I don't know my past, I don't look toward the future, I don't live for the present, but I do live to see the presents. Every night, since the day I woke up without my memory, I have received a gift and a clue to my past. One day I will know everything; if I piece together the clues. It didn't seem hard at first but with every new clue it gets harder. So far all I know is my name, my age, and that everyone in my family is dead; and everything I learned on my own without the clues.

While I search for my pasted I also live my life. I go to school, I have a job, I do things I should, but I still hold pain in my heart. I've seen many who I called friends be taken to Juvie, soon I was looked at as an outcast betrayed by what I knew as the world.

I was put in Hamilton Hill high school, not my first choice. As far as I know I have no family so the orphanage I woke up in picked it for me. It's a public school so they have no fees to pay on me. I'm doing ok in school, I have no friends, I'm not social, I don't smile, I guess you can call me a lone wolf.

The people who put up with me are, surprisingly to me, a boy named Terry. Everyone else makes fun of me for being silent. I don't see why I have to talk if there's nothing to talk about, but Terry he's...how you say, Schway...I heard Terry defending me once, he's not a bad kid. Sure he has a record, but I think a president did too. Terry's the closest person to a friend I have and I wouldn't mind being his friend.

I don't have a love-life, but I do have a crush. His name is Willie and he's so smart. He knows what it's like to have no one want to be around you, his father is even harsh to him. I talk to him sometimes but he tries to get me to help him get with Blade. I can't say I blame him, Bobbi is one of the most popular girls at that school. She's not smart, she doesn't care for him, and she refers to him as a twip, even when she says she prefers him to another.

Now the segment on me, I love to see my refection, I don't know why. I don't think I'm stuck up, I just like bushing my hair in the mirror; I think my favorite thing about myself is my hair. I don't like being around people. I don't seem to connect with any girls, apparently I'm not "Schway" enough. I'm not one of the cool kids, I'm not even good enough to be a geek, I just don't have a category. When I have time to myself, I runaway to a quiet place, Gothem is a big city but I like to leave the city for the country as often as I can. I think I enjoy challenges, like puzzles or games. I don't have any friends and I prefer it that way, friends want you to hang out with them and spend time talking or being around them and that's not my thing. I do like Terry to be in my presents, he's not like most guys. Terry stands up for others when he can, I admire that. Speaking of guys I admire. I do like a boy named Willie, he's different from most guys too. He's smart and he's not afraid to show it, but he likes another girl. Though I don't show it I'm a very happy girl, I think it's Terry who keeps me happy. Whenever I'm not in the best of moods I always run into Terry who says something nice and I like that. I wouldn't exist if it wasn't for Terry...even a teacher looked over me. Terry had to say something for the teacher to turn and realize I was there that day. I think I would go insane if Terry never stepped in. I guess I do need a friend, but how do I make one? There's not a manual on it plus I can't just go up to him and ask him, right...? I'll just do what I normally do and won't care, as usual. One day I will be ready for a friend and I will make him my first friend but not today or tomorrow but someday. When that day comes I will make Willie my boyfriend, or at least not be afraid to try.