A/N: So this is a story completely from Will's POV and won't have Tessa in very much until later on and even then she's not really a major character. I hope you enjoy even though this chapter is pretty short and sorry for any mistakes! I own nothing but the plot :)
We can't keep doing this.
We can't keep living like this. Surrounded by lies, staring into space day after wretched day because you can't see that there is anything else anymore. I don't think you understand, James, I don't think you realise what you are causing.
At least I should hope not, for haven't you always been the best of us? If you do understand, if you truly comprehend the immensity of the situation that you are creating then I can only think that you must have given up on everything.
On yourself
On life
On me
I hope it has not come to that James, I hoped it would never happen. But I suppose you and I were born to be just as helpless in all of this as any others, no matter how much we believed and fought and how patient you were and how irresistible I was. Don't deny it, Jem.
You can't deny it. You can't deny us. Not to me anyway, to everybody else I suppose that is the only thing you can do and how I wish you would do something.
It seems as though forever has passed since you did something truly worth doing. Now you just place yourself somewhere, moving more alike a ghost than a shadowhunter as you pass about the place. But still, you're my ghost James, and I won't ever allow you to forget that when you breathe I am alive, when I am alone I am with you, I take the cold, and the pain of the bruises on your skin and bear them as my own.
And if you fade, I will forever fade along with you.
Such is my fate with you.
But if I'm really honest with you James, really, truly honest as you always wanted me to be
I've never really minded that fact at all.
Life without you isn't life, it is a mere failed existence.