Chapter 1: Kept Secrets
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Robbie's POV
"Hey Beck! Where is my baseball cap!" I shout across his RV. He is in the bathroom probably washing up or something. He shouts something but I can't hear him over the sound of water running. "Never mind I found it!" I shout looking under his bed, snatching my cap back. I put it on with tip facing the front. Beck finally comes out of the bathroom looking at me, he smiles. "I look good, right?" I ask. "Ha yeah just great, Rob" he answers, smiling. "Are you ready to go play some baseball?" I ask. "I still can't remember when you started liking sports then again now you have a six pack." He says trying to keep himself from laughing.
"Yeah, well I thought I just needed to change." I say looking around on the ground trying to find the baseball bat and ball. "Here it is Rob" he says handing me the bat and ball with the mitt already on his hand. "Thanks, Beck" I shout he shouts back "no prob" mocking me I just laugh with him. "You know Rob I'm glad you gain a lot of self confidence. But you didn't have to change for anyone but yourself. I think you have always been great just the way you were." I nod as he pats me on the back I laugh and say "well at least I am better now, then." He smiles, grabbing the cap of my head I drop the bat and ball and chase after him. "Beck, come back here with my cap!" I yell he laughs throwing the baseball off his free hand and runs out the door. I run to the door and look down at him.
"You have to get it yourself, soldier" he shouts waving my cap back in forth in front of him. Tempting me I laugh and run after him. "Ah" we both shout before tripping on to his parking lot. We both hit our backs hard against the street. But we just lay there and laugh, Beck always makes me happy, no matter what. I reach over him and take my cap away from him. He gets up, allowing me his hand. I take it and he pulls me up, smiling his brown eyes shining. "Man, Rob why did you cut your hair?" he asks sounding sort of disappointed. He rubs my head soft, looking at me with curiosity written in his eyes. "What I don't look good?" I ask turning my head away. He stutters out "no..no it's.. it's just that you don't look like the Rob I knew my whole life."
I turn back and look at him and give him a small smile. "I think it was time I grew up though" I whisper. Still holding his hand "well let's go play some baseball!" I shout breaking the silence. I let go of Beck's hand and run back towards the RV. He chases after me I quickly grab all the baseball stuff. And run back out he locks his door. "You wanna walk, instead?" Beck asks. I nod and we start walking to the park. "Oh look the whole crew is here" Beck shouts. I look around and I see Tori and Cat swinging on the swings, laughing.
I look at Andre and he is playing Frisbee with Jade. Trina is just walking around with her new boyfriend, Jess, holding hands. Me and Beck run to them, they all light up and run to us too. "Do all of y'all want to play baseball?" I ask they all smile, and nod. I feel so cool now ever since my makeover a lot more people like me now. Before people would just laugh at me now they praise me just as much as Beck. It just feels so great, having power. Even Trina and her boyfriend want to play too. "Ok, me, Beck, Tori, and Cat are on all one one team. And Jade, Jess, Trina and Andre are on the other team.
Everyone seems to agree with my arrangement and they all scatter out. The game lasts for a while but in the end my team wins. "Man that was one game" Beck shouts, wiping sweat off of his forehead everyone sighs and agrees. "Do all of y'all want to go out to eat?" Cat and Tori shout giggling with each other. "Sure" Andre shouts back "we should go to that pizza place across the street" Jess insists. Beck nods and we all follow each other there. Cat and Tori are holding hands, smiling at each other. Jess's arm is around Trina's waist, they are laughing about something. Andre and Jade are just talking. Me and Beck are taking the lead but I can't stop staring at him.
We enter the Pizza restraunt, all together. The girls and boys separate to go wash up. All of us boys walk in the boys bathroom and wash our hands. "So how are you and Trina doing?" Andre asks Jess he smiles and answers "we are doing great I think she is the one, you know." We all nod Andre then looks at Beck and asks "you know Jade likes you right?" I tense up at those words for some reason. The idea of Beck spending more time with anybody other then me makes me jealous and scared. "Oh, I didn't know that" Beck just says walking out of the bathroom, leading us to our table. Where the girls already are.
"Beck" I whisper before me and him sit down with the others. "What is it Rob?" he asks I take a deep breathe and asks him "do you like Jade?" He smiles and pats me on the back to answer "yeah I kind of do" I frown and just sit down without another word. "What's wrong, Rob?" he asks sitting by me across from Jade and Andre. I put my lips by his ear, really close and say. "I love you Beck, that's what's wrong. I am in love with you." I get up and walk fast out of the restraunt and run to the park to pick up the baseball stuff. I walk home, and it's a very long walk. I pull my phone out of my pocket and look through the pictures.
Most of them are of Beck and me hugging, laughing, kissing on the cheek, holding hands. "I'm not gay" I whisper to myself but my voice isn't convincing at all. Beck is calling me and I look at the answer button but I press the end button and shove it back in my pocket. I arrive at my house and just walk in. Why the hell is the door, unlocked? I ask myself, locking it once I am inside. It's dark I just throw my stuff on the floor. I can't believe I told Beck I was in love with him. Then ran away I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't ever run away again since I got my 'makeover'.
I run to my room and look at the mirror, above my dresser. I see my old self in the reflection. "No!" I yell, driving my fist into the glass. The pieces fall to the ground, surrounding me. My fist is bleeding but I don't care, I just fall to the floor with the glass, stabbing my back. I'm still crazy, I'm still weird I'm still Robbie. And it fucking pisses me off, because I just can't change. All the anger I have had built inside of me from people always running over me. Is about to explode, fuck bitchy Jade. Fuck self centered, Trina. Fuck all of them, except Beck, except Beck.