~Sorry for any misspelled stuff! I'm awful woth righting shit. This should he like 3 or 4 chapters not much but oh well whatever. HOPE YOU ENJOY :3 ~

Uryuu Ishida, 16 year old boy who lives in Kurakara town. Just like any other day he was getting ready for school. Instead of wearing the exact school uniform he wore grey skinny jeans and vans which still qualified to wear. It was raining and he usually had to walk but because of the weather his father had to drive him. He was furious he had to do so. Uryuu just stared at the floor silently as his father spat out his complaints. They got in the car. "Why the hell do you wear pants like that?! Fag!" Uryuu was used to things like that being said to him. "Cuz I want to, got a problem?" Ryuken took no time to waist and reached across the car and smacked the back of Uryuu's head causing it to hit the window. "Dont back talk me smart ass!" Uryuu ignored the sting on his head and looked out the wind. Another shitty day as usual. He went to his locker hoping he wouldnt get into any unwanted confrontations. Luckily he didnt. He went to boring class and at lunch sat alone as always. He normally sat outside or he would escape to the roof. That was his favorite spot. Due to rain he sat inside though. The weather was mucky after school but he was able to walk home. He listened to music on his walk home. Green day and Peirce the veil. He liked heavy metal punk and classical. He loved to melt in his music. It was his only escape from cruel reality. Thats why... He got the shit beat out of him today. He was too focused on his music he didnt see his school enemies approaching and was ambushed. He put up a fair fight but 4 against one was too much. He pulled out his house key sighing. This was a normal day for him. He went to the bathroom to wash the blood off his face. He looked in the mirror. "shit..." he muttered. His eye was starting to swell and turn purple. "Dads gonna be pissed if he finds out again." He thought. Ryuken owned a hospital so he was gone 80% of the time thankfully. Uryuu normally only saw him in the morning before school. Sometimes if he avoided his father he wouldnt see him for days. He went on a lot of business trips too so it was almost like Uryuu lived alone. He walked into his room. The walls covered in band posters and anime posters. He had a few quotes and poems on the walls too. He took his jacket off and lied down on his bed. He put his head phones on and sighed. Uryuu accidentally fell asleep listening to Bullet for my valentine. Waking to his alarm the next morning he went to the bathroom to see if his eye was worse. It was. He covered it with base makeup the best he could and put his glasses on. He rushed to get ready and leave for school so he could avoid his father at all costs. He managed to escape without Ryuken seeing him. He had about an hour before school so he got coffee and sat at a park bench to observe the morning. He saw Ichigo Kurosaki and his friend Mizuiro Kojima walking by. They always went to school together. Ichigo was somewhat Uryuu's rival so to speak. He secretly deep down had a slight liking in him. He seemed like the only one not to judge him. He seemed to be himself and always spoke his mind. Uryuu liked that about him. Later that day after gym a group of bullies approached him again. Grimmjow the leader as always, cornered him after everyone left the locker rooms. Stark, a 19 year old who was in his last year of high school. He was always too lazy to get physical but he was extremely cruel with words though. The other two were stupid lackeys of Grimmjow's to whom Uryuu didnt know their names nor cared to. "The fuck do you want?" Uryuu spat angrily. "You remember what you did to me Uryuu. Two weeks ago you gave me this and beat down some of my pals." Grimmjow pointed to some left over bruises on his face and smiled when he replied. "You started it dumb ass!" Uryuu was very annoyed. "And I'll start it again!" Grimmjow grabbed Uryuu's arms and slammed him against the lockers. Uryuu glared at him. He knew he wasnt getting out of this one. Grimmjow liked fighting especially if it was challenging. "Hang on." Grimmjow and his comrades looked confused. Uryuu took his glasses off and put them in his bag then stood in a fighting position. He got into fights a lot so his glasses getting broken was often. His father gets furious and in return hits and screams at Uryuu so he tried to avoid breaking them as much as possible. Grimmjow laughed then