Hey guys, this is my second story and i'm also working on the sequal to Sense of Belonging, so i'm not going to be updating as much. but don't worry i will try to do it frequantly. Well enjoy.

Disclaimer: I do Not own Bleach or any of its Characters

Warning: Shirosaki is a pedophile in this chapter, there will be cursing, and this is a story about boy love. please don't read if you don't like.

Chapter 1

A small nine year old boy clutched onto his mother's shirt as they walked up to a giant circus tent. The boy had blazing orange hair and his eyes were a soft chocolate brown. His mother gave him a reassuring smile as she tied her strawberry blonde hair back.

"Don't worry Ichigo, everything will be fine." Ichigo nodded letting his grip loosen a bit.

Ichigo smiled as he saw an albino man handing out balloons. "Mommy can I have a balloon?" Ichigo asked. His mother nodded as she led him to the albino man.

The man couldn't help, but notice a blaze of orange hair approaching him. He saw Ichigo clinging to his mother all so cutely, he couldn't help, but smile. He was never the one to go for kids, but this one is an exception. "He'll turn out to be a very nice piece of ass one day." He whispered to himself, turning to them when they approached

As they got closer Ichigo noticed the man was wearing a bright red ring masters coat with a golden star pattern on it. He wore yellow clown pants that came to his knees and orange boots that were knee high. He turned to face Ichigo and his mother and that's when Ichigo noticed his eyes were yellow on black.

"Well, what can I do for ya? My, what a cute little boy. He takes after his mother." The man spoke with underwater like tone. Ichigo smiled at the comment. "The name's Shirosaki." Shiro said happily, holding out his hand. Ichigo looked at the white hand suspiciously before taking it. "Mine's Ichigo."

Ichigo's mother smiled at the pair before groaning as the heat started getting to her. "Mommy is something wrong?" Ichigo asked innocently, looking up at his mother in concern. "No, what kind of balloon would you like?" Shirosaki grinned broadly as Ichigo contemplated on what kind of balloon he wanted. Shiro couldn't help, but think he was kind of cute with that little scowl on his face.

"I want the blue one." Ichigo said pointing to the biggest balloon there. "Here ya go, Ichigo." Shirosaki practically purred Ichigo's name, but Ichigo or his mother took no notice. "And for the pretty lady, a flower." Shirosaki pulled out a red flower out the air getting gasps from surrounding people. "Wow, Mommy did you see that?" Ichigo was jumping up and down excitedly, letting go of his balloon.

Shirosaki as a reaction jumped into the air before the balloon could get out of reach from any of them handing it back to Ichigo. "Thank you, Shiro." Ichigo said happily. Shiro looked away in embarrassment as his pants seemed to get a little tight. Honestly he never had issues with kids before.

"What do I owe you?"

"Nothing, this is on me."

"Oh really? Thank you, come on Ichigo your father is probably worried sick about us." Ichigo's mother led them both away from the albino, hoping they would make it in time for the show.

Shirosaki wasn't too happy when they left, but hey he was going to see them again real soon. "Ne, Shiro-Kun looks really happy. So who d'ya fuck this time?" Shirosaki hissed as a tattooed man came up to him wrapping an arm around his neck. His long red hair was tied back into a ponytail revealing the tattoos on his face.

"No one yet, Now Fuck off ya stupid pansy." Shirosaki growled digging his heel into the man's foot. "Shows gonna start soon so if you don't want to get bitched at again by the infamous prick ya better hurry up Ren-ji." Shiro walked off making sure he gave Renji a good rap to the head.

"My dear darling wife and my darling son over here!" A man with a goatee stood up waving both of his arms frantically. "Looks like I found your father." Ichigo's mother said laughing sweetly.

Ichigo ran over to his father as the show started with a big bang of a canon and a small pink haired girl flew out of it landing on a muscular man's shoulder's. The man had his hair up in spikes with bells on the end of each spike, with an eye patch covering one eye and a scar on the other.

"Hiya! I'm Yachiru and this is my partner Ken-chan!" Yachiru screamed from on top of Kenpachi's shoulders. "We're going to be the opening act for you today!" Ichigo had to wonder how a girl that small had so much energy.

Ichigo looked over see his two baby sisters smiled joyfully as Yachiru was tossed into the hair by Kenpachi. "Aaah, dad, did you see that? He threw so high up into the air and she hasn't come back down yet." A blonde haired girl said with a toothy grin. "Yes, you're right my sweet daughter."

The crowd went wild when Yachiru didn't come back down after awhile, but all went silent after a loud shrieking voice was heard from above. "Hey everyone, you all like ants from up here!" Yachiru screamed as she swung back and forth on a small swing. "Ken-chan, are you ready yet?" the pink haired girl whined.

Kenpachi only grunted before lighting a few torches on fire. He started to juggle them like it was an everyday thing. Yachiru giggled as she slowly let herself fall from the dangerous height, letting gravity pull her down to the ground a little too fast for people's liking.

People were screaming turning their heads away, as the pink haired daredevil got closer to the ground. "Tch, what morons. Do they really think I'll let her die?" Kenpachi asked mostly to himself. Yachiru giggled as she landed into a large hand before being thrown back into the air, joining the flaming torches. "Holy shit, isn't that a little dangerous for someone her age? She could be burned." Someone yelled from behind Ichigo, to the point where Ichigo's father swiftly punched him in the face.

"There are little children and their ears need not to be tainted by such fowl language."

"Isshin dear, you're going to make a scene."

"But Masaki-"

"No Buts, now seat down for the rest of the show."

Isshin sat down grumbling loudly like a little kid. Masaki looked at the flower in her hand as it's faint scent made its way to her nose, making her feel slightly dizzy. "Mommy, are you going to be okay?" Ichigo grabbed her shirt, pulling on it gently. "Yes, now watch the show."

