now, he wanted to gag. He heard Buffy's heart beat slow and stop and felt her body go limp against his.
"Good." Methalius said. "Now bring the brat to me!" He said to one of his henchmen.
"WHAT!?" Spike asked. "We had a deal!"
"Vampire!" Methalius said in a 'Duh' tone. "Guess you forgot what that's like huh?" He grabbed the little girl who had started screaming for her daddy and tied her to the wall next to her dead mother. He then slapped her across the face. "Will you stop your bellowing." He said. The little girl stopped immediately and looked at her daddy who was being dragged away.
"Trinity No!" The last thing he heard as he was thrown from the building, was his only child's dying screams.
The worst is over now, and we can breath again,
I wanna hold you high - you steal my pain away
There's so much to learn and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Cause I'm broken when I'm open and I don't feel like I am strong enough,
Because I'm broken when I'm lonesome and I don't feel right when you're gone away.
You've gone away…
You don't feel me, anymore…