I do not own any of the South of Nowhere characters nor do I own the words written in bold as they are lyrics from the song snuff by Slipknot

Love is separate... what is done out of love could not have been not done. Love pushes... and pulls... tears... and destroys. Without love we'd be nothing.

Ashley's POV

Flashback

We started the night as good friends, I'd invited you around for a sleepover at my house because my parents were away and I'd already had a party. I decided we'd have a film night with popcorn, sweets and a take-away. We share my sofa as it's the closest to the TV and we begin to watch the films I'd set out for us to watch. I already knew that I had feelings for you but because I never thought that you would ever want me I decided to be the greatest friend I could be and it works for me because at least you're still in my life.

As it gets late we both start to get tired and you rest your head on my stomach I can't help but smile to myself because in my eyes you look so damn hot in your low cut pyjama top and your skimpy little pyjama shorts. You slowly move your hand to my thigh and start to run your fingers up and down and up and down ever so gently, you look into my eyes and smile which was all I needed to know that you cared. I start to run my fingers down your cheeks and you stop. I think to myself have I pushed you too far? Did I read the signs wrong?

You sit up and stare at me with your bright blue eyes and all I can do is blush. You turn and switch off the TV and you plug in an I-pod and start to play the song Flames by Vast. You sit back next to me and you put your hand on my thigh again. I take it off and lift up your face with the tips of my fingers. I couldn't control myself anymore I'd held my feelings in for too long, my body starts to shake as it involuntarily draws in closer to you. Our lips touch for the first time and I close my eyes, this wasn't one of those lust kisses this was a gentle one with slightly parted lips. You bring your hand up to my face encouraging me to deepen the kiss; you open your mouth a little wider so my tongue could explore the regions of your mouth. You tasted so good. You then put one hand up the back of my t-shirt making sure that the other was still caressing my face. Your touch on my bare skin sent electric waves all around my body a bit like that warm feeling you get when the water in your shower is at the right temperature and its trickling on your skin.

You break the lip movement to catch your breath back, I'd only just realised how hard it was getting to breathe. You then lean in again but this time you go past the mouth and brush your lips over my ear and whisper "Bury all your secrets in my skin, come away with innocence and leave me with my sins". Your mouth then travels to my neck and you start to nibble, suck and bite like you were claiming your territory. I was so turned on at this moment nothing else mattered, not the thoughts that told me I was going to hurt you, not the thoughts telling me I didn't deserve you, I just knew that you were all that mattered to me and that tonight I was going to make you feel like you'd never felt before. Your lips return to mine and our kisses are more violent like we would never get this chance again, I wanted to feel you, I wanted to taste you, I never wanted to let you go.

Your hand returns to my back but instead of just running your fingers down my back you head straight for the bra. You unclasp it with only one hand and then slowly pull my top over my head so the bra would just fall off exposing my breasts. You start to lightly suck on my now hard nipple and I let out a little moan which makes you laugh, you now bite and suck whilst one of your hands is on my other breast squeezing and making circles, my breathing was getting even heavier from the amount of pleasure you were inflicting on me. I lift you back to my lips and you give a moan as if to say I was enjoying that, I then lift your top off and you with haste take off your bra exposing your rounded, suckable, perfect breasts. I push you down and push my thigh into your folds and you let out a moan, I start to kiss my way up to your breasts and start by licking followed by some nibbling and you start to laugh as you put your hand on my head pressing it down so I could put more of your nipple into my mouth .This is what I've been waiting for, for ages now and I'm glad I waited because I know that I love you even if you may not love me I want to feel you all over and inside of me.

I decide it's now time to stop teasing your nipples as you were already wet against my thigh and I use my tongue to swiftly circle my way down to your waist, as I reach there you start to arch your back making your legs spread wider giving me permission to be inside of you. I slowly lick the very top of your thigh and you tell me to stop teasing and to get inside of you already, that was all I needed to hastily brush my tongue into your folds and I feel a rush of wetness come from you as I hear you call out "that's it baby, now make me cum for you". That was all the instruction I needed and I started to nibble on your pulsating clit and then I slowly slide two fingers into you. I loved the fact that I knew how to touch you, I knew you would cum for me tonight whether it was only the once that was debatable but I knew I would make you cum for me so hard that you'd be pleading and begging for more.

