Hey everyone! This is my first fan fiction, and the first time since high school that I've written anything! Thought I would give it a go. I always liked writing, it's soothing and was used as an outlet. I've also written this on my phone and am completely new to this, so there are no line breaks, sorry.

CHAPTER 1

Edward put his arm lightly around my shoulders and ever so gently planted a swift, chaste kiss on my temple. I tried not to let my grimace show, and it came out as a shiver. Edward thinking I was cold, removed his arm from my shoulders. I almost thought I got away with being able to hide my distaste for my 'fiancé', since I and all the Cullen's were watching a movie on the plush couches in the lounge room, until I chanced a quick glance around the room, almost immediately locking eyes with Jasper, with a smirk firmly placed on his lips. Damn it! Of course he felt me. And he thought it was funny! I made sure he felt my annoyance and shot him a quick 'can it!' look with my eyes. I was glad we had become friends over the last couple months.

After I came back from saving Edward in Italy, I made it quite clear to the Cullen's that I do not and will not ever blame Jasper for him attacking me on my birthday. They all wanted my blood, how could Jasper be able to stop all the sudden bloodlust from taking control of him? So, although reluctantly, the family (Edward especially) stood back and gave Jasper and I a chance to get to know each other. We were going to be siblings soon enough anyway.

At first it was awkward, he wasn't sure what to say to me other than 'I'm so sorry' or 'it's ok if you don't forgive me'. After hearing it for the tenth time, I lost my patience. I reiterated to him that it was my idea to become friends and get to know each other, and that I never blamed him and there was nothing to forgive. Instead of what I expected him to do, he let out a chuckle. I was fuming. He was laughing? He surprised me again by walking closer to me than he ever had before and saying"I'm glad I finally felt something from you that I haven't felt before. I didn't think you had it in you." Then he walked away, smile still firmly in place. I stood there with my mouth wide open for a few minutes, dumbfounded, until Edward appeared next to me asking if I was alright... Things were never the same again...

When the battle with Victoria was high on the horizon, I spent as much time with jasper as I could, talking about his past in the civil war and newborn armies with Maria. I saw another side to Jasper, he was still the quiet, calculating, observing, and tactical man I had met when I first got thrust into this world, but I learnt he had a passion for the guitar and writing. He loved horses, and horse riding. He loved Peter and Charlotte fiercely. They were bounded by venom and the harshness of the newborn wars. I expressed my interest to Jasper about meeting them. He just smiled and put his hand over mine and stated "soon." Was it ok for my stomach to explode in butterflies? It didn't matter, it was just details. But it seemed the more time we spent together, the love I had for Edward was slowly being removed, and slowly being devoted to Jasper.

Alice had been acting strange since Italy. She kept smiling this 'all knowing' smile at me. It came to my attention very recently that Alice and Jasper were not mates, and they now resided in separate rooms. When I asked Alice why they had chosen now to do this, she simply replied "it is time." With that smile on her face, and gracefully danced away from me, taking Edward by the arm and saying something about a shopping trip, and left with Edward in tow.

I was jolted from my thoughts when Emmett threw a large amount of popcorn at my head. What the hell? I was just about to say exactly that when laughter erupted from around me.

"You have been zoned out the whole movie! Do you even know what we were watching Bella?" Came Emmett's booming voice from beside a scowling Rose. I went to snap back at him that I did, but when I glanced at the t.v, the credits were rolling. I came up empty. What were we watching? Had I been zoned out that long? My thoughts were interrupted again by a chuckling Jasper. "Leave Bella be. She is only human after all." Thanks Jasper. I put my head between my knees. My cheeks were starting to heat.

Edward put his hand on my back. I chanced a glance at him. He had my once favourite crooked grin on his face.

"I have to go for a hunt. Alice, Carlisle and Esme will be joining me. Do you want me to escort you home before I go?"

"No Edward, I can get myself home." I said some what harshly. Esme and Carlisle were already waiting outside. I gathered Rose and Emmett were already upstairs doing the horizontal. Alice was most likely changing into the appropriate hunting 'attire'. Just Jasper, Edward and myself were left on the couches still. I attempted to soften my face.

"No thank you Edward. Sorry I snapped. I'm just tired." It worked.

"That's ok love. As long as you feel safe enough to get yourself home. I'll be going now." And with that, he kissed me on the cheek and was gone. I looked up at Jasper and he had the same look of distaste on his face that I had.

"Would you like to accompany me home?" I asked him. He turned to me and smiled.

"Of course ma'am." Tipping his imaginary hat to me. Could his southern accent be any sexier? We made it out the front door and and into the cab of my truck. I cranked the engine and Jasper wound down his window, me following suit. He lit a cigarette and handed me one before I had a chance to put my seat belt on. Damn vampire speed.

