"So have you told him yet?" my best friend Alice asked.

"No not yet…"

"Come on Bella you have to tell him soon or else….."

Though I hated when Alice told me to something more than one time she was right!

Ok here is my problem: I am in love with my best friend, Edward Cullen, we have been friends since I was born. Our mom's were best friends in college. Esme had married Carlise and my mom, Renee and married Charlie. My parents knew I liked Edward but the way I "looked" at him. Yes the can read me like a book. They also have been pushing me to tell him. I found out I was in love with him my junior year of high school. Now here I am, a graduated senior from Forks High School and he, a freshmen (well soon to be sophomore) at Dartmouth College and I have yet to tell him. He has been there for a whole year and I have yet to see him. I miss him every day, yes, we do talk on the phone, chat on the computer but I still miss him! And of course his hugs!

"Bella, Bella, BELLA!!!!" Alice was screaming my name, which brought me out of my thinking.

"Sorry Alice, I was thinking…"

"Should be about how you are going to tell him!" Alice muttered under breath.

I just sat there and rolled my eyes. Alice – I felt had it easy- had already told Jasper (Edward's best friend) that she liked him and have been together since! I was suppose to tell him at the same time but I didn't. Now here I am wanting to tell him badly but don't know when.

"Alice, ugh I don't know when to tell him. No time is perfect and I am really scared that he won't feel the same and it will ruin our friendship."

"Bells… you have to risk it and I know you don't want to but everyone knows he does too. Come on even Esme says it!!!"

Oh yeah forgot to tell you everyone can read me like a book. Yeah his parents found out at his graduation. Yes Edward had many girlfriends but they never stayed. He is god, with his glowing green eyes, messy bronze hair, nice tone body; he is every girls dream guy. I just want him to be my man!!!! Ugh!

"Alice!!!!! Help I am so dumb I need to tell him!!!!!"- I screamed in the car. Yes, we had a full of shopping. Oh I forgot that Alice is a little shopping pixie!! But you got to love her.

"He is coming home right for summer? Why not tell him while you are hanging out with him one these days. And when exactly is he coming home? Jaz is coming home next week. And Rose and Emmet the week after him."

Oh yeah Emmet and Rose are other best friends in college. Rose is Jasper's twin sister and Emmet is her well boyfriend but soon to be husband. I say this cuz he proposed to her 6 months ago! They both go to Dartmouth too and me Alice are planning to go too. We hate being separated.

"He is coming home on Saturday. Which is OMG ALICE that is 2morrow!!!!!!!!!!!! And I HAVE TO PICK HIM UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I totally freaked in her car!

"Bella calm down…. Talk him when you get home. Haha girl you scared me there.. Oh well we are at you house and Bells please tell him. I just have this gut feeling if you don't something bad is going to happen and you are going to get hurt babe. And I don't want that" Alice said apolitically.

I hated when Alice got these gut feelings and truth be told she is always right. It scares me but I will tell him when he comes! Or sooner?

"I know Ally I will try and thanks for hearing me out and putting up with me. Love you Ally. Talk to you later. Byes!" I said as I closed the door.

And there she drove off in her bright yellow Turbo 911 Porsche. That girl always to seem amaze me. As I am unlocking my front door the tune "Sexy Can I" goes off in my purse. Ah the one person I wanted to talk too. Well here goes nothing!!!!