Its not that I don't care
its just that you don't see at all
impatient glances, bored countenances
they serve to mask my true distraction...you

Its not that I don't care
just that you won't see through it all
the apathethic, unromantic
...masochistic things I do when I'm with you

The power you yield with your piercing gaze
they unarm me till I am weak to the bone
Each time our bodies accidentally graze
brilliant shards strike me like daggers

Its not that I don't care
Its not that I don't see your pain
your silent questions, soundless supplication
their echoes seem to fill my thoughts with you

Its not that I don't care
Its just that you don't see at all
its just that I don't dare
let you know...let you know that
I long to hold you, Drown inside you
Need to feel you, let you know ...I care

I need to push you away
for I can't survive your kind of rejection
My pride can't handle, my heart can't shatter
So I would rather...

Pretend that I don't care
So I can keep you close to me
I won't have to hurt and wonder
Die inside with each surrender
we can stay like this forever
You won't have to leave me...never

for surely if you guessed what laid hidden within my heart
I'd lose you ...