"Thanks." I said with a smile. "You know me well."

"I know Edward doesn't like your 'habit', and I know that you butt heads with him over it, but he doesn't understand that it's an outlet, a relaxant. I, however, do." Jasper said taking a long drag of his cigarette. I rolled my eyes, I had been smoking long before I met him.

"I'll still smoke even when I become a vampire." I said. I was getting ahead of myself. I had to back pedal. I knew I had to break the news to Edward that I didn't want to marry him anymore. I wasn't even in love with him anymore. I was completely in love with Jasper.

"I feel the same way, Bella." Came Jasper's voice from beside me. I smiled. I suspected he did feel the same way, and I also expected it was the reason why Alice had had that stupid smile on her face all the time. She knew...

'Down with the sickness' by disturbed was playing softly from the CD player in my truck. Jasper was nodding his head to the drums. Yeah, down with the sickness alright. The 'I'm in love with Jasper' sickness. At least we had the same taste in music.

"When are you going to break the news to him?" Jasper said.

"I reckon he already has some idea. I really did love him... I'll always have a spot for him in my heart. I suppose it's like you and Alice." I said.

"I know he already knows. I'm just wondering when you were planning on telling him. I'd like to take you on a date. That's how it works... Isn't it?" Jasper is so sexy when he is unsure of something. I suppressed a giggle.

"I'm not sure. I've never been on a date, unless you count the time in port Angeles when Edward was stalking me." I said with a laugh. "Where would we go if we did go on a date?" I asked.

"Well, I know how you like to have a drink... I called up jenks and had a fake I.D made for you... You know, for emergencies... So, Alice has told me I am to take you to a club in Seattle." Awesome! I totally couldn't wait! Edward didn't like me drinking either, it was 'unladylike'.

"That sounds really cool! Hey, can vampires drink? And you already spoke to Alice?" I asked.

"You know Alice. She came to me. I had already decided on something very similar, she just refined my plans. And yes we can drink, but we need copious amounts to get any sort of affect compared to humans." Damn that Alice!

"Let me guess, it's a high class club, and she has already bought me the cutest little barely-there dress with a ridiculous price tag?" I asked some what excited. Jasper was with her for many years, he would have high standards. What ever she bought me would be good for Jasper.

"Well, yes she has, but it's more to your standards. I can't wait to see you in it." Jasper said as he gave me a wink. I rubbed my legs together. It was times like this I wish I had already told Edward.

"I can feel you..." Jasper said. I didn't care, I wanted him to know how he made me feel. He sighed and threw his cigarette out the window.

"You do the same to me too, but your still Edward's fiancé. I want to do this the right way." I silently agreed. He understood. I threw my cigarette out the window and started humming along to the song change. Black eyed peas... 'My humps' of all songs. I had to giggle, earning a sideways glance from Jasper. I just shook my head. I was just turning down my street now. My time with Jasper was almost up. I parked my car behind Charlie's cruiser. I took a deep breath and turned to jasper. He looked at me just as intently as I was him. The world seemed to stop rotating. He reached across to me a put his fingers gently on my cheek. His touch sent warmth through my body and made me tingle all over.

"Are we mates?" I asked him after what seemed an eternity.

"Yes... I felt the pull before I even realised what it was." He answered softly. I sighed and closed my eyes. I leant into his hand briefly before reluctantly pulling away.

"I don't want to leave your side, but Charlie will come looking for me in a minute. If Edward turns up tonight, I will tell him." I had decided. Now or never.

"He won't be back until tomorrow morning. They went a bit further out than normal to hunt." He said with a small smile. I kissed his cheek and whispered my good bye to him before slipping out of my truck and heading inside.

Charlie called out his usual "Bella?" When I walked in.

"Hey dad." I said.

"Are you alright Bella? You look sad. Did you and Edward have a fight?" Charlie said hopefully

"No dad, I'm just tired. I'm going to have a shower then head to bed. Goodnight." "Goodnight Bells." Charlie said with a wave of his hand, more interested in the game on tv. Good. I liked that Charlie didn't poke and prod. I can be left with my thoughts. I pulled my phone out of my pocket to pop it on the charger. Renee text me. I hadn't noticed. Might have been when I was driving. I sent a quick text telling her all was well, hoped she and phill were good and I loved her. I grabbed my pyjamas and headed for the shower. I stayed there for 20 minutes. Just letting the hot water wash away any negative thoughts and feelings from the day, clearing my mind. I reluctantly got out and got dressed, heading back to my room. I plugged my iPod in and turned the music up so it was just background noise. I wasn't tired, I just wanted Edward to hurry up so I could tell him things were over between us. I just laid on my bed staring at the ceiling. I don't know how long I laid there until I heard my phone vibrate beside me. It was a text.