My fingers now have a steady strong rhythm as I thrust them into you more violently as my fingers never come all the way out at any point because you were mine and you would cum for me when I wanted you to and I wasn't nearly finished with you yet as I now resort to now licking and sucking on your clit. I now slide in an extra finger and you arch your back even further, you're now panting really heavily and I knew I had to be careful as you were already so close to cumming all over my hand. My hand now vigorously starts to twist and turn as you call out Ash... Ash... Ash... I'm gonna...I'm gonna... Fuck! I could now feel you erupt from inside and I replaced my fingers with my tongue as I cleaned you from the inside out.

I slowly return to your lips and give you an innocent peck on the lips. Your eyes suddenly snapped open and you pushed me violently onto my back straddling to my waist and you tell me in your sexy husky voice "you ready?" You never gave me any chance to speak as you violently thrust your lips onto mine that told me you wanted me you wanted to be all over me...

End of flashback

Spencer's POV

We've been texting like mad for days now and I know that I'm in love with her, she makes my heart pulsate violently every time my phone rings and when I hear her husky voice down the phone she makes me melt in a way that nobody has ever done before. It was my turn to surprise her because my parents were out of town again and she'd been spoiling me rotten with all the meals out and all the gifts she'd paid for. I decide to make myself look very sexy for her, so I look into my wardrobe and pick out a lacy plush bra that makes my breasts stand out, a short white skirt that turns see through in the right light and my lowest cut vest top. I decided that I'd take her out for a candle light dinner and we'd go back to her house because my parents are back and we'd spend the night as we wished.

I'm nearly ready and I'm really nervous to see her because I'd never done this sort of thing before and I didn't know whether she'd like it. As I drive to your house only the living room light is on and I pull up in front of the drive way and come to knock on the front door, as I'm just about to knock it opens and I reel in horror as I see her half naked kissing another girl seeing her out of the door. I can't find the strength to move. How could she be doing this to me? I thought I actually meant something to her. How fucking stupid could I have been to actually think she loved me in the same way I loved her. I obviously wasn't good enough for her, I thoroughly believed that we had a connection, I had felt her inside me, I had tasted her wetness. All I could do was stare at what was happening in front of my face. She finally sees me and she can only manage one word "fuck". My eyes fill up and I just run back to my car, as I'm putting my seatbelt on she's there banging on my window telling me it's not what it looks like and that she loves me, I can't stand to hear another lie and I drive home to be alone.

I'm not home for long and she comes knocking at my door, I don't even want to look at her right now I'm that disgusted. I hear her calling my name telling me she loves me and that she won't be moving until she have a chance to explain. I open the door and she holds one of my hands and goes to stroke my face, I pull away and she starts to fill up with tears. She starts to explain that it was a moment of weakness and that it will never happen again because it meant nothing to her, she then held my face forcing me to look into her dark brown eyes telling me repeatedly "I love you; I can't imagine a day without you in it."

I'm silent and I can't do anything but imagine what she and that other girl were doing. She snaps me out of it and she asks me whether I can forgive her. I reply "So if you love me let me go and run away before I know. My heart is just too dark to care; I can't destroy what isn't there". She starts hysterically crying telling me that she won't leave, not until she's forgiven. I just say to her "deliver me into my fate, if I'm alone I cannot hate. I don't deserve to have you. Ooh, my smile was taken long ago; if I can change I hope I never know" and with that I force her out of my door, I lock it and just collapse crying and as I sit there I wonder if there will ever be a day when I get over her smile...when I let go of the hugs you gave me. A day when I forget the words you said to me...forget what you meant to me or forget how much I love you but no matter what you did to me or whatever happens to us...I know I could never get over, I know I've just lost the only person I'd ever loved in my life.