twisted a big smile on his face when he saw Uryuu was ready to fight. "Alright Im gonna kick your ass nerd!" He threw a strong punch at Uryuu who was able to dodge. Uryuu swung and grazed his enemies shoulder. Before he could defend himself, Uryuu was slammed against the lockers and was being beaten down. All he could think or feel was rage and frustration. It stung. It really stung. He was able to pull himself together a little bit in between Grimmjow's punches and kicked his legs, causing Grimmjow to lose balance. Uryuu took his chance while Grimmjow was stunned. Uryuu hit him in the chest knocking Grimmjow back a bit. He went for the blue haired boys face. He punched him. He didnt stop. He kept going repaying the favor from what Grimmjow did moments before. One of Grimmjow's lackeys stepped in and kicked Uryuu off of him. It knocked the breath out of him and he felt a sharp pain strike through his body originating from his ribs."Dont fucking interfere!" Grimmjow roared at his comrade, who looked confused and a bit hurt. Grimmjow stood up rubbing the blood from his lip onto his sleeve. He waited for Uryuu to stand before he continued to attack. This time he mercilessly knocked Uryuu to the ground. He smashed the raven haired boys face. Over and over. Uryuu was only able to lay there. Pain flooding his body. Grimmjow sit over Uryuu laughing madly as he pounded Uryuu's face in. His laughing angered Uryuu so much. He couldnt really even see anymore from the pain and sudden brutal attack. "Grimmjow. Stop. Do you want your ass in detention for the next month?" Stark's voice called out. Grimmjow stopped his brutal attack on Uryuu, who still just lied there. "Fuck off Stark! I dont care this is too fun!"

"Until you injure him so bad you get sued or maybe even kill him. Look at him!" He pointed at Uryuu laying weakly under Grimmjow. He looked down at his opponent considering Stark's words. " Fine! Your lucky this time fag!" Grimmjow said with a scoff, getting up. They made their leave without even looking back at him. Uryuu lay on the floor pain filling his whole body. "Why? Why the fuck does this happen to me?!" He thought while he finely collected his nerves enough to raise up. He pulled his glasses out of his bag and walked to the bathroom. His face was covered in blood and obvious bruises and swelling starting to show. He washed his face off the best he could and grabbed his books for his next class in a hurry. Luckily his next class was . She never really questioned him or said anything about stuff like that, she always just let that stuff be. It was also the class he shared with Ichigo... damn. He walked in the class and all eyes turned on him when they noticed his condition. "Ishida... what happened to you?!" his teacher asked. Uryuu wasnt a good lyre. "I... I fell down some stairs." The room broke out with whispers and sniggers when he said this. "Well... ok then, go take your seat please." Uryuu nodded at his teacher and did so. He appreciated his teacher letting him slide all the time. "Stairs?" "He got his ass kicked and now hes too pathetic to admit it." "Stupid freak! hes so worthless and weird" He heard the whispered insults fill the classroom. He was used to it though but it still hurt. "Alright class! settle down so we can start!"

He was about to leave the school building that afternoon when someone called out his name. He turned around to see Ichigo of all people rushing after him. "Hay!" Uryuu looked at him curious and slightly confused. "Yes?" Ichigo looked at him a moment. "What happened to you?"
"Nothing Im fine." He replied. He turned on his heal and started walking so fast it was more like a jog or small run. "Hay wait! Uryuu!" Uryuu ignored the other and kept walking. Ichigo ran after him. "Hay! Who did you get in a fight with? You got your ass kicked." Uryuu wasnt having the best day and just wanted ti get away from everyone and everything. "Yeah thanks for pointing out the obvious." Uryuu retorted back. "Hay dont be like that man. Are you losing your touch in fighting Uryuu?" He said with a smirk. "Look fuck off! Im not in the mood!" With that said he started walking away again, in which Ichigo went after him again. "I was only messing with ya man, chill." He ignored Ichigo. After Ichigo didnt stop fallowing him he said;"Why are still fallowing me?! Its not like you care! No one ever does!" Ichigo paused and looked at him for a moment. "Dude whats your problem?! Your so emotional and over dramatic!"
