Listen up my dearies!
This is my gift to my Beta, Ice, this will be updated according to his okay.
It was supposed to be a one-shot, like all my gifts, but as we kept talking and making scenarios, it grew into something bigger...
There will be a ton of smut, but there will be plot in between, I'm guessing there will be a few chapters before smut starts, but once it does...ooooh boy will it be steamy.
Enjoy!
Ten years. Well technically nine years and seven months. She would have added the weeks and days, but she felt that was a little over the top and would raise red flags. In any case, that's how long it had been since she and the girl in front of her had been anything remotely close to friends.
As kids they were friends, very good friends in fact, but as their personalities developed they quickly fell into different crowds. They were two polar opposites. She'd scoff at the whole, opposites attract thing if it weren't true. True, for her actually. She was very much attracted to the girl and she doubted it was returned.
The girl did have a boyfriend after all.
"Repeat your question?" She asked, blinking. Everything was so out of the ordinary that when the bubbly girl bounded up to her, with her bright smile and dazzling eyes, she was nearly struck blind. Normally she was acutely aware of where the girl was, so she could avoid her, but seems the cheerleader had learned a new trick or two.
Yes a cheerleader. A very popular one that and had been doing this since she was around nine years of age. So the girl was good, really good and really…flexible.
Where was she going with this train of thought?
"I asked if you could help me study for biology," the girl said giving her a smile. Other cheerleaders, she feels, would have rolled their eyes at her, but not this one. Never this one. She was the purest, good hearted girl around.
"Why?" She asked and the girl pouted, her glossed lips puckering as she did so. Subconsciously she licked her own lips, which were feeling a little chapped, she'd need to put some lip balm on.
"Well you're the best in that class, not to mention we share the class so there's no, like, misunderstanding about what is going on, cause some classes progress faster than others and sometimes, when it's different teachers, their method of teaching divers and please Elsa? Pretty please, with sprinkles on top?"
Oh gods, when she says her name like that, how can she refuse.
"I'm not sure Anna, I mean I can, I just, I um," Elsa was struggling to think. She wanted to say yes, but she also wanted so say no. She also wanted to ask if the perfume she was wearing was expensive because she would really like to buy it and have it fill her room, because it smelled like summer and Anna.
"Tell you what, in exchange I'll help you out with something, let's say…PE?" Anna asked as she tapped a perfectly manicured nail against her chin. That threw Elsa for a loop. The manicured nails, not the helping with PE thing, she could really use help with PE.
Anna wasn't known for her ability to keep cuts and bruises off of her, she was rambunctious. Her nails being chipped or scuffed were a normal thing, but since she had been dating that Hans guy, Anna has become more aware of her looks.
"I could use help in Physical Ed," Elsa said softly as she trailed off and looked to the side. Anna was wearing her cheering uniform, white with red and black. The school mascot and name printed on her chest.
Disney High.
The front a little sparkly and fancy as it was scrolled across the black tops of their mascots head. Three black circles that form a head. It was supposed to look like a mouse and Elsa can kind of see it.
"Great! We can start today?" Anna asked with a hopeful look in her eyes.
"Today is good I guess, um, meet me here after school?" Elsa asked, she wasn't sure how she was keeping her cool right now.
"Do you want to go to my house or yours?" Anna asked as she tilted her head. She looked in thought, but shook her head and grimaced a second later.
"On second thought, can we do it at your place?" She asked and Elsa shrugged. She bets her parents would be thrilled with her having someone over.
"Sure, just remember to bring your books," she said and the girl nodded happily before bouncing away.
Once she was gone and Elsa could function again a bright blushed covered her face. She managed to slip into the bathrooms nearby and suppress the sounds of freaking out. Her brain was screaming and her lungs tried to take in much needed oxygen.
She managed to splash some water into her face and take a slow calming breath. Even around other kids and people she would always have a slight panic attack. An anxiety disorder made it hard for her to make friends. The only friends she had were Olaf and Kristoff and that's only because at the time she couldn't tell them that she wasn't looking for friends.
