Summary: Why Fuji cared even more for Ryoma ever since the day he left boy wonder for Seigaku's captain had been a wonder. But why two other more captains were involved was an even more wonder for the Tensai. [FujiRyo, TezuFuji
Disclaimer: -sniffsniff- not mine and never will be… But if it did… -evilcackle-
Warning/s: Um… First of all… this would be shonen-ai/yaoi(that's for sure!XD)… and... I really have a lousy style of writing(thumpthumpthump).
Well that's pretty much all:D
Pairing/s: Um… nothing official yet. It will revolve around Fuji, Ryoma and Tezuka though. And there will be hints of others too… revolving around Ochibi. XD Haha, lol!
Genre: Action/Adventure/Romance, though it might change to angst later on…XD
Rated: T but if others suggests otherwise… it may change, kidding!
Blabber: Hi! This is my first shonene-ai/yaoi attempt so um… please take it easy on me. My grammar isn't that good because… well I have no excuse for that because my grammar is just… like that. So um, anyway…haha! There will be confusion here but (hopefully) everything would be cleared out as the story goes on with chapters I still ought to plot, so… but I do have a rough idea on what will happen next (thought it's still pretty hazy so expect really slow updates coming from 'lil 'ol me…haha! XD).
Okay, enough blabber or else I'll never finish, haha! XP
RnR please! Sankyuu)
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Guilt
Chapter 1: Careless
Written By: Blackspica
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It was strange and unexpected for Fuji Syusuke, Seigaku's 'Sadistic Tensai' and the man who knew everything going on behind everything, to be lost. To be lost and uncertain of the situation that he, himself, had plotted. And that, most of all, he was in doubt of its outcome and its impact on him. It had been a surprise, for Fuji to be lost in track, to be outdone and to become confused. It was un-Tensai-like, un-Sadistic-like, un-Fuji-like and it made him feel pathetic and weak—an unfamiliar and unsuitable feeling lost in his mind, finding its way out. And that had been precisely what he ought to do. He would be the one to lead all these feeling out the door of his system. Make a comeback and take the rule of the upper hand back to him.
And now that was Fuji-like— 100 at that in Inui's language.
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"Funny, you don't seem to care at all."
"Aa," Ryoma replied dispassionately with his eyes vague of any feeling as they stared right through cerulean ones.
"If you're trying to lessen up this guilt thing, I must say it sure is working," Fuji spoke offhandedly, a brow raised at the freshman's attitude.
"Good," Ryoma muttered, still with the same level of cockiness. However, despite that, Fuji couldn't have missed that flash of hurt in Ryoma's eyes that disappeared just as fast as the flash of lightning that had struck. Or perhaps it had always been there, it had always been like that—hurt—and he only noticed it now when he caught a glimpse of Ryoma's intense façade. He couldn't help but ask himself… and feel pain himself.
But it was just an intuition…
Fuji heaved an exasperated sigh. Ryoma sure wasn't making this any easier for him.
"You know, you sound like you're the one breaking up our relationship."
Now this time, it was Echizen's turn to lift a brow.
"You hurt?" he retorted with mocking care.
"Saa…" Fuji responded with his unfazed smile, trying so hard to keep his concern for the first year prodigy hidden-well, for if he was going to take action, he should first have the upper hand and know the field they're in. He still has his title to stand up for anyway.
But Ryoma wasn't going along his plans.
Ryoma's eyes narrowed at him.
"Well I'm sorry if my reaction was not what you were expecting." And it would seem that the sky had heard his rage as it had let out a loud, piercing thunder in respond. Ryoma was irked and the fact he attempted to leave showed it.
There really was just something in the Tensai's smile that had always succeeded in irritating him. But, the way Ryoma could just easily read him like an open book without bothering an effort irritated Fuji more, if possible…
"Ryoma-"
And Fuji acted on impulse and grabbed the arm of the smaller figure, preventing him from leaving. His smile had long disappeared as they stared eye to eye with one another.
After a long eye to eye contact, Ryoma finally got back to his senses.
"That's Echizen to you, Fuji-senpai!" he pointed out, cold and unfeeling. He could feel the mixture of shock and hurt that Fuji tried so hard to hide and he would've smirked if it were a different situation. Imagine the Fuji/Sadistic/Tensai with emotions other than a smile and he caused it and was still alive. He would've been really proud and can't wait to brag it to the world! But then again, what did he know about the smiling tensai? He doesn't know Fuji, Fuji didn't allow him to anyway.