"Look just go away! Dont pretend you care! You just wanna hang around so you can bully me and make me feel bad!" Ichigo got frustrated with the beat up person in front of him. "You know what?! fine! I was just trying to be friendly for once but you dont want me to! I dont care!" Ichigo turned around and marched off. Uryuu put his head phones on and started to pace home. His phone alarmed him that he got a msg. Who would txt me? I dont know anyone. Uryuu thought. he pulled his phone out to see an unknown number. The msg read ;"hay fag, it was pretty funny watching you get your ass kicked why are you still around? your useless no one cares about you or wants you around. i bet your a big disappointment to your family i bet they would agree with me. do everyone a favor and go die in a hole you pathetic fag! ~Stark; Uryuu stared blankly at his phone. The pain of Stark's words starting to take affect. How did he get my number? How? Why? Uryuu thought. He agreed with Stark he felt that he was useless and he knew that if he died no one would care or notice, in fact his father would probably be relieved. He put his phone back in his pocket and started running home. He felt the lump in his throat telling him that he was about to cry. He hated crying. He just wanted to be alone in his room with his music. When Uryuu made it home he didnt care if his father was home or not. He rushed through the door. His father was sitting at the table, looking from his paper work at Uryuu when he came through the door. Uryuu turned his head in an attempt to hide his bruised face. He didnt really care, he was too upset to care and he just hurriedly went to his room. "Uryuu!" His father called out to him. Uryuu stopped in front of the his door. "What happened?" Uryuu heard the anger in his voice. Uryuu didnt answer. "Answer me Uryuu!"
"... Nothing! Its not like you care anyway." Ryuken was annoyed with that answer. "Look at me Uryuu." He didnt fallow his father's command and stood there holding the door handle. Ryuken stood up and walked to Uryuu. "Uryuu look at me!" He said, obviously angry. Uryuu still just looked at the floor, gripping the door handle tighter as he thought Why cant he leave me alone?! I just wanna be alone dammit! Stupid bastard! Ryuken reached out and yanked Uryuu's face up so he was looking at him. Uryuu winced from the sting of his fathers grip on his wounded face. Ryuken stared at him with his cold eyes. "How pathetic I raised you better. Your so weak, no wonder you look like this!" He said with a scoff and releasing Uryuu. His anger swelled as his father walked away. He gripped the door handle so hard his knuckles were white. He slammed his door shut, walking to his bed and putting his music on and listening to his headphones. He reached into a drawer in his nightstand. He pulled out a razor. He pulled back his sleeve looking at his his arm, seeing a mixture of old scars he had inflicted himself and some from others. Tears started to swell in his eyes. He put the cold blade to his arm, slowly penetrating the skin. Deeper. The blade slowly went deeper leaving a clean cut on his arm. The blood started to arise and make crimson beads along the line he left. Uryuu held the tears back as best he could but they escaped his eyes. They slid down his cheeks leaving wet trails down his face. He put the blade to his arm again, thinking about the words his father said. He pushed the sharp steel down into his flesh. He did it again. Again. Again. Again. Again. He layed on his side crying. He didnt care if blood got on his bed sheets, they were black so you couldn't see the stain. His sleeve though, was stained. The red blood seeping into the fabric. He gripped the bracelet his grandfather gave him. He cried more when he remembered his grandfathers smiling face. What would he think of me right now? He thought. He sobbed into the covers of his bed.