'Don't worry about Edward. The words will come to you when you see him. He is expecting them. Alice x'

I typed a reply saying thank you, and continued laying there looking at the ceiling. My phone vibrated again. I briefly was annoyed that my phone kept going off when I was trying to have quiet time until I saw who it was from.

'Go to sleep darling. A good nights rest will help put everything in perspective. Jasper x'

How did he know I was struggling? I didn't even admit it to myself. I shrugged it off, he did tend to pick up on me even without being an empath. I typed another thank you and goodnight to Jasper and decided to put his advice to use. I closed my eyes, Jasper being the last thing I thought about.

Morning came and the sun was out. I smiled and stretched. I did have a good sleep. I checked the time, only 8am. Good. Time to get this thing with Edward out of the way. As if on cue, he was standing by my window, leaning against the frame. I sighed and got out of bed. Now or never.

"Edward." I managed to squeak. He nodded his head slightly and straightened up. I walked closer, gauging his mood. He seemed non fazed. I mentally shrugged and repeated my mantra. Now or never.

"Edward... We need to talk."

"I know. But you can lead this one." He said softly.

"Ok. I love you, but I'm not in love with you anymore. I'm sorry..." I took my engagement ring off. "I'm sorry I couldn't be who you wanted, and I'm sorry you gave me this ring. Find someone who deserves it." I said putting the ring in his hand. He took it reluctantly. I couldn't help it. I wrapped my arms around him for the last time. He hugged me back almost as tightly and we stayed like that for an unmeasurable moment. I pulled away and looked him in the eye.

"I don't regret a thing." I said quietly.

"Nor do I. I do love you, but we aren't right for each other. I'm sorry for everything, truly. But Jasper is right for you. I wish it was me, but if it was anyone, I'm glad it was him and not Jacob." He said with that crooked grin. I playfully gave him the stink eye, then smiled. He went to jump out the window but paused. He looked at me and I could tell he didn't want to leave me.

"How did you know about Jasper and I?" I had to ask.

"Alice let it slip in one of the visions she had. It was only recent. Although I noticed something happening before that. I won't be around for a bit. I'll be staying in Denali. I need some time."

"Of course. Do what you need to do. I'll see you when I see you." I smiled at him. He nodded his head and was gone. Before I had a chance to take a breath my phone vibrated.

'Get dressed and be around here in an hour. Alice x' God that pixie woman could be bossy! I wasn't going to reply, she would know before I sent it. After a quick breakfast of cereal and juice, and another quick shower, I whipped on the first things I saw. Black leggings, white singlet, green singlet and my flip flops. Yes, that would do. I jumped straight in my truck. Charlie had left with billy early this morning to go fishing so I didn't get questioned.

After 15 minutes, I pulled up outside the Cullen residence. Jasper was sitting on the front step with a lit cigarette. Yes, he really did know me. I smiled and sat beside him, grabbing the cigarette, him getting another for himself.

"You did it this morning."

"Yes. It was easier than I expected." I said.

"He already left."

"I thought he would have. How was he?" I questioned.

"He was his normal brooding self, except he oozed sadness and acceptance. I sent him my apologies silently. He accepted and waved us off. Said he needed some time. The family was sad but not shocked. They were pretty clued in, too. They knew it was coming."

"I was worried that I wouldn't be accepted back with open arms. I know things won't ever be the same but I hope I haven't caused any rifts." I quietly said. He just smiled and slung his arm around my shoulders, and I leant my head on his shoulder.

"You are apart of this family no matter who or what you choose. We all love you." Jasper said with a smile. Alice chose that moment to burst through the front door and jumped in front of us.

"Hey Alice," I said "how come you wanted me here so early?"

"You need to try on the dress I got for your date with Jasper! Your going tonight! I need to prep you! Emmett and myself are also joining you." She said smiling and clapping her hands. I mentally groaned. Hours of playing Bella-Barbie ahead. Great.

"You and Emmett? No Rose?" I asked.

Alice rolled her eyes. "With your track record, you need three of us to keep you out of trouble. And Rose doesn't want to come." Alice stated seriously. Figures, Rose is still 'iffy' with me to say the least, that's without knowing how she has reacted to the latest development.

"Actually, Rose is happy things have turned out this way. She knew you and Edward were never meant to be, but she still doesn't like you wanting to throw your life away; as she puts it." Alice answered my unspoken question. "I've already organised with Charlie that your coming on an over night shopping trip with me to Seattle tonight. So your cleared." Alice