"Do you even know why we're breaking-up?" Fuji was losing his patience and the way his grip on Ryoma hardens proves enough. He was stubborn, and that was what the two had in common.
"Why bother? It's so simple that even the whole school knows!" Ryoma was infuriated and the rain pouring out a drizzle didn't cool him off.
"What?"
Was he deaf or something? Was his system going on alright? Or perhaps he was just acting innocent. Ryoma couldn't help but wonder in fury.
Ryoma heaved a sigh and released all his vexation for the Tensai. Losing patience and breaking down wasn't something he wanted Fuji to see. That'll make him feel weakand he hates that he really was… especially ever since that time.
He stared blankly at the man in front him.
"Tezuka-buchou, am I wrong?" Surprisingly, he was calm. Despite that his eyes started to feel warm. "You loved him while you only pretended to love me. You felt guilt and pity for me but… I knew you never cared!"
And when he felt Fuji's grip stagger, he took the chance to shove it off and run away from him.
And it was no surprise to him that Fuji didn't follow.
It was true then… Ryoma thought, running off aimlessly with a sardonic smile formed on his shivering lips.
But it was a surprise, that he had been hurt. But which one had been really hurt?
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Ryoma ran aimlessly without care. His agility caused splashes on the cold, hard cemented ground whilst the rain poured down stronger and stronger by the minute. Of all the times, today must the sky cry. But he liked it anyway, it fitted his mood perfectly. But the fact he had been dripping wet had been no good at all.
Great, the irony…
He allowed a small chuckle to escape from his quivering lips, who knew he could still be amused?
But then his eyes narrowed once he was forced to stop. When a hand grabbed his and ceased his run, a scowl met his face. He knew perfectly who was behind him and he was not happy about it (but he did admire the stealth this man had to have caught him off-guard that easily).
"FUCK OFF ALREADY!" Ryoma almost shouted—thank god no one was around—as he turned himself around, to face the figure that had been stubborn enough to mess up with the already irked Echizen, while roughly grabbing his hand back but with no avail.
He gave the man an intense glare only to find that it was not whom he was expecting.
Crap.
(Did he just sweatdrop?)
He lowered his cap, hopefully to hide the embarrassment that occurred, with his free hand (which was the left one) before he greeted as if nothing had happened.
"Aa, it's just you, M-" But he was cut-off… as he was roughly pulled closer to the man… who suffocated him and made him bleed through an unwanted kiss he didn't expect from him.
His eyes could only widen as raindrops poured on them.
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The sky clouding in gray poured no drizzle but a hard discharge rather. Fuji stood there, alone, in a meaningless way, letting the rain make him sick, allowing the rain speak the pain he can't accept.
" Fuji."
"What took you so long?" Fuji chided lightly with his trademark smile, contrasting completely the mood he wore just a while ago.
But, the way Fuji spoke and his dithering smile was a subtle mistake he did carelessly which did not escape Tezuka.
But it was not like Fuji would have allowed him to have his way…
The moment Fuji looked up to meet his lover's gaze, when he met the worry plastered on the man's usual stern face, was the sign that told Fuji that he had been caught… and caught he was—off guard. He acted on impulse, carelessly at it, as he added yet another weight on his 'already' played smile. It didn't work. Tezuka was no 'do-not-be-careless' for nothing. And the Tensai knew such information too well—from experience… And from experience did he learn how to hide better and better as each day passed by. However, there would always be an exemption to everything, and two in his case...
Fuji's smile widened, trying to be more convincing, even if just slightly, as he wrapped his arms around Tezuka's and leaned his face on it. And the couple started to take their walk, and if they weren't stubborn enough, hopefully they would go for shelter and away from the cold, hard-pour.
Tezuka sighed in annoyance. He had to get this over with already. Now or never…
"How did it go?" And he could've sworn he felt Fuji wince on him as they kept on walking, gradually becoming slow despite that they are beneath the rain.
"Saa…"
Fuji's grip on Tezuka tightened unconsciously. In his life, there really were only a few people who can read him better than he can himself, who knew him better than he did himself.
Ryoma, you were the one who pushed away.
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" Fuji."