"You know it's really unfair that you can be in any bathroom you want to be."
Elsa nearly jumped out her skin. Speaking of friends.
"Sorry, I didn't realise this was the boys bathroom," Elsa said sheepishly as she turned to look to Kristoff. He just smiled and washed his hands.
"All good Elsa you know that. So tell me why you were hyperventilating just now."
She was hyperventilating? She could swear she was holding her breath. Gosh her head was a mess.
"Anna came to ask me to tutor her," she said and decided she might as well use the bathroom. Kristoff hummed and leaned against the sinks as she opted to use a stall. She didn't have a problem using the urinal, but only if she were alone. It was just easier.
"Wish I could have been there. Did you stutter? Did you ramble? Good gods please tell me you remained mute for the whole thing," Kristoff asked as he started to get excited to hear what had happened.
"I was actually very calm and collected thank you," she hissed softly as she finished up. She gave him a grumpy pout as she moved to wash her hands.
"That explains the reaction you were having in here," he said as he nodded.
"So tell me what's on the up and up?" He grinned to her.
"I'm going to help her with biology and in turn she's going to help me in PE," Elsa said as she made sure her bag was secure on her back. Not that she had taken it off to pee, but because she needed to keep herself busy so she won't freak out again.
"So we're heading to my place after school," she added and pulled out her phone to at least send her parents a text so that they wouldn't be caught off guard.
Her typing stopped when she noticed Kristoff was just staring at her. Slowly moving her eyes up, she saw him grinning.
"What?" She asked as a frown started to form on her face.
"If it weren't for the fact that she's dating that Hans guy, I'd have told you to at least use protection," he said wiggling his eyebrows at her. It took Elsa a second to get what he was saying. Her face burned as she slapped his arm.
"Is sex all you can think about?" She nearly yelled at him. The blonde and Olaf knew of her little crush on the redhead.
"Hey, it's healthy for a seventeen year old to be fixated on sex. Point out one guy in our year that isn't horny all the time. Heck, I even bet you think about sex most of the day too," he chuckled and pats her back. Her shoulders scrunched up as she blushed more.
"Shut up," was all she could say before scurrying out the bathroom. He didn't need to know he was right. It was dangerous to let Kristoff know he was smart. The man gets ideas and she's not in the mood to end up at the police station again.
~Shy~
She thought that by the time school had ended and she had time to rationally think about what was to come, she'd be calm and okay. Boy was she wrong. Her heart was jack rabbiting in her chest and her nerves were fried as she waited for the redhead.
She could take some of her calming medication but she already had three of those in and she's scared a fourth one would shut down her brain too much to teach the girl anything.
"Elsa, I'm ready when you are!"
She wishes she could say the same thing. Not trusting her voice at the moment Elsa just nodded. The two walked over to the parking lot and to the blonde's car, a cute little teal mini cooper.
"You have a really nice car, Elsa," Anna said as she smiled. Elsa blushed deeply and like the gentleman she was opened the car door for the redhead. Mama raised her right.
"Oh! Thank you," Anna smiled brighter and Elsa swears she heard a little purr near the end.
Elsa still couldn't find her voice as she drove them to her house. She lived a block away from Anna and nestled between Kristoff and Olaf's houses.
On a weekend when there were house parties she could see at least three houses in her street alone that were hosting and she knows for a fact that the whole neighborhood had at least two houses per street that did too. So one could walk from block to block and have teenagers and young adults partying it up.
The adults didn't seem to mind much, but Elsa thinks that's because everyone knew everyone. A small town thing, granted not really that small seeing as they did have at least three high schools, all a good distance from one another. Now that she thinks about it, they form a pretty decent triangle.
Disney High.
DreamWorks Academy.
Pixar Prep.