Uryuu didnt go to school the next day. Ichigo was sitting in class, his chin resting in his hand. How come Uryuu didnt come to class today? Is he ok? Ichigo thought. He had the raven haired four eyes on his mind all day. He couldnt stop worrying. He started to feel deep guilt for the day before. He decided to go check on him after school. Ichigo rang the door bell. No one answered. He rang it a few times and started knocking. Uryuu did not want to answer it, he had just been laying around all day and wanted to be alone. The person kept on. Damn they're persistent! He thought. He finely gave in and threw on a button up shirt over his T. and walked to the door and when he answered it to his utmost surprise it was Ichigo Kurosaki. Ichigo looked at the boy in front of him. He truly looked miserable. He had dark circles under his eyes, bruises covered his body, he was in baggy pj pants, a plain T with a big long sleeve button up shirt over top and his hair was a bit disheveled. "W-what are you doing here?!" Before Ichigo could answer, Uryuu asked another surprised and confused question. "Wait, how the hell do you know where I live?" Ichigo scratched his head "Well I knew you lived somewhere on this street but wasnt sure where. So I asked our class mate Orehime. It took me about 3 houses before I knocked on the right door." Uryuu looked at him. "You could have just looked for the name Ishida." Ichigo's face lit up and he looked away embarrassed. Why didnt he think of that? "Why are you here?" Ichigo's face became a bit serious. "I was worried about you. What happened yesterday and then you didnt come to school so I got worried. Im sorry for what I said yesterday." Uryuu looked a little bit surprised. Ichigo hated admitting defeat so apologizing wasnt something he normally did. "umm its ok dont worry about it." They stood in awkward silence for a moment. "So are you alright? Why didnt you come to school?" "Im fine. I skipped school 'cause I wasnt feeling well." Ichigo looked at him for a moment "Are you sure man? No offense but you look pretty beat up." Uryuu chuckled "Yeah I feel like shit. I will live though." Ichigo looked a bit worried. "Is it all right if I hang out for a minute?" Uryuu thought about it. Ryuken shouldnt be home for another 3 hours at least so it should be fine. "Sure" he mumbled as he walked in. Ichigo went inside observing his knew surroundings. They sat down at the kitchen table. "So are you an only child?" Ichigo asked. "Yeah. What made you ask?"
"Well your place just seems kinda small and lonely. No offense! He added quickly. Uryuu chuckled again. "Yeah its only me and my father who live here. He owns a hospital so hes gone most of the time."
"Oh well my family has a little medical center. I live like right above it."
"Yeah I knew there was a Kurosaki health clinic. You have siblings right?"
"Yeah I have twin sisters. They're younger then me. We live with my dad at the clinic."
"I always wondered what it was like to have a sister or brother." Ichigo chuckled at the raven haired boy. "Well it can be amusing." He said with a smile. Uryuu smiled in return. "Would you like some coffee? I can make some."
"Sure that sounds good." Uryuu got up and started to make the coffee. On his way back to the table Ichigo looked at him worried. "What happened Uryuu? You can tell me." Uryuu sighed and sat down. "I dont want to."
"Why are you so stubborn?"
"Your more stubborn then me!"
"Uryuu just tell me..."
"No my life sucks enough as it is. I dont want you to pity me."
"Uryuu I dont pity you! I care about you." Uryuu looked surprised. Ichigo grabbed his wrist and Uryuu winced. Ichigo noticed and let off and was more gentle. He wondered if it was from when he got into a fight. "Uryuu Im worried about you. Why cant you just spill it?!" Uryuu tried to pull away but Ichigo didnt let go. "I dont want to! Let go."
"No. Not until you tell me what happened." By this time they were standing up. "No just let me go!" Uryuu was getting really annoyed and frustrated with his orange haired friend. He tried to pull away but Ichigo got more forceful causing Uryuu pain in his arm. They struggled for a moment and Uryuu's sleeve pulled back. Ichigo saw a glimpse of his arm and released him. Uryuu pulled his arm back and stared at Ichigo. Ichigo looked at him and then suddenly grabbed his arm and yanked his sleeve back. Uryuu didnt have time to react. He yanked his arm away. "Uryuu..."
"Yeah Im a freak just leave I dont wanna hear your insults." Ichigo looked at him seriously. "I would never... Uryuu why?" Uryuu looked away staring at the floor. "Let me see." Ichigo commanded. "No!"
"Let me see or I will use force." He said in a low voice. Uryuu blushed a little bit and didnt know why. "But..." They looked at each other for a moment. Uryuu looked away and held his hand out. Ichigo took his hand and pulled the sleeve back. There were deep cuts and many old scars placed about his arm. Ichigo felt so saddened and almost guilty. He looked at them and started to count. There were 12. "The other arm?