"Hm?" he responded, still continuing a leisurely walk beneath the cold pour. Until that is, when he felt the presence of his Captain disappear from beside him. He took a halt and glanced back... and there Tezuka really was, standing behind like a statue deep in thought… standing there unmoving. And Fuji would've laughed at the sight of a statue with an umbrella that proved useless, seeing that Tezuka had been soaking wet all along.
" Fuji," Tezuka mumbled again… as if unconscious and perhaps even carelessly. And that is the sign Fuji took that something is wrong, really wrong.
"Tezuka?" Fuji tilted his head slightly to the side, gazing at the respected captain skeptically and hid it well with his smiling façade. Seeing that Tezuka had been soaking wet despite that the Seigaku captain held an umbrella even before he met up with the already soaking wet Tensai… held an umbrella that he only opened up when he met up with the already soaking wet Tensai.
Fuji inwardly sighed. How could Tezuka have been so careless? Something must've been troubling the Captain… and that alone troubles Fuji inside.
" Fuji," Tezuka muttered (for the third time for crying out loud!) and Fuji noticed that Tezuka's eyes were filled with regret.
Not good…
"I need to tell you something…" Fuji's smile quivered.
"Okay, go on…" Fuji's voice had been calm and he was thankful that he'd still been able to manage to keep his cool. To be left twice in one day was a bad omen (perhaps he should've gotten his fortune told last night when his sister offered him one).
"Please…" Tezuka looked away. "…don't get angry"
Fuji only smiled at him but took notice that Tezuka's hands were clenched into fists.
"I'm sorry…"
Kunimitsu… Fuji bit his lips. He was not going to breakdown… he didn't want to cry. But just because he didn't want to… ddidn't mean he can stop the streaks of cold water that had already framed his face without his consent.
Perhaps it was just the rain…perhaps…
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"I'm sorry Fuji. I failed you… all of you…"
Fuji's smile twitched. His boyfriend could be so drastic at times, too drastic.
" Fuji, I got careless…"
And that was probably how he ended up staring at the door of Seigaku's Boys Tennis Locker Room with Tezuka who forgot to lock the room (out of hurry maybe) and got careless. Fuji heaved out a sigh filled of his wasted apprehension. All along, he thought Tezuka was breaking up… only to find out he got 'careless' that's all. Now, Fuji could only wonder if he will survive with Tezuka's dense nature… with his dense nature comparable to…
Fuji's eyes had narrowed when he thought he had seen a familiar figure way far across him when he gave a quick glance around the Tennis Courts. He tried to look back again, only to be disturbed by footsteps nearing him.
Fuji raised an accusing brow at Tezuka who seemed oblivious to it.
"Done?" Fuji asked with that angelic smile that lies within the devil's wrath (and if Inui had been there, he would've noted that Tezuka's face has a .03 percent emotion. Thank the heavens there wasn't a sound of scribbling around… or was there…).
Tezuka gave a nod in reply.
"Good, let's go then." Unknown to Tezuka, Fuji gave a last glance behind and caught sight of two retreating backs headed to the side opposing theirs.
Fuji's smile now turned to a frown.
'I see…'
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"Hey," the boy with messy raven locks muttered lifelessly as his eyes of hazel made contact with light sapphire ones.
The owner of it only smiled at him, and executed his smile perfectly despite how fake he felt it was. Even from afar, he couldn't have missed the sight of the young prodigy… seeing that it was only Ryoma left inside the courts. And how could he have missed the sight of a boy seated on one of the benches within the courts, knees embraced and had been leaning the weight of his head on his arms… sitting alone beneath the cold pouring rain...
Such a painful sight to bear...
"Ryoma-kun," the adolescent, who just came, mumbled cheerfully as he extended the coverage of his umbrella to the said boy wonder.
"Aa," Ryoma muttered as he stood up, looking like the stubborn kid that he was. He seemed unruffled and back to normal, causing the adolescent with blue locks to chuckle softly, and even such a light movement had been done so gracefully.
"Let's go?"
"Che!" Ryoma mumbled softly as he walked off… with the feminine looking adolescent right by his side. Unaware of the gaze directed at them that came from behind.
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End(for now)
I finished… finally! Although the last few parts had been hurried but um… it's a now or never thing so I really had to finish it now or I'll never be able to do so. I hope it turns out alright. –sigh- Well anyway, it's finished and that's what counts! XD
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