All part of the town known as Wonderland. Strangest name around, she can tell you that. No wonder they had a school called DreamWorks.
Once the two stop in the driveway of Elsa's house, anxiety returns to the blonde. She had lost herself in thinking about their town, but now she had to face the music.
"So, um, is it okay if we study in my room?" Elsa asked as she got out and went to open Anna's door for her. Anna smiled up to her as she got out. Elsa lost herself in that smile, in those eyes, all those freckles.
"I'm fine wherever," Anna said as she walked up to the front door. Elsa was on her heels.
"I'm sorry for whatever it is my parents will do and say," Elsa apologized as she opened the door. Anna opened her mouth to reassure it that it'll be fine, but the gasp from inside made them both freeze in their tracks.
"I can't believe it! Anna Arendelle finally visits us again!"
Elsa groaned as her mother jogged over and hugged the poor girl. Anna however just laughed as she hugged back. People's person, right, Elsa nearly forgot.
"Nice seeing you again Mrs Winter, it has been a long time hasn't it?" Anna smiled and Elsa relaxed somewhat.
"Kai! Get in here! Anna's here!" The woman yelled and Elsa could hear the sound of, what she's guessing, the newspaper crinkling before her dad appeared in the foyer from the living room.
"Can it be? It is! Oh, what a wonder to see you again, Anna!" He says and hugs her. Elsa just watches with slight panic as Anna, again, just laughed and hugged back.
"Wow, it's like coming home after a vacation," she giggled and Elsa's face heated up slightly.
"Will you be joining us for dinner?" Mrs Winter asked. Elsa looked to the redhead as she hummed and tapped at her chin.
"Why not? Let me just call my parents!" The girl chirped and fished out her phone.
"No worries dear, I'll call your father," Mr Winter said and walked over to the house phone.
"You two go start studying now, the food will be done by seven," Mrs Winter said smiling. Elsa took that as her que to practically push Anna up the stairs to her room.
"I still remember where it is Elsa," Anna giggled as she managed to side step the other girls pushing while on the stairs, making Elsa almost trip forward.
"Oops, sorry!" Anna called as she caught Elsa and helped her up. The poor blonde juts blushed as she continued to move to her room.
Once inside Anna looked around in awe. Elsa bit her lip as she too looked around. So much had changed since they were kids. Her room used to be very bare, but now posters covered nearly ever wall. Her bed was big and very comfortable looking as it stood in the middle, surrounded by bookshelves. A desk sat to the side, by the window that looked out onto the backyard. A laptop sat on it surrounded by stationary and more books.
"Whoa," Anna breathed and Elsa swallowed thickly.
Elsa started to say they could sit on the bed, but Anna's attention immediately went to her posters.
"These aren't bands." She remarked. Elsa was surprised not to hear judgment in her voice, just surprised revelation.
"W-well their kind of like movie posters, just not with the ac-actual words, well some are actual movie pos-s-ters, but others ar-re just art depictions or photos-s of the-the lan-land-landscapes," Elsa said through a series of stutters.
Anna tilted her head to her, eyes searching hers for some reason. Elsa could get lost in them; they were such a unique shade of blue and green. Such a lovely teal color. Oh she could so easily stare into them for hours on end.
She felt herself sigh as Anna smiled to her, her own goofy smile tugging at her lips. Yep, she was head over heels for this girl. Shit, she was talking.
"-different, I like it, suits you."
Elsa only caught the end of the sentence, but she could deduce what the girl was saying. Anna liked her style.
"Thank you, um, we can sit on the bed if you think that's comfortable," Elsa says and Anna nods. Elsa can feel her breath hitch slightly at having Anna sit cross legged on her bed, still wearing her cheering uniform.
"So the part I'm having trouble with is this," Anna said as she opened her book. She tapped her finger on the words and Elsa raised an eyebrow.
"The whole chapter?" Elsa asked a little confused. Anna nodded as she took out her writing book.
