Hey ! So it's the first time I published something here ! I used to write fics about Naruto when I was younger. Anyway, here it is. Not really funny i have to admit. It's from personnal experience and a song "Her last word" from Courtney Parker. Little warning, english is not my first language so if you see any mistakes, don't be shy and tell me ! Anyway, this story will be Jelsa, as well as Kristanna.
I do not belong Frozen, Rise of the guardian and all the characters from Disney, Pixar and Dreamworks that may appear on my story.
Hope you like it !
Arriving at home, Anna took off her shoes and ran in her sister's room. She was so excited to tell her day. She had to tell Elsa that Hans, the lovely, handsome, perfect Hans, had ask her to go to a date. She was in love with him since the first time her eyes spotted him. She was so lucky! But unfortunately, Elsa's room was empty. That was weird. Elsa was always in her room. Always. Maybe she wasn't home yet. No, her stuff was there, laying on her bed. Maybe she was in the garden, playing with the snow, after all it snowed all day and Elsa loved snow. No, she wasn't six anymore. Maybe she went off with some friends. No, she hadn't any friend. Then, Anna had an idea. She almost ran to the bathroom. She hesitated to open. The door was mostly closed. Elsa always locked the door. Anna just knocked. Waited a few seconds, before knocking again. Then, the door opened. After all, it wasn't locked! She entered the bathroom with a wild smile on her face. Then, she saw red and screamed. Elsa was there, in the bath, deep cuts on her wrists. The water she was in was turning red. Silenced tears rolling on her cheeks. It took a few seconds to Anna to start moving again. Without thinking, she grabbed two towels and pressed them on the cuts. She yelled at someone to get some help but no one was home. What was she supposed to do? Her breath was loud and fast. "Think Anna, think!" she told herself. She had to call for help but she couldn't leave her sister like that. She managed to get Elsa out of the bath, still pressing the towels against the cuts. She stabilized Elsa on the wall and grabbed her phone to call 911.
After the call, she tried to put some clothes on Elsa. Not easy task as Elsa's body was unconscious and heavy. Anna heard the help coming. When they knocked on the front door, she yelled at them to come in and to be faster as she saw Elsa's breathing starting to go away. Then, all she remembered was coming in the ambulance and its dance of lights, coming in the emergency and saw Elsa being send away from her. Later, her parents arrived. Anna was told to stay away. She stood here, in a white room, full of people, waiting to be healed. She wouldn't move until her parents came back. She couldn't think. It didn't make any sense. Yes, Elsa was alone but never complained of being lonely. She never said anything about... well about that. It wasn't like Anna and Elsa were close, but still. Why did Elsa do something like that? Why Elsa tried to… Anna couldn't even pronounce the act in thoughts.
Suddenly a nurse came to Anna, asking her to follow her. Anna did as she was told and followed the nurse in white corridors. It felled like they have walked for hours. Anna started thinking that they were completely lost when the nurse stopped in front of a door. The nurse knocked and without waiting for an answer, she went in. Anna followed and found her parents, sitting in front of a doctor. He looked exhausted and Anna wished he wasn't in charge of her sister because it seemed like he was about to fall asleep at any moment. She sat between her parents. She waited in an awkward silent. "Your sister is lucky to hate you" said the doctor, looking in Anna's eyes. She nodded. "Five minutes later and this discussion would have been quite different" She nodded again. What was that supposed to mean? "Is she fine?" asked her mother. Her eyes were drowned in tears. Anna wondered how she could see. "Yes. She's sleeping. Like I said, your daughter here did the perfect thing. You saved your sister's life, young lady." Was Anna supposed to feel proud of that? Why did she have to save her sister? Why? "Of course, we're keeping her. I cannot tell you 'til when. We must wait for her to wake up and arrange a meeting with a specialist." A specialist. Anna wanted to scream. It still didn't make any sense. She wanted answer but her throat seemed completely dry. The doctor talked to her parents but the sound of her thoughts covered it all.
Her mother stayed with Elsa at the hospital while her father drove back home. Neither of them spoke. Once at home, Anna's father went to the kitchen and Anna began to go in her room but her legs went in front of Elsa's room. She opened the door. The room was plunged in the dark. The air was cold. Elsa always loved the cold. "It doesn't bother me" she said when Anna complained. Anna took one step in. It didn't feel right. To Elsa, her room was like a sanctuary. Everything had a place. Her room was always clean, not like Anna's room. On Elsa's desk, there was books, opened and waiting to be read. The computer was on and there was a picture of Anna and Elsa when they were younger. On Elsa's bed, hundreds of pillows, or at least it seemed. Then Anna noticed something. In the middle of the bed. Anna looked with terror. It was a note, addressed to her and her parents. Anna took it, slowly, like it would disappear. She sat on the bed and sighed. What was she supposed to do? Open it? Obviously, Elsa wrote it to be read. Should she tell her father? The curiosity was too big to wait. She needed answer. She unfolded it with care. She recognized the incursive and beautiful writing of Elsa. She began to read.
