I want to make some things clear before you start reading this.

I haven't seen the newest episodes yet, I'm still waiting for Sweden to air 2x17. But I'm using the experience from Damon/Elena's chemistry and the curse.

This fanfiction isn't build on any particular scene in the show. We know how much Elena loves to write in her diary; and this is her using her ability to say all the things she never could say in real life to Damon.

Think in this course while reading: Elena will be sacrificed and will not survive it; despite their fighting.

Disclaimer: I do not own The Vampire Diaries.

The Letter

Dear Damon,

Believe me when I say this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. And I'm truly sorry for the way I'm handling this, but I won't be able to say the things I want to say in person. I won't stand to see your face hearing this.

You were right all along. I have been lying to everyone, to myself. I spent so much time trying to avoid you, tell myself that you are dangerous and that there wasn't anything going on between us. I worked so hard to ignore my feelings for you and focus on my relationship with Stefan.

But you and me, we do have something. Something more than an understanding. I'm truly sorry for all the hurt and pain I have put you through and I hope you can forgive me for it someday. But if you can't, I understand, just know that I forgive you. For everything.

My heart breaks seeing how unfair and wrong I treated you for the past few months. I wish with all my heart I could change it. But this moment is all I have right now and I want to make the best of it.

I don't care how many times I have to say this, or how many times you need to read this. As long as you trust me and understand this, I'm satisfied. You are good, Damon. I'm glad you let your guards down with me, that you trusted me enough to let me see the real you. I know you don't want anyone else to see your vulnerable, emotional side because it's also considered a weakness. And your secret will be safe with me.

I will always cherish our moments and they will always be held in a special place in my heart. I will always be by your side to help you and protect you. Whenever you feel alone, remember, I'm right beside you; I'm closer than you think. (Oh, God, that sounded really stalkerish- anyways..)

There is so much more I want to tell you, but words aren't enough. Neither is a thank you, but that's the only way I can think of to let you know how thankful I am for everything you have done for me. And my friends and family. Thank you, Damon.

I love you.

Yours faithfully,
Elena

PS. Don't blame yourself. You can't fight fate, Damon.

A/N- I'm not pleased with the way my other story "I stayed in the darkness with you" has developed and will therefore delete it and re-write/re-edit it to the point where I'm satisfied. I hope you'll forgive my stupidity and read the new version as it's published.

Also a big thank you for reading this once. Remember, review are more than welcome!