"Anna, w-we've been doing this chapter s-since the start of the s-semester," Elsa said and Anna let out a tiny 'I know'.
"Anna, exams are around the c-corner," Elsa said as she stared at the chapter again. It was a huge one with so many sub chapters that it would take her longer to teach her this than there was time.
"I-I know, that's why I need your help Elsa. I can't flunk this class! Please can you help me?" Anna pleaded, sounding desperate.
"I said I would, b-but then w-well even have to st-study on week-weekends," Elsa said. Anna cringed and looked down to her book. Elsa can see the girl tried. There were highlights and question marks and scribbles. It wasn't a lack of trying on Anna's part. This chapter was really hard, hence working on it all semester.
"We can study everyday it's fine, just need to work around cheering then," Anna sighed. Elsa watched the girls eyes flick over the words on the pages that were open. She looked so defeated.
"H-how do you normally study?" Elsa asked. Everyone had their methods. She had to take notes and make summaries to study.
"I normally just pay attention in class, then try and read things before exams," Anna shrugged. Oh boy, Elsa had her work cut out for her.
"O-okay, um, do you have a previous t-test with you? L-like the one we did last m-month?" Elsa asked. Anna hummed then nodded as she pulled out a binder. Elsa watched as she flipped to a tab that read biology before sticking her hand in and pulling paper out.
She resisted the urge to cringe at all the red marks and the grade on the paper. She bit her lip and flipped through. It became apparent that Anna was trying her best, but it was noticeable where she lacked knowledge.
"You're a v-visual learner," Elsa simply said and took a deep breath at the head tilt she received.
"You learn b-by seeing," Elsa started as she moved to get her small white board from her desk. She quickly erased the words on it. A stupid thing her parents had started when she was younger. Once a week the quote would change to leave her inspired or in thought.
This week it was a Mark Twain quote: "Wisdom is the reward you get for a lifetime of listening when you would rather have talked."
Elsa then took off the cap of the marker stuck to it with her teeth before scribbling something down. She held it up for Anna and the girls face lit up.
"Oh! Yes, that's better. I take more information in with pictures!" Anna said happily as she clapped her hands. Elsa smiled and placed the cap on the back of the marker. She erased the image she drew before turning her attention to the book.
"S-so genetics is f-first," Elsa said and she started drawing up some squares before placing capital and normal letters down along the margins.
Anna looked to the board. She remembers the teacher doing something similar, but it confused her a little.
After finishing the illustration Elsa started to explain to her how genetics worked on a basic level. Anna moved her focus between the drawings and the girl as she tried her best to understand.
"So that is how certain genes are rare and others not," Elsa said as she looked to the girl.
"That makes sense, I just didn't understand how it worked when they were talking about eye color," Anna said as she played with one of her braids.
"That's a little more complicated and because there's three type of genes involved it would look like this," Elsa said as she made a new diagram, this one with more slots and outcomes.
"So as you can see parents with blue eyes can't have a kid with brown eyes, green eyes slight maybe, but the kids would always have blue," Elsa said, she looked over to the redhead and found Anna staring at her yes.
"You have really pretty blue eyes," Anna said and Elsa felt her face heat up.
"Y-yours are b-better, they h-have a green t-tint to them s-so they look, um, teal," Elsa breathed out. Anna was so close to her face, she was having trouble breathing.
"I think you might just get me to pass this class!" Anna chirped as she turned back to her book. Elsa blinked repeatedly as she shook her head.
"I will try my b-best at least," Elsa said as she rubbed the back of her neck.
"Say, you didn't stutter once while you were teaching me," Anna said as she smiled, tilting her head.
"I, it's, um, well, the thing is, I," Elsa couldn't for a sentence and her struggling just made Anna giggle before giving her a reassuring side hug.
"Don't worry Elsa. We'll get you to come out of your shell, oh! Maybe this will help you not be so shy anymore!" Anna said as she grinned.