Ichigo didn't look to sure, but he did what his mother told him to. The opening act was pretty cool, and people groaned in disappointment when it was over. There was a few moments of silence until pink petals were falling from the ceiling. Everyone looked dazzled as each petal disappeared as they touched the ground.

People were in awe and too busy to notice a very handsome man, walking into the center of the circus. Ichigo stared at the man before scowling. He looked like a prick to Ichigo. "Ladies and Gentlemen, Boys and Girls. I'm proud to welcome all of you to our Vespera Circus. Today, you'll see things that even the most wildest imagination can't even dream of seeing. I am Byakuya, the Ringmaster of this circus."

The crowd stayed silent as Byakuya took in another breath. He opened his mouth to say something or at least that's what everyone thought until he reached into it and pulled out a small black bunny. He placed onto the ground petting it softly. Everyone thought it was dead at first before it began moving.

It's black fur started to fade into a lighter color, as it's body grew into a small human form. It was a young girl wearing a beautiful black dress. She looked like she could've been related to Byakuya, except for the bunny ears and tail.

"Hi I'm Rukia. I'm Byakuya's younger sister and I'll be co-hosting the show this evening." Ichigo didn't hear the rest of it as his mind wondered off. Something was bugging him in the back of his mind. He couldn't shake the feeling. Masaki watched her son scowl like he was deep in thought, but felt herself slip in out of consciousness. "Ichigo, I'm going outside for a bit kay? Stay here with your father." She spoke softly, realizing her throat was a little soar.

Ichigo nodded scooting closer to his over excited father, watching his mother with worried eyes. Isshin placed a hand on Ichigo's shoulder in order to comfort him in any way possible. "Don't worry she'll be fine." He said before turning his attention to his daughters who were having trouble seeing the show.

Masaki leaned up against the wall, sweating slightly as her temperature began to rise. She tightened her grip on the flower in her hands unconsciously, not noticing the thorns until they cut through her skin. "Shit." She cursed, walking off to the nearest bathroom not noticing the clown that was watching her. He turned to walk back to the tent, grinning wildly as his eyes landed on a bright orange haired child.

Ichigo fidgeted as he felt a pair of eyes on him. He turned around to see who it was, seeing shadowy figure disappear. Ichigo, being the curious child he is, stood up and followed the figure. He followed him through long stretches and mazes. Until the figure stopped in his tracks.

"Mommy?" He asked hesitantly, approaching the figure cautiously. "Nope, I'm not ya mom, little Ichi." Shiro spoke sweetly. "Shiro?" Ichigo questioned then grinned. "Shiro what are you doing sneaking around like that?" Ichigo asked grabbing Shirosaki's hand. "Cause I can." Shiro smiled at the thought Ichigo wanted to hold his hand, but frowned.

Shirosaki knew it was a bad idea for Ichigo to be here and he knew that he couldn't be alone with him either. Shiro thought he wouldn't be able to control himself if they were alone any longer. "You should be heading back to your seat Ichi." Ichigo shook his head, shifting closer to the clown. "I don't know how to get back." He said feeling a little embarrassed and scared.

"Is that why you're holding my hand?" Ichigo nodded, tightening his grip. "Fine I'll take ya back to your seat if." Shiro said squatting down so that he was eye level with Ichigo. He felt his heart skip a beat when Ichigo looked at him with his wide chocolate brown eyes. Shiro leaned forward so his lips were only centimeters away from Ichigo's.

Ichigo felt his face heat up as he felt Shirosaki's hot breath against his face. "If ya give me a kiss." Ichigo thought about it for a bit. He saw his mom and dad kiss all the time and when he asked them why, all they said was they liked each other. Ichigo did like Shiro, but he hardly knew him. Ichigo thought about the pros and cons, before leaning in giving a quick peck to Shiro's lips.

Shirosaki wasn't satisfied though. He quickly captured Ichigo's lips again. He didn't do anything else with the kiss, fearing that Ichigo would reject him. He pulled away with a satisfied smirk, as Ichigo blushed lightly. Even if was wrong to love such a young innocent child, Shirosaki honestly didn't care.

"I guess I should be taking ya back to your seat." Shiro spoke, pulling Ichigo along. Ichigo was silent for a bit before letting out a small whine.

"Shiro don't lose me."

"I'm holding your hand Ichi, ya can't get lost."

"I'm scared Shiro."

Shiro sighed mentally, picking the small boy up. "I'll carry ya there kay?" Ichigo nodded, wrapping his small arms around Shiro's neck. Shiro had to keep reminding himself, that Ichigo was young and naïve and had no idea that Shiro had feelings for him. "Well here we are, now take a seat, and I guarantee, ya gonna see something great."

Masaki walked out of the bathroom feeling slightly better, walking back to her seat she felt her body crumble beneath her. Her eye sight blacked out and all her senses shut down. "Nighty night, mommy."

"Ichigo, my darling son where did you go? Daddy was worried about you." Isshin embraced his son in a tight suffocating hug. "I saw Shiro." Ichigo said like it was an everyday thing. "Shiro could be a kidnapper. You have to be more careful." Ichigo shoved his father away, taking his balloon back from his sister. "Thanks Karin. Did mom ever come back?" A dark haired shook her head, turning her head back to the show.

"My dear audience, I thank you one and all for coming to the show. This will be our last act for the night. Now may I present to you our most curious member of our circus. Shirosaki the Immortal Clown."

Well that's the first chapter and I have never written so much before. well I don't think the other chapters will be so long. The part where Ichigo said don't lose me is based of something that happened to me. I was holding friend's hand cause I'm short people can easily push me around and well you see the picture so anyway, review please.