"I'm sorry. This world is just not my place. I tried everything to fit in. I tried but I've come to realize I'm just a waste of place. The more I think about it and the less I see a reason to stay here. Everyone has their own fight but I'm not really a fighter. I give up. I'm a coward. But it's okay because now I'm somehow in peace with myself. If you look for someone to blame, then blame the world. For so long I controlled the pain inside me, but for some times I just can't handle it anymore. It began to overwhelming. I wish I was the perfect girl you wanted me to be but I'm just a mess. I wish I was the perfect sister you deserve, but I can't handle this role anymore. I tired of playing. A putting a mask on my face every single day. It feels like I drowned in my own tears and I can't. I just can't breathe anymore. Mom and dad, when you give birth to me I had the world in my feet and I should have taken it, instead of running away from it. I should have done better. Anna, you're my best friend and I let you down to many times. When I look in the mirror I don't recognize myself. I don't know who I am anymore and it feels like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders but I can't handle it anymore. It's just too much for me. I just can't. I'm sorry. Goodbye."
Anna's father let his tears be. His placed a hand on his mouth as he watched the note. Anna stayed behind him, crying herself out. She should have seen it. She should have. She didn't do the right thing for her sister. She let her down. Elsa always listened her, given her advices and all. But what Anna did? Nothing. She didn't even see that her sister was hitting the bottom. What will happen now? Nothing will be way it used to be. Anna was, for the first time in her life, afraid of the future. Her future had always been clear. She wanted to have friends for life, a nice boyfriend, follow her sister in college, become an artist, have a nice husband and perfect kids, with some nieces and nephews. She saw it as a picture; her family with Elsa's, all of them smiling and being happy. But that night, Elsa almost came out of the picture. And now that picture was darker with Elsa alone and sad while Anna had everything she ever dreamt of. How could that be fair? Elsa was alive, yes, but at what cost? When Elsa would wake up, will she be happy to be alive? Angry at Anna for saving her? Will she be following a therapy? The future was way too uncertain and that freaked out Anna. Not her life had a plan to be followed no matter what, after all, life loves to give you surprise, but what happened tonight was like a bomb which destroy everything they known. There were to many unknown in the equation to Anna. She wasn't certain of what to do. One thing was sure though, Anna had to be presented for Elsa. Anna had to play the role of the perfect big sister for her sister.
When Anna came in Elsa's white room at the hospital the next day, she was nervous. Her sister has waken up in the night. Anna was afraid of the reaction of her sister. Her mother was sitting next to Elsa and was smiling. She couldn't be happier. There was the doctor from yesterday and someone Anna never saw. When the three of them saw Anna approaching, they stopped moving. Her father came in as well. "I'm doctor Jimmy Criquet, psychologist. Nice to meet you Mr. Winter." said the man, moving his hands to shake his father's. "Can't say the same doctor" Anna's father didn't take the hand of the doctor. Anna felt the same as her father. She wished she had never meet doctor Criquet. It wasn't a pleasure and it wasn't nice to meet at all. Though, doctor Criquet didn't seem to mind, he must have been used to it, instead he faced Elsa. "Now that the rest of your family is here Elsa, I want you to know that we are going to see each other a lot. We all want to understand and help you." He smiled. Elsa was looking through the window, not minding the man. Then, her mother stood up and exited the room, followed by the two doctors and Anna and Mr. Winter followed them. "Now, Mr. and Mrs. Winter, you have to make a decision. Not an easy one. I've only had a short conversation with your daughter but she obliviously need help. The way she tried to end up her life was quite aggressive. You have to do what is best for her." Said doctor Criquet. Anna didn't quite understand what it was supposed to me but her parents seemed to.
"You have a few days to think about it but I want you to consider it. Either she come home with you and she come at my office few times a week or she come in a special institution where she will receive the attention and the help she truly needs."
"You want us to send our daughter in a mental hospital?" screamed Mrs. Winter
"No, it's not a mental hospital, it's a place where she will be watched and helped. Don't think you're sending your daughter to a madhouse. It's an institution for young girl with suicidal intention"
Anna stood back. Once again, it didn't make any sense. Her sister wasn't crazy. No way. She looked at her parents. They seemed to be considering it. Anna wanted to scream, but once again, her throat seemed dry. Her parents were speaking to the doctors but Anna didn't hear anything and she started to walk. She wandered for a while, starring her foot. She found herself out of the hospital. She watched to building. She came here when she broke her legs when she was eight. She came back when her grandma died three years ago. She didn't really like that place, it smelled cleanser. It was white and it looked like a maze. When her leg broke, they didn't want to give her a green plaster. Then she saw her grandma dying, laying in her bed with tubes coming out of her body. And now… her sister. No, without a doubt, she hated this place with all her soul. She stayed here for a while until her parents came out and they all got back home.
A week later, her parents have decided. They have left her alone in Elsa's room. She was still starring the window. Anna didn't know what to say. She was aware of the decision and she disliked it, even though she knew it was the best for Elsa. She was send in the institution. It made Anna cried when her parents told her, she then yelled at them and they had a fight. Anna wasn't sure she could forgive her parents about that. It was like they were giving up on Elsa. But most of all, Anna wasn't sure she could forgive herself for letting Elsa going to that place. She was giving up on her sister. She was staring at her. There was an awkward silent in the room. "I want to be a bird." Elsa's voice broke the silent. Anna didn't say anything, quite shocked. After all, Elsa didn't say anything in the last week. "They're sending me at the madhouse, don't they?" Anna nodded. Elsa sighed. "Is there anything I can do for you Elsa?" asked Anna, shyly. It took a few minutes before Elsa respond and it made Anna's world crumbled.
"Yeah, you should have let me died".
Okay so here it is ! I really hope you liked it ! If not, please tell me why and if you do, well... tell me as well ! Thanking you for reading me and see you next time !