Title: You could be happy
Rating: T (one swear)
Spoiler: Season 7 Episode 12. Just before the opening scene
Summary: While searching for answers on the leviathan, Dean thinks about happier days.
Dean opened another bottle of beer. The fridge was broken which left the beer warm. But he didn't squirm when he drank it. He was used to the feeling now. He held the bottle in his hand and looked back at the white screen of the laptop. He had been researching Dick Roman all day and his eyes burned.
He took in a deep breath and raised his head up. Sam had fallen asleep on the bed. His head was tucked under papers and books. Even the old fashioned way lead to a dead end. He let out a long sigh and covered his eyes with his hand. Blackness turned to old memories. Events of his life that he had tried so hard to push away, for some reason came back to him tonight. The woman he once loved.
His lips frowned and his chin wobbled. He could see her bouncing black hair and flashing white smile. He could hear her laugh... she had an amazing laugh. He opened his eyes again and made out the sad face staring back at him on the screen of the laptop.
"You could have been happy, you know that?" he growled at his reflection. He shook his head. "You were happy and then you fucked it up." He licked his lips and forced the memories away again. He looked at his bottle ready for another mouthful but this time he didn't want it. He held the bottle over the laptop and gently tilted it to the side. He wanted to pour it out. He wanted to hear the laptop sizzle and see it break. He wanted to give up.
Then the phone rang.