Hopelessly devoted to Lexie

Authors note – I know I have many stories that need updating on this site, but all readers like myself know, once you get a story or an idea in her head you have to write it down, before your head explodes. Truthfully the reason for lack of updates on other stories is, I have writers block. If anyone has any ideas, no matter how daft you think they are I would be grateful for the help.

Disclaimer – Don't own CSI, but if I did Sara would never have left, although is back and Warrick wouldn't be dead!

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Do you sometimes get the feeling that you made a mistake and can not turn back the time? I have. I Sara Sidle made the biggest mistake of my life and now three years later I am regretting it, every word and every dish I broke, they were expensive too.

"Sara are you in there?" Catherine asked knocking on my bedroom door "Sara?"

"Just a minute" I reply smiling at the sleeping form of my three year old daughter Alexis beside me.

"Sara if you're not decent I'm coming in" Catherine announced pounding on the door.

"Mommy?" Alexis asks yawning and rubbing her tired eyes "Who's the crazy lady?"

"Sssh Lexie you're a surprise, remember?" I reply smiling down at my child.

"Sorry mommy, I forgot" Alexis replies rolling her blue eyes at me, her fathers eyes.

"Cath come on in, it's open" I shout trying not to giggle at Catherine for not being able to open a simple door.

"Why didn't you tell me that in the first place?" Catherine enquired turning her head to the side glancing at Alexis "Cute kid, babysitting?"

"No she's my mommy" Alexis replied pointing proudly at me "I have a beautiful mommy, don't I?"

"Sara Sidle has a daughter? Well I'm speechless" Catherine said rubbing her neck "How old are you little one?"

"I'm three and I'm not little, actually I'm tall for my age" Alexis replied standing up tall.

"Well you're definitely a Sidle" Catherine remarked "Three years is too long Sara, especially since well you know"

"I know I'm sorry, I was going to come back and introduce you all to Lexie, but well after how Gil reacted I changed my mind" I said smiling down at my precious little girl "Lexie go play in the living room"

As Lexie went to run out of the room, my smile exceeding the normal parameters it should possibly go on any normal human being, Lexie stopped at Catherine's legs and gave them a hug and from Catherine's facial expression a bone crunching one.

"Wow, yes definitely a Sidle" Catherine groaned "Strong for a three year old, what you been feeding her?"

"Food Cath" I reply rolling my eyes "How did you find us?"

"Well when your husband is a detective, you find things out" Catherine replied laughing loudly at my facial expression.

Ok I agree three years is too long, last time I knew Catherine wanted to become a nun, now I find out she's married, to whom I don't know, god I need to gossip.

"You're married? Since when?" I ask calmly walking out my bedroom and into the kitchen "Coffee?"

"Please, I'm married to Jim and it's been two years today" Catherine replies looking over at Lexie "Oh I also have a two year old son, Max"

"What?" I gasp dropping Lexie's Winnie the Pooh beaker in the sink "Your a mother?"

"Sara I've always been a mother just not with Jim" Catherine said giggling "So when you coming back to the crime lab?"

"I'm not, I have Lexie now and that's all I'm doing with my life" I reply pouring Apple Juice into the beaker and placing it on the kitchen table, next to the food I prepared earlier "Lexie dinner time"

"We will see about that" Catherine whispered "Hello Lexie"

"Hello" Lexie replied looking at me then Catherine "Who are you and what are you doing here?"

"I'm Catherine Brass, I'm an old friend of your mothers and I thought about coming to say hello" Catherine replied smiling at my daughter "Lexie how would you like to come visit where your mommy used to work?"

"Oh mommy can I?" Alexis begged "Please I've been ever so good, please"

I'm going to kill Catherine Brass, seems strange saying that, ok where was I? Oh yes I'm going to kill Catherine Brass and hide the body for all eternity, just kidding I couldn't do that she has a two year old son, that also seems weird for me to say. I know I just give her the Sara Sidle glare, ummm didn't work, damn it!

"Alexis you know we can't" I reply sombrely when I see tears in my three year olds eyes "Lexie I'm sorry"

"No your not!" Lexie says tears flowing "I want to see where you work, have I ever begged for anything before?"

"No, but" I reply being cut off my Catherine, kill her.

"Oh come on Sara" Catherine begs "Alexis wants to see the lab, please it will be my pleasure"

I'm not going to win this I see, ok think Sara, think. I know run away and get a disguise, I know a nun, nope that won't work; don't think they allow three year old nuns? Or do they?

"Mommy?" Alexis begs again "Please, I can be ready in two seconds"

"I'm not going to win this am I?" I enquired receiving two shakes of the head "Ok, go pack a bag Lexie and we will go to see where I used to work"

Lexie runs from the room as quick as lightening and squeals in delight, I see Catherine out of the corner of my eye smiling and rolling on the balls of her feet in triumph, I take back what I said earlier, I going to kill Catherine Brass if it's the last thing I do.

TBC