Character Info:

Natasza Anya March is the daughter of Dr Zosia March and well someone from Albie's Zosia isn't quite sure who the father is. Natasza is 14 nearly 15, She is 5'2 and is a small build, she had long dark brown hair that falls to her hips, She is an exact copy of Zosia in facial features.

Natasza is the polish way of spelling Natasha. Natasza goes to Holby City High and only has one friend Laura but Natasza makes out she has a few more friends than just Laura to Zosia, All is not as Zosia thinks it is.

Natasza's POV

I woke at 5 in the morning to hear my Mama calling me from downstairs, she must of had an early shift to be waking me at this time. Normally I would of been woken by Dom or Arthur crashing about in the bathroom, but since Mama had got her own house she woke me.

I sat myself up in bed and looked around the room, I looked at the floor to see my homework still scattered along in a line, Mama always makes me do my homework straight after school even if she is at work, she must have some sort of super power to know if I am doing my homework or not.

Anyway I got myself out of bed and walked over to my mirror, I starred at myself for ages "FAT" I screamed at the top of my lungs, I didn't care if Mama heard me she always told me I was not fat and I was just self conscious.

I went into the bathroom, something told me Mama had been in here before me, the smell of her perfume was really strong but it smelt wonderful. I had to do it, I felt so fat, then I did it, I made myself sick, the once Mama walked in on me being sick before and she sent me to Auntie Colette's (Well she isn't actually my auntie it's just a thing I've called her since I was a baby)

"Natasza, Come on I'm going t be late, you'll have to eat your toast in the car" Mama called up the stairs to me, I sighed to myself and wiped the sick off my chin before I went to go downstairs. I had done my hair up in a messy bun and I had made sure my skirt was long enough to Mama's standard... that wouldn't last very long as once I got out of the car and Mama had gone I would adjust my skirt to my standard.

"Morning Mama" I sang as I came down the stairs with my school bag in hand, "Natasza why have you got your lovely hair all tucked away, you know I love your hair" Mama fussed, apparently I looked like her according to Arthur and Dom. I rolled my eyes and brushed Mama's hand away, "it's my hair Mama" I snap as I pick up the toast that had been left on the kitchen counter for me.

I look around and notice Mama has left the room so I quickly give it to our Jack Russell 'Boots' she seemed to enjoy toast more than me, which I was actually quite happy about. Luckily Boots had finished the toast before Mama came back in the room "Wow, Natasza were you hungry?" Mama questioned, I have a brief nod and Mama believed me.

"Are you ready then?" Mama says as she makes her way to the front door, I nod and look down at my wrist which had my watch on, for once I was going to be early, I smiled and nodded, Mama took my hand and gave me a kiss on the cheek "I will do this now because you hate me doing it around all your school friends" Mama laughs, I always loved it when Mama laughed it made me feel safe and Happy.

I got into Mama's car and looked down at my phone '1 new message' I sighed to myself I knew it wasn't Laura because she never texted me in the morning as he Dad kept her phone in his room over night. Mama started to drive down the road trying to spark a conversation with me but I didn't reply I just sat and read the message 'Hello, Natasza can't wait for today I will be waiting 4 u at the school gates, your Mummy won't be there 4 u then' I didn't know what to do, I didn't want to tell Mama because she was stressed enough with work especially as Grandpa had given Mama and extra work load.

A tear slipped down my face I didn't realise until Mama asked if I was alright, I sniffled and wiped my tears away with my jumper sleeve (my school don't have blazers) "Yeah I will be fine Mama" I replied, she placed her free hand on my knee and quickly glanced over at me "If you ever need to tell me anything I am always here you do know that don't you Natasza? even if I look exhausted when I come home, I am your Mama and I am always happy to listen to my daughter" Mama says to me as she keeps her eyes on the road.

Once we pull up outside the school Mama looks at me and smiles "Have a wonderful day" she went to kiss me on the cheek but remembered I didn't like her kissing me in front of everyone especially Lauren and Georgia (The bullies) I get out the car but Mama calls me again "Oh Natasza, Colette is having you tonight as I am on lates until around 12 ish so I will hopefully pick you up then" I smiled at her and suit the car door. I made my way across the grass up to the school gates and quickly dashed past Lauren and Georgia who were watching me.

It made me physically sick them watching me so I made my way straight to the toilet and made myself sick again, I could hear a few girls outside the toilet locker talking, I tried to listen in but nothing.

As I made my way to physics I saw Georgia approach me, I tried to shrug her off but she pinned me up against the lockers, I bit my lip and tried not to cry I felt helpless and all I wanted now was for Mama to be there so I could hug her and feel calm again.

"Natasza I have heard you have grassed me up to Miss Costoya once again" Georgia said to me, I looked small compared to Georgia, well it could have something to do with me being 2 months premature as Mama was kicked in the stomach by a troubled patient which set her off into premature labour. "I-I d-didn't" I stuttered, I felt her kick me in the shins trying to make me answer her but I didn't.

She punched me once in the stomach to make me answer but I didn't, I could feel the anger rising inside of me, I needed to get away or I would end up in the heads office. It was too late she punched my once again and I lost my temper, I threw myself at her. I am small but feisty, Mama says that she doesn't know where I get my temper from but she said It was probably from my Father who ever he is.

We begin to rip into each other, I don't think I had ever been in a fight before. I had play fights with Fletch before when Mama did her rotation onto AAU also with Mary-Claire. Blood was growing on both of our hands and I knew one of us would end up dying.

