Before I forget to mention this KarKart will also be an important figure in this story (I would've put that in the discribtion but ran out of room) I Hope you all enjoy ^^
Fall: part one. Descend.
Leaning your head back against the cool brick wall and sigh, a lazy grin spreading across your face.
FuUuUuCcK...Man you had no idea what the hell you just took was but damn you were so motherfucking high. You were kinda worried when you found out you had lost your real meds after a long night with your friends and after everything that happen recently, with you losing your shit and stuff, your really didn't want to risk going without anything again. Good thing you had friends who'd help a brother out, you really owe Sol one. You grin even wider at that thought before a small foot connected with your side.
"What the hell are you doing fuckass. Get of your half baked clown ass outside before I drag you out by your piercings and throw you out in front of a car!"A voice growled. Pushing your matted raven hair out of your face and fixed you glassy violet eyes on your ashen skinned friend. You guess he was or somethin' with pale gray skin and blood red eyes and all but, it's not like he'd tell you, Karkat could be really sensitive about shit like that.
"Gamzee...Gamzee. GAMZEE MAKARA!" shouted snapping you out of you thoughts.
"Oh...What? I'm sorry bro. I was all spaced out 'n shit" You laugh and pull out a can of Faygo from your hoodie pocket and slam the whole whole thing, the red syrupy liquid dribbling down your chin making your makeup run a bit.
"Come on get your lazy ass up. Nepeta just got out of the hospital and has been dying to see you. Not to mention you been avoiding everyone since last Saturday. You got us all really worried." Karkat half bossed half whispered, you didn't doubt it. You had flip your shit and could've killed three of your close friends and even if they forgave you that didn't mean everything was cool now. You couldn't risk hurting them again.
Karkat sighed already frustrated with you and tried to pull you to your feet, the sudden movement makes you stumbled and after a failed attempt to catch yourself you end up back on the lobby floor only with Karkat underneath you this time.
"Man, Karkat your chest is so motherfuckin' soft." You mummer rest your head on the smaller teen's chest and laughing at the flustered look on his face. Karkat may not be the most innocent of guys but he was shy as hell and it always brought a smile to your face.
"Dammit Gamzee! Get the fuck off! What if Terezi comes looking for us?" Karkat growled and tried to crawl out from under you, causing the front of his pants to brush up against your face in the process. You grin widely at the movement while your friend only gave you a slightly mortified look before quickly scrambling away, face red and tugging down his shirt. You shrug and ran your fingers through your hair. Your were more than happy that your best buddy had a real relationship with someone but, it still hurt your feels when he acted like everything that happened between the two of you was the worst thing ever.
"Look bro, ain't nothing to be asham-"
"Just shut up and head outside!" Karkat snapped. You frowned a bit and look down at your left hand. Right where your thumb and finger met you had the symbol for cancer tattooed along with 4/15 on of the more happier days of your friendship, even if Karkat would never admit it even to himself. The two of you headed out to the courtyard. Most of the seniors would head home instead of hanging around school at the end of the day but, this free period was the only time you ever saw everyone so you all agreed to meet there everyday you could.
"GAMZEEEeeeeee!" Was the only warning you received before being struck by a flying blur of blue and green, knocking you to the ground. You give a toothy grin at Nepeta dressed in the usual blue kitty-cat hat and green hoodie three times her size.
"The mighty huntress says upon pouncing her best furrend." She smiled down at your white and pale purple face.
"HeEy my wicked sista' hows your head and all?" You ask as Karkat took his place next to Terezi a little ways away. Nepeta tilted her head and pouted a bit.
"'It's all good' Ac says confused." You smile and pull her into a hug, your were really scared that you may have done something irreversible after you through her so hard.
"Oh! Befur you ask Equius is fine too. He's just using this as an excuse to get out of school for a bit. They let him out 'bout two days after the whole thing. The meany! Making all of us worry!" You smile and push her off you gently. She smiled and caught you staring over at Karkat and his girl and nodded knowingly.
"That's a motherfuckin' miracle." You said halfheartedly wishing it was you making Karkat act all flustered and shy the way Terezi was. The smaller teen was freaking out over having his faced licked, much to everyone's amusement.
"Gamzee..You miss Karkitty don't you?" Nep asked. You gave her a small smile and patted her head.
"Hell" You started chewing a few more pills. "I miss alla 'em. I know they all up and forgave me and shit but... Can't help but feel everyone up and got their scared on 'cause'a me." You said sadly but smiled. No matter how much it hurt you couldn't find it in you to blame them. Hell, even you were scared of you too.
"They're just not sure what to say." She said dropping the role-play and silly talk for a moment. "I'm sure they all still love you. We're just really confused about what happened, especially since Karkitty won't talk about it..." You shrug and continued looking over at your friends, as much as you hated keeping secrets you really didn't want everyone knowing you suffered from schizophrenia. You saw that both Karkat and Sollux were both wailing on Eridan and Feferi seemed to have walked off with Terezi in a huff, leaving Tavros alone while Kanaya tried her best to control the situation. A huge wave of guilt hit you as you watched your shy friend stare at the ground and pretend not to bothered by the fact the group had seemed to have forgotton him again. Next to Karkat, Tavros was probably one of your closest friends and you had really terrified him.
DaMmIt! You thought shoving more pills in your mouth. You had grown really attached to Tav and now you probably screwed everything up! You closed your eyes and hoped the pills worked fast. The anti-depressants Sol gave you really help keep your mood swings in check but, they weren't as effective as your usual meds (or weed for that matter) and they didn't keep the voices or the violent images that assaulted your mind at bay. You really needed to calm your ass down and just go with the flow. Everything would work out just fine, as long as you had faith in your miracle and just went with it.