A/N: So had this idea pop in my head and I had to do it. This story is going to be really short maybe 3 chapter but it's going to be really good. Now I know after you read this you might want to send my angry reviews but I would ask that you don't unless you have read all the chapters first, thanks. Well I hope you guys enjoy.

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I finish stirring the spaghetti noodles before I turn off the heat. After I drain the noodles, I put them back into the pot and add the sauce. When all of it is mixed together, I grab two bowls and fill them up. I bring them to the table and set them on opposite sides, "Food's done." I yell out to let him know that it's ready.

I turn back to wipe up some of the mess so that it doesn't dry to the counter. While I am finishing up, I feel two arms come around my waist and a head rest on my shoulder, "Are you going to join me?"

I nod my head, "In just a moment. I need to finish this up, Brian." I turn my head and give him a peck on his lips.

He smiles as he pulls away, "I will be waiting for you."

I give him a quick smile before I turn back around to make sure all of it was cleaned up. When I see that it is, I go and sit at the table. "So how was work today?"

Brian looks up at me in shock, "Work was great. How was your day today?"

I am trying to understand why he reacted that way when suddenly I come to the realization that I haven't made small talk with him since the incident. Now I feel guilty, "It was good. I finished all the painting in the coffee house which took 8 straight hours."

He smiles at me, "Well that is good. I can't wait to see the new color scheme."

"Well, we open again in 3 days so you can see it then."

Brian winks at me, "Are you sure that I can' t get a sneak peek?"

I laugh, "No you have to wait like everyone else."

He looks down at his food and pouts, "That is so unfair."

"Brain, life is unfair." I mean that as a joke but if I would have realized how that really sounded, then I would never have said it. But now that it's said I can't take I back, and the overwhelming pain starts to rise in my chest.

Brian can see that pain and is about ready to say something, but I don't let him get the chance, "I'll be right back, I have to get something from my room."

I stand up pretty fast, almost knocking my chair over in the process, and storm out of the kitchen. Once inside my bedroom I make my way to my drawer and open the top shelf. I dig through my clothes until I come across the letter. It is a little worn out from all the times I held it and crumpled it up only to smooth it out again.

After I close the drawer, I back up until my knees hit the bed and I sit down. I slowly open the letter and read it again for the hundredth time,

Dear Sonny,

I am sorry that I upset you and that I have made your life worse. I never meant to hurt you but that is all I seem to do, so I decided that I am going to leave. You were the only thing that made me stay in this town and now you want out of my life. I will give you your wish and let you go. Now don't try to contact me because I will just ignore it. I hope you have a wonderful life.

With love, Will

A single tear falls from my eye and lands on the letter. I quickly wipe it away before it ruins Will's lovely handwriting.

A voice from my bedroom door startles me, "Are you reading it again Sonny? Haven't you read it enough? It always seems to hurt you yet you keep on reading it." Brian is furious.

I quickly stand up and face him, "You have no right to come in here and judge me. You don't know anything about this."

"I don't care if I have the right, I don't like my boyfriend looking at an old letter from previous a boyfriend." At some point Brian moves forward and we are standing face to face.

Now I am pissed off, "He isn't just some previous boyfriend, he was more than that and you know it. I told you what he meant to me, and I thought you understood."

"I do understand but it's been 5 years since he left Sonny. It's not healthy for you to still be like this."

Brian reached up, probably to cup my face but I pull back, "What are you doing? I am mad at you right now, and I don't want to talk to you for a while." I turn away from him and stare out the window.

I can hear the subtle sound of him running his hand through his hair, which is a sign that he is going to blow up, "Fine, have it your way. I will leave and whenever you finally get your head on straight let me know."

I follow the sound of his footsteps until I hear the door slamming. A breath comes out and I sink to the bed, too exhausted to clean up the dishes from supper. At the moment I only feel like sitting and wallowing in the pain from the past.

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The next day I wake up and I try to sit up, but I had to lay back down because my head is killing me. I lay there for awhile trying to remember why I am lying in my bed with my clothes on. When I'm fully awake I remember the fight I had with Brian last night. I bite back a groan, "Why do I have to treat him like crap? He has been nothing but understanding and then here I go and ruin it."

I sigh and slowly lift myself up so that I can make the phone call I need to make. I reach over to my phone and bring it closer to me. Looking through my contacts, I find the one I am looking for and hit the call button.

It rings a few times before it's picked up, "Hello this is Marlena speaking."

