A\N This is for all the people who read my poem A Light in Darkness and if you haven't read it yet and you like Jasper Cullen I say read it. And this is for Jenny and Kara who helped me outside of the computer and are still giving me tons of support (I wish)

It was dark, my life and I couldn't find any solace for my pain, the pain that was always going to be there.

When I think about it there where many different types of pain for me the pain of loneliness not having someone to love.

The pain that accelerated whenever I looked at Peter and Charrolet holding each other I just had to walk away.

The next pain was awful…...my thirst.

I mean others may say you get over the look in the human's eyes when they scream or when they try to run.

They just don't get me I feel the very fear that the human is feeling the emotional climate coming from them it's awful and then I feel as if I should never had done some thing like that.

Then to save my sanity I stop eating but I give in to my hunger at an unlucky passing human…..always.

This last pain is not much of a pain but the absents of pain the void in my life that never seems to fill the void that was created decades ago by killing, my kind, and humans soullessly and mercilessly.

As I was traveling alone these pains got worse until that faithful rainy day I met Alice, but I'm getting ahead of myself I'm sure you as my trusted listener would love to hear the whole story right?

Well anyway here it is.

I guess I'll start after I became acquainted with Maria for a while she was my reason and my life but I slowly saw that I was getting bored with my life with her.

I didn't know what was wrong until Peter told me of his free life and I had to leave.

I didint know you could live like that. Hate was always the only thing with me.

The pain didn't start till after I ran off with Peter and his mate. Ha.

Love, I didn't want to believe in such a thing back then.

Because remember I lost my sanity. Ha.

Me and Peter always had conversations about things like our thirst and how I felt about killing.

He suggested that I go alone for a while to sort things out and we left it at that.

I left that night and told them that we would meet again. And we did.

I wandered a lot to…well to stop eating and I considered myself a very lonely nomad.

I was going to go back to Peter and Charrolet but I came upon and interesting cave within was an odd beautiful woman.

Her name was Alyssa and she was transforming when I met her.

A\N I know it was really short but It will get longer I swear by Jenny and Kara (lol) I loves ya Jen & Kar

Oh and I almost forgot Roses are red

Violets are blue

I don't own twilight

So you cant sue ~ Jen