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Chapter One:
Pregnant. Pregnant. She shook the stick in her hand hoping the results would change but it still read pregnant. She felt sick, light-headed, and scared. Tears began to well in her eyes then spilled down her cheeks.
"I'm pregnant" Olivia whispered to herself in the privacy of her own bathroom. She placed the test on the sink, covered her mouth with her hand and slid down to the floor, sobbing.
In any other situation, she would have been rejoicing, she would have been happy. She wanted a baby for so long, as long as she could remember. But this, this was different. She was pregnant with William Lewis's child. The thought alone made her nauseous. William Lewis was still haunting her, even in death.
She didn't know what she was going to do. What could she do? She knew abortion wasn't an option. Would she be able to carry this baby? Give birth? Raise it? She was living in a one bedroom apartment. She would certainly have to move. She wasn't sure she would be able to afford that. There were so many factors to this baby.
Olivia's cell phone rang in the other room. She quickly wiped her eyes with her sleeve and pushed herself off the floor. She walked into the main living space and grabbed her iPhone off the breakfast bar. She checked the caller ID and saw it was her partner Nick Amaro.
She sighed "Hello?"
"Hey Liv, how are you feeling?"
"Fine, Nick" he had called her everyday since she went on leave from work and asked her the same question.
"Good, good… you ready to come back to work tomorrow?"
She sighed again, rubbing her temple with her free hand. She had completely forgotten that she was due back at work tomorrow.
"Yeah, I'm ready"
"You sure? You could always take more ti-"
"I'm fine, Nick" she snapped "I'm sorry" she knew he was only trying to help.
"It's okay...I was just calling to check up, I'll see you at work tomorrow, Liv"
"See you tomorrow, Nick" she hung up her phone and sat on her couch, sinking into the soft cushions, thinking about what her life will be like now that she is expecting.
She looked around her dim apartment that she lived in by herself. Brian had moved out right before Lewis attacked her. She didn't have any family, aside from Simon, but she hadn't heard from him since the incident with his children. She was going to be going through this pregnancy all alone. She sighed, tears welling up in her eyes again. She had an appointment with Dr. Lindstrom next week. She might have to push that up, she didn't think she would be able to wait that long. She walked over to the breakfast bar and wrote on a sticky note saying move appointment.
She sighed and looked at the time, it was only 7:34. She already had everything clean and ready for her first day back on the job since her attack, she decided she would just watch some mind numbing television. She turned on the television and walked to get a glass of wine. She stopped dead in her tracks when she remembered she was pregnant, and pregnant women can't drink.
She sighed heavily and ran her fingers through her hair, then plopped down on the couch. She watched hours of nonsense on TV and she eventually ended up falling asleep on the couch.
Olivia walked through the doors of the 16th Precinct, and put on a wobbly smile at the sight in front of her. Her team members were holding a bouquet of roses and a box of cupcakes from her favorite bakery.
She walked up to her desk, surrounded by by Amanda, Fin, and Nick.
"Remembered the cupcakes this time" Amanda smiled, and pointed towards the box.
"Thank you..so much" Olivia smiled and nodded her head.
Nick cautiously touched Olivia's shoulder "Welcome back, Liv"
"Thank you" she mouthed.
She slowly walked past them into her office, her heart pounding for a reason that was unknown to her. The last time she was in this office, she was shaken, but she was not as damaged as she was now. She wished that William Lewis didn't possess so much power over her. She set her things down and felt a wave of nausea take over her. She dry heaved without noticing that Amanda, Nick and Fin were still watching her, holding her cupcakes and flowers.
Nick gave Amanda and Fin a look, and with that they walked away, while Nick went in.
"Hey, are you sure you're feeling okay?" Nick asked "You know you could always take more time if you need it"
Olivia looked up at Nick and gave a small smile, "I'm fine, just nervous to be back, I guess"
Nick didn't want to push, and left it at that "Okay, well just let me know if you need anything"
"Thanks" she said with a nod, and looked down her the papers on her desk, pretending to be preoccupied, when really paperwork was the last thing she had on her mind.
Nick hesitantly began to walk out of her office when Fin burst in. "Hey Liv, we got a new case, victim is already at Mercy"
Olivia sighed, and grabbed her things, and with that, she was out the door with her team.
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