I let out a nervous laugh, "Hey Marlena this is Sonny."

There is a pause on the other end of the line, "Let me guess. You read the letter again."

"You know me so well." I bite my thumb out of nervousness.

"Well you do only call me whenever you a feeling depressed after reading that letter. So tell me Sonny, what made you read it again and all that happened afterward."

I let out a relieved sigh and explain how it started to how me and Brian had a fight, "So after he left I curled up on my bed and cried until I fell asleep." Suddenly I start to feel angry, "Why do I keep doing this, why do I keep letting him get under my skin like that? He left me here all alone, so I shouldn't even be acting like this."

Marlena had been quiet throughout this story and my outburst but now she finally talks, "I don't know why you keep doing that, but maybe you need to think about the fact that it might be because you still love him."

"Of course I still love him, but there is nothing I can do about it. He is somewhere out there in the world and I can't see or talk to him."

"I know there is nothing you can do about it but maybe you are trying to fight the fact that you still love him, which is causing you to react this way. There are people in this world who have lost loved ones either by them leaving or passing away, but what they do is they still admit that they lov that person and it helps them to move on."

I take a few seconds to ponder this and I start to see the logic, "I see what you are getting at. I think I am going to concentrate on that and maybe I will finally be able to let him go."

Marlena chuckles, "Well that's a very good idea. I wonder where you came up with that."

"Ha ha very funny Marlena, but seriously thanks so much for listening to me even though it is about your grandson."

"No problem Sonny. I am glad that I was able to help and I hope that one day Will realizes that his life is better with you in it."

I start to pick at a piece of sting that is attached to my jeans, "So have you heard from him?" I probably shouldn't asked that question but I couldn't help myself.

She sighs on the other phone, "No I haven't but to tell you the truth nobody has heard from him. I think he just needs to stop being such a stubborn boy and come back."

I let the disappointment crash through me after hearing that, but I mask it so I can say goodbye to Marlena, "Well I should let you go. I need to get the coffee shop ready for its reopening."

"Well it was nice talking with you Sonny and don't ever worry about calling me too late. I will always be here to help you." I can hear the smile in her voice and it make me smile.

"Talk to you later Marlena and I will see you at the reopening right?"

"Wild horses couldn't keep me away." We both laugh as we say goodbye and hang up. The talk with Marlena helps me out enough that I am able to get out of bed and get ready to head to the coffee house.

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Later that night I am making supper, without Brian of course since we are still fighting. I am in the middle of cooking the chicken when my phone goes off. I look at the screen and see that it's a number I have never seen before. Of course I don't answer because I never answer the phone unless it's from a number I recognize. If they really need to talk to me, they will leave a message. A minute later I hear my phone beep indicating that I have a new voicemail but I ignore it until I finish cooking the chicken.

Once the chicken is cooked all the way through I turn off the heat and pick up my phone to listen to the voice message. After I type in my password I wait patiently to hear who left the message. What I don't expect and what makes my heart clench is the voice of Will on the phone…

"Hey Sonny I called because I need you to know some things before it's too late. The first thing is that I never wanted to write you that letter but I was forced too. The night of our fight I came back home and someone came up behind me and held a gun to my head telling me to write you a goodbye letter. At first I refused but when they threatened to kill you I couldn't refuse anymore. Second thing I want to tell you is that I didn't leave on my own free will; I was kidnapped Sonny and I have been waiting until the day that I could tell you this. The third thing is going to be something that shocks you and that is…"

I hear him let out a cough and it doesn't sound good. It sounds more like something is trying to come out. When he is done coughing he continues…

"Sorry that you had to hear that but I guess it's for the best. I am dying Sonny, my captors have been beating me this entire time but it wasn't until last night that the person who kidnapped me came in and really did a number on me; then he left and had his fellow kidnappers do more damage on me. Now I think that I am bleeding internally and I don't think anyone is going to get me medical attention…" He coughs some more, "Yeah. I definitely am bleeding internally because I am coughing up blood… Anyway let's get back on topic. The last and final thing I want to tell you before I die is the name of my kidnapper/murderer. We both know him, but I didn't find out who he was until last night. The guy who took me was Brian." More coughing, "I don't have much longer here so I better wrap this up. I love you Sonny and I want to let you know that before I die. I wish I was there in your arms, but I guess I will have to wait until I see you again in another life. Goodbye Sonny and I love you with all my heart."

When I hear the beep that indicates the end of the voice message, I feel the phone slip from my hand and fall to the ground.

*To be continued*