Then a teachers voice came booming down the hall way, I smacked my head off the floor as she made me jump, then another teacher came running Mr Lloyd-Jones... FIT, I am sure Mama has a thing for him when he used to be my form tutor. Miss Costoya held me back and Mr Lloyd-Jones held Georgia back. "Miss McKinley's office Now!" Mr Lloyd-Jones shouted and Miss Costoya frog matched us both down to the heads office.

Later on both of our Mother's had been called in, Georgia's parent's got there first and had an interview, I was still sat waiting for Mama when Georgia and her parents came out and took her home, well... she must of been excluded for a week.

Then I saw Mama coming toward me, she was still in her Doctor's scrub and equipped with her stethoscope that had her name on it and Doctor's ID badge. I tried to hide my face from Mama I knew she would panic if she saw me with tissue up my nose stopped the horrific nose bleed, "Natasza what happened?" she questioned me, she must off seen the blood down my grey school jumper. I keep my back to her and hope she doesn't ask me anymore.

That was when the head teacher came out "Miss March I presume?" Miss McKinley questioned, "Dr March" she corrected her and she shuck her hand like a proper Doctor who had authority, I had to admit I love it when Mama corrects people on her title, one day I want to be a Doctor like Mama but not in general surgery I want to be like my Grandpa and do Neurosurgery. Mama says I can be anything if I put my mind to it.

Mama was shown into Miss McKinley's office and then I was told to join her, I stepped into the office and Mama turned to look at me " dziewczynka , co się stało (baby girl what happened)" She walked over to me and began to fuss again "Mama proszę" I decided to speak to her in polish because I didn't want the head to know what I was on about. Mama rolled her eyes and started to speak in English to me again.

Once Mama had been told what had happened and they had discussed what would happen next... well what happened next caused Mama to worry for me, I got kicked out of school for the rest of the week and well it was only Tuesday. "Natasza you need to tell me if there is anything up" Mama spoke to me as she dragged me out to the car "Where are you taking me?" I questioned Mama, "I have no time for stupid behaviour like this Natasza!" Mama shouted at me, I hated it when she shouted at me because It scared the life out of me and Dom the once when she screamed my name in the middle of the flat.

For the rest of the day I sat in the staff room board out of my mind, I had a few numbers of the people Mama was friends with so I went through my contacts lift, I was drying for a drink but Mama wouldn't let me out, so I looked: Dom? hmm maybe not as I saw him on his phone next to Mama, Jac? What the hell is she doing on here, Grandpa? I thought about it he was always happy to see me but no, Colette was next to Mama as well so no, only person left was Mary-Claire how I prayed she would answer my text and luckily she did and she brought me up a can of Fanta Orange and a packed of sun dried tomato's the only thing I eat.

Once Mary-Claire had left I decided I would finish my English assessment which took me a while but by the time I had finished it Grandpa had been summoned to give me a lecture on why I shouldn't be fighting with other students if I ever want to become a Neurosurgeon, But I knew why Mama summoned Grandpa every time it was because she never liked telling me off.

While I sat there and listened to Grandpa giving me a lecture, I looked at my phone which was light up, which meant I had a text message, I took a while to look at my screensaver a picture of me and Mama on the beach in Devon that was the happiest day of my life.

I quickly unlocked my phone and looked at the 5 unread messages from unknown numbers, 'Why are you even alive, go crawl into bed and die' and other one read 'Fat what is your purpose in life?" the next one was really racist toward my family so I deleted it, I didn't even finished reading it because it was on about how my family should of been wiped out like every other Jew, but we are not Jewish which made me laugh a little.

Later on Mama had finished early as all surgical procedures had been postponed and Sacha (the cute and cuddly giant) gave Mama the rest of the evening off. What Mama and everyone else in that hospital didn't know is what I was about to attempt soon. I knew Mama had a spare set of keys to the medical cabinet in Sacha's office for me luckily he wasn't in there at the time and I grabbed what looked like paracetamol, I shoved them in my bag and dropped Mama's keys back into her bag.

Once I got home, Mama had ordered Pizza for once, she never really liked giving me unhealthy food but I think this was an apology for earlier when she shouted at me. I had no idea how I was going to eat this without making myself sick, Mama didn't know anything of it, well of anything in fact.

I sat myself down next to Mama she hugged me really tight, she must of had a bad day to be hugging me like this, "I love you, you know?" Mama says to me and I don't reply I just carry on watching Miranda. She gathers I love her back and continues to eat her Pizza.

Soon after Miranda had finished Mama sent me to bed, but I put up a protest and said I wasn't going, She knew I was joking around with her like normal but I decided to go as I felt really sick. I made my way up stairs and before I could go to my bedroom I went to the bathroom to clean my teeth, But instead I had to make myself sick again. I tried to be sick as quiet as I could but have you ever tried to be sick really quietly?

I could hear Mama coming up the stairs with the dog, "Natasza are you alright?" she questioned as she knocked on the door, I decided to reply "Yeah I am fine" I lied, maybe Mama would believe me and go away, I stood myself up and just shouted through the door to Mama that I had accidently hit the back of my throat with the tooth brush, Mama believed me and walked off towards her bedroom I gathered. And left me to look at toughs tablets I had taken from the nurses cabinet, I glanced through all toughs hurtful text and wondered should I do it or not.

End of Natasza's POV

Please let me know what you think, this is my first Fanfiction that is set like this.

And I am worried its a little Over the top