It had been weeks since Bianca told Marissa how she felt. Marissa had been avoiding Bianca ever since, trying to set her feelings aside. One morning, Marissa was in bed next to JR and all she could think about was Bianca, her face, beautiful smile, voice. She was also thinking about what she had done last night. She slept with JR. She thought to herself, "I don't love this man anymore, yet I slept with him. Why? What possessed me to come home and crawl into this bed with him after Bianca confessed her feelings to me?" Marissa knew that Bianca was behind all of the wonderful things that JR did for her, the music box, the orange soda and doughnuts, and yet she was in bed with JR trying so hard to get Bianca out of her brain. JR woke up and put his arm around Marissa, kissing her neck.
"Good morning beautiful. Did you sleep well?"
"Good morning to you too" Marissa said with a fake smile. "I slept fine thanks"
"What's wrong?" JR said sounding concerned. "You don't sound like you slept well. Is everything alright? You look like you're in a deep thought about something. Are you having second thoughts about what happened between us last night? Did I do something wrong?"
Marissa paused for a moment. "No no, you didn't do anything wrong. You are great. It's not you. I just have a lot of things on my mind that's all."
"Anything you want to talk to me about?"
"No, I'd rather not talk about it." Marissa wanted so desperately to tell JR the truth. It wasn't him she wanted. It was her best friend, the woman who has always been there for her. The one who makes her laugh and makes her feel good about herself. JR never made her feel the way Bianca does, yet she's too afraid to admit that she's falling in love with a woman. She didn't have the courage to tell JR what was going on. Instead, she remained silent, pretending that being with him is where she belonged.
"Okay honey. You don't have to tell me if you don't want to. Just know that I am here for you whenever you want to talk." JR touches Marissa's face and places a soft kiss on her forehead. "I love you."
"JR…I…" Before Marissa could finish her sentence, JR's phone beeped. He hopped out of bed and checked his phone. It was a text message saying that he had a meeting in an hour.
"What is it?" Marissa asked.
"It's the office. Apparently I have a meeting in an hour, so I'd better shower and get going. I will be at work all day. I was hoping that I could take you to dinner tonight. How does 8:00 sound?"
"Sounds perfect" Marissa said putting on an act. "Where will you be taking me?"
"Well I know you love Italian food, so I was thinking about taking you to that new Italian restaurant that just opened up."
"Sounds good. I will see you at 8:00 then."
"Okay my love. See you then." JR blows a kiss at Marissa and she blows one back. After JR leaves the bedroom, Marissa lets out a deep sigh and buries her face in the pillows. Her first thought was, "What have I just done?"
Marissa gets out of bed, dreading the day ahead of her. Later, she's about to go to Krystal's for a mother/daughter talk. She really needs her mom right now because she feels like she has no one else to turn to. She definitely couldn't talk to Bianca. She was afraid of what she might do when she saw her. Would she return Bianca's feelings? Would she kiss her? Marissa was not ready to take that leap, so she felt it was best if she stayed away from Bianca for now.
The time was now 1:00. She went to Krystal's to speak with her mother. It so happens that Krystal was on her break and had time to have a mother/daughter chat with Marissa. Marissa and Krystal were eating lunch, discussing Bianca and the feelings Marissa had for her.
"Don't you think you should tell Bianca how you feel?" Krystal said softly. "She was honest with you, now you have to return the favor. You will never feel better unless you get this off of your chest."
"You're right" Marissa said. But I'm afraid. I have never been in love with a woman before. This is all new to me and I don't know what will happen when I tell Bianca the truth. It scares the hell out of me!"
Krystal takes Marissa's hand. "Honey, I know that this must be hard for you. Even admitting to me that you have feelings for Bianca takes a lot of courage. I know you're scared, but holding it in will not make it any better. The right thing to do would be to tell Bianca how you feel. I know that you love her. I can see it in your eyes right now. I've been watching you two for the past couple of weeks and have noticed the way you look at each other with so much love in your eyes. The connection you two have is very strong. I can sense it. You are unhappy with JR and staying with him will only make you sadder. All I have ever wanted for you is to be happy. If you're unhappy, then I'm unhappy. Bianca makes you happy does she not?"
"Yes, she does" Marissa said with a smile. "She makes me happier than anyone has ever made me. When I'm with her, it's like the whole world around me stops and it's just me and her, together. When she's holding me in her arms, at that moment, I never want it to end. When I found out that she was behind the music box and the orange soda and doughnuts, I finally realized that it's not JR that I'm meant to be with. It's Bianca, it has always been Bianca." Marissa was in tears now.
"I wish that she was here right now so that I can tell her that I'm sorry. I want to look into those beautiful brown eyes and tell her I'm in love with her. If only she were here right now so that I can have my second chance. I want to hold her in my arms and never let go. I would never let her go again. I love her so much."
"Well it looks like you will get that chance right now honey. Turn around." Krystal pointed to the door and to Marissa's astonishment, there stood the beautiful brunette locking eyes with the redhead. She had been standing there throughout Marissa's conversation and heard every word.
"I'll leave you two alone to talk" Krystal said getting up from the table and heading to the kitchen.
Bianca moves closer to the other woman. Marissa gets up as Bianca takes her hand, pulling her in closer until their bodies pressed against each other.
"Bianca, there is so much I want to say to you. I…" Bianca places her fingers on Marissa's lips, silencing her. "Shhhhhh. You don't have to say anything. I heard every word. You really love me. You want to be with me?"
"I want you more than I have ever wanted anyone in my life. I have known for months how I felt about you, but I was terrified to admit it. When you told me how you felt, it made me realize that I have been living a lie with JR and that I couldn't deny my true feelings anymore. It has always been you for me. I love you. I LOVE YOU BIANCA MONTGOMERY!
"I love you too Marissa Tasker." Bianca puts her hands on Marissa's waste and kisses her on the lips. They are so intoxicated by the kiss that neither of them can break away from it. A few minutes later, they pull away, looking at each other lovingly. Marissa wraps her arms around Bianca's neck. She pulls in closer and whispers in Bianca's ear.
"I want you right now. Make love to me." Bianca was shocked, in a good way that Marissa is ready to take their relationship to the next level so quickly.
"Are you sure about this?" Bianca wanted to make sure that Marissa was comfortable before they continued.
Marissa took Bianca's hands. "Yes, I'm sure. I want nothing more than to spend the night with you and show you how much I love you. Come back to the hotel with me?"
Bianca nodded her head and smiled. Once they were at the hotel, Marissa pulled Bianca closer to the bed and began to kiss her lips. She proceeded down her neck, then unbuttoned Bianca's shirt. Bianca did the same to Marissa. She wrapped her arms around Marissa, backing her up against the bed. Bianca was on top of Marissa kissing her and exploring her entire body. Marissa let out a soft moan, begging Bianca not to stop. Marissa was so caught up in the moment that she totally forgot about JR and the date they were supposed to have that night. JR tried calling her several times, but her phone was on vibrate and she couldn't hear it.
Bianca and Marissa made sweet, tender, passionate love for hours until they fell asleep in each other's arms.
Morning came and the two ladies woke up feeling overwhelmed and amazing. Marissa touched Bianca's face and said, "This is exactly where I was meant to be, right here with you. I love you." "I love you too Marissa" Bianca said holding her close. They kissed each other gently and knew that that perfect moment would never end and that they would be together forever.