"Wait what?" Elsa asked. This wasn't part of the plan. She was happy with being shy!
"We'll start small, just you and me hanging out; what with us helping each other out already we're halfway there! Then after we could hang out with friends and maybe have parties! It'll be like old times, Elsa," Anna said as she smiled and bit her lip. Elsa could feel her chest constrict.
"Old times? Anna do you even know why we stopped being friends?" Elsa asked as she backed away slightly.
"Not really, you just started to shut me out and I didn't want to keep bothering you," Anna said softly as her hands dropped to her lap.
"Shutting you out? You were shutting me out! You kept hanging out with larger and larger groups of kids and I was so scared, Anna, I'm still scared!" Elsa said as she had now moved off the bed. Her lungs were burning and she couldn't swallow anymore.
"There's nothing for you to be scared about. Their just people like you and me, what's there to be afraid of?" Anna asked, clearly confused.
"I just don't like crowds Anna, I don't like people judging me, looking at me like I'm some kind of freak. Ever heard of an introvert before?" Elsa almost hissed. She respects extroverts and their ability to be around people, why couldn't they respect her wanting to be alone?
"I'm just trying to help you, is that such a bad thing?" Anna huffed and stood up.
"W-what are you d-doing?" Elsa's stammer returned as she watched Anna pack her things away. She curled her arms around her waist and backed away slightly. It was really hard to breathe right now.
"I'm going home," Anna simply said and walked out of the room. Elsa tried swallowing, but her throat clenched shut. She didn't mean to upset her; it's never her intention to upset Anna of all people.
She wanted to follow, she really did. To try and make things right, apologize if she must. But she couldn't. Her legs were shaking and she tried gasping for breath as she sat down on her bed. Her hand rubbed at her chest to try and force her lungs to work. She clenched her eyes shut trying to focus on breathing.
Soon as the burning sensation disappeared Elsa realized that someone was rubbing her back. Her eyes were watery and she could finally swallow again. Her mother was rubbing her back gently while her father held a steaming cup of hot chocolate.
She knew it was hot chocolate, because that's the only thing she drinks out of her blue and white snowflake mug.
She can't help but let out a wet chocked husk of a laugh as she rubs her eyes. Her parents were just so amazing.
Elsa smiled more as both her parents gave her a tight hug and kissed her head.
"Do you want to talk about what happened?" Her mom asked and she shook her head. Not as a no, more of a way to clear her head.
"I guess we just don't understand each other like we used to, I understand she wants me to come out of my shell I guess, but I reacted badly," Elsa said softly.
"Honey you don't have to rush anything you're not comfortable with. Anna means well, she just wants you happy," her mom says and starts braiding her hair.
"She wants everyone happy and that's not a bad thing, she just forgets that not everyone has the same concept of happiness," Elsa said as she smiled to her father who handed her the mug.
"She'll come around; you just need to explain to her your boundaries. Like in football, tell her she's out of bounds when she crosses your boundaries," her dad said.
This made the two women look up to the man; Elsa with a quirked eyebrow and her mom with a pointed glare.
"Really Kai? Football? Right now?" Her mother scolded and he held his hands up in surrender. Elsa could only chuckle. That was her dad for you. All the man knew was football; it was enduring when he'd use that to convey his level of understanding.
She'll talk with the redhead, even if it would kill her, but at some point she's going to have to swallow her anxiety, even if just for a minute. She can freak out after.
Confession, this was supposed to be light hearted, truly it was, but sometimes that's not what I end up with. So I try to offset the serious things with jokes, because that's how I deal with my anxiety. My best friend gets panic attacks even though she's an ambivert (shes both extrovert and introvert, comfortable in any situation) where as I turn mute (extreme introvert) or at times plain rude because I don't know how to read situations.
So I guess you could say Elsa is a mix of us, introvert me and panic attack her. I write what I know...hence most of my things being less than happy most times.
I'm rambling, sorry.
Till next time!
X3