"There isnt any on the other one." Ichigo caressed his arm gently and kissed the scars on his wrist and forearm. Uryuu went wide eyed and blushed. He was shocked. He leaned up and pulled Uryuu into a tight hug. "Im sorry Uryuu. I dont know what your going through but please dont do that. I dont wanna live without you, your my friend." Uryuu was shocked. He didnt know if he should hug back or what? Friend? am I really his friend? He thinks of me as a friend? He felt happy to be called a friend. He never had friends. He slowly brought his hands up and hugged him back. Ichigo held on tighter.

Ichigo bid his farewell and made his leave not long after. Uryuu shut the door and turned to the kitchen. The events of the evening swimming through his head. He was so shocked by Ichigo. When did Ichigo get so caring? Where was his normal provoking self? He just showed a side to Uryuu he had no idea he had. Maybe Uryuu didnt know him well at all. He only knew him for about 2 years but even then it was only because they were classmates and then became rivals.
He went to school the next day hoping he wouldnt get pulled into a fight. He was so tired of it that he would just stand there most of the time. It wasnt worth fighting back. There was nothing to fight for. He didnt care much about his pride anymore. It was easier and less troublesome if he let them do it. Maybe he was a cowered. Maybe he was stupid. Maybe he was was strong enough to take it. maybe he was pathetic. It didnt really matter. He learned to just go through with his stupid life. A few times he attempted suicide. Twice he had to go to his fathers hospital. Ryuken was infuriated both times of course. His Grandfather died when he was 10, ever since his life spiraled into hell. He died right in front of him... no kid should have to go through that. He spent most of his time with his grandfather. He loved him more then the world. In Uryuu's eyes he was the only family he had. His father was always working so he had no time to pay attention to him and his mother left when he was small he only has 1 memory of her. He still doesnt know why she left. Most likely because of his father but it still hurt all the same. He never really knew what it was like to have a mom. His grandfather was more like his father more then anything. He taut Uryuu just about everything he knew. The pain of his grandfather's death drove hm into despair he was never able to get out of. Uryuu sat through class halfheartedly listening to the teacher lecturing.

He went out for lunch it was a nice day. the sun was shining but it wasnt too hot and thats why most of the students sat outside for lunch. He was just about to escape to his lonely peaceful rooftop when Ichigo called after him. "Hay Uryuu, come eat lunch with us!" he pointed behind him with his thumb at a group of his friends. He somewhat already knew Chad personally. He was in the same class and after school club with Orehime Inoue so he knew her well enough. He recognized the short girl with black hair. she was always hanging around Ichigo. Her name was Rukia Kuchiki. He was classmates with her but didnt know her otherwise. There was Ichigo's friend Mizuiro and some other guy he didnt know. "Ah well thanks but no thanks."
Oh c'mon! It will be fun. you already know Chad and Orehime right? I can introduce you to my other friends."
"No thanks Ichigo."
Ichigo gave him a frustrated look. "Im trying to be nice! Stop being so stubborn."
"Well I dont really think I wanna be hanging around a bunch of fools like you." He said coldly with a smirk. "Oh Im a fool huh? Fine by me! Just come have lunch with us." He said back with a smirk.
Somehow he was talked into it. To his surprise they also had their own spot on the roof. the school had so many buildings and was so big he had no idea. The girls left to have lunch by themselves saying something about the guys being annoying, which he understood perfectly Ichigo's other friend Keigo was quite an obnoxious person. He just tagged along quietly while they all conversed and laughed. They sat down on the roof in a spread out circle to eat lunch. Ichigo and Uryuu seemed to be the only ones not wrapped up in Keigo's story so Uryuu decided to ask Ichigo a question he wanted to know the answer to. "So why'd you ask me to have lunch with you? Is it 'cause you pity me? If thats the case, dont! I told you I dont wanna be pitied by anyone!" Ichigo looked annoyed. "Of course I dont! It was your stupid ass who got beat up in the first place.''
"Well then why'd you invite me?"
"' 'cause I just felt like it! Now just shut up and eat your food!"
"Hmpf! I prefer to eat alone anyway!"
"Yeah so do I so just look the other way!" Uryuu scoffed and they both turned their stubborn heads away from each other at the same time. Uryuu couldnt help but think it was a little bit funny. They had fun Uryuu just watched the friends goof off but he still secretly enjoyed watching. He wondered what it was like to be able to just have fun with people you call 'friends'. They went back to class together and after school Uryuu stopped by the store to get some supplies for his club meeting the next day, he was running low on supplies. He got home and walked in. His father was unexpectedly home already. He took his things to his room and went back to his father while he sat in a reclined chair reading a book. He rarely got to do this since he was so busy. "I have an after school club meeting tomorrow so i wont be home till late." He informed his father. he simply grunted in response and went to his room and got ready for a shower. He climbed into the steamy shower and stepped under the hot spray letting the water run over his head. the water hit the deep cuts on his arm and he hissed in pain. He stood there for a while thinking. He finished with his bathing and stepped out of the shower and wiped the fog off of the mirror so he could see his reflection. There were bruises all over his arms and sides his face had a few healing bruises. There were scares on his legs and arms. Most noticeable were the few scars on both of his wrists from when he tried to commit suicide. He let out a sigh when those memories came to him. The beginning was a blur. The first time he was 14 and slit his wrists in the shower. His father found him and called the ambulance. If his father hadnt been a doctor and known what to do he wouldnt be here. The second was about 9 months ago. He did the same thing but also over dosed on sleeping meds. He was able to get them from his fathers hospital using his fathers name. His father was absolutely furious of course. He has had a cutting problem since the first time he attempted suicide. Sometimes he would cut so much he would bruise. It was so often that he wouldn't have room on his arms or thighs so he would just cut over the ones that hadn't healed yet. His father would check his arms after his suicide episode to make sure he wasn't trying it again. He . got beat for cutting but he did it anyway. He had to go to therapy for 3 months. He hated it so he faked being cheery and happy when he want to see his psychiatrist. They finely said he was acting better and let him go. Of course he was still depressed he was ever since his grandfather died. Nothing good happened in his life after that. He suddenly thought of Ichigo. Why? He remembered when he tenderly kissed his arm. Was he gay? Uryuu finely admitted to himself that he was bi a while back but would never admit it so he's still deep in the closet.

He went to school the next morning as he normally did. But Grimmjow and Stark blocked his way just outside school. "Great" he thought. "So Uryuu, we don't want any trouble today. We just need to tell ya something." Grimmjow said with a smile when he saw Uryuu start to stand in a defensive position. He looked at the blue haired boy in curiosity. "Yeah? Well what is it? I would like to get to class if you don't mind." Stark just simply stood there with a lazy expression with his hands in his pockets. "Well we actually came to warn you that were gonna do something to ruin what pathetic excuse of a life you have." Uryuu looked at him with a calm expression and waited for then to continue. "So that means we won't need to he kicking your ass for a while. So there's no reason to worry about that. Just look forward to a life of hell." Grimmjow smirked showing his surprisingly sharp teeth. "Well. Thanks for letting me know, awful kind of you." With that said he pushed last them aggressively and annoyed. He went to his locker and got his things and made hos way to class. Later that day he couldn't help but notice ichigo stealing glances at him. He snuck away to the roof top at lunch and sat in peace. After school he went to hos club meeting and after he walked with Orihime to the store. He enjoyed talking with her. She was friendly and got along with everyone so it wasn't surprising that she spent time with him, so Uryuu thought anyway. She insisted that he come eat supper at her place since it wasn't too late. "But why would up I go out of your way to hang out with me?" "Because your my friend ~!" Uryuu looked at her almost dazed. "Friend? She says I'm her friend? " Uryuu felt extremely happy that she would say that. They went to her house and she made the weirdest food he had ever seen. He was almost scared to eat it. It tasted... well unique. That's the best way he could put it. He went home after a nice chat and a weird meal. He thanked her more then necessary. By the time he got home it was 9 o'clock his father wasn't home so he had the lonely house to things had been making him feel happy. It was weird he didn't know how to deal with it. He didn't let it get to him too much just because 2 people had barely showed interest in him didn't mean they would stay or mean it.

~So here's first chapter thanks for reading :) let me knowWhat you think. Pretty much my first fanfic so tell me how it was. Reviews are most welcome. I don't mind negative reviews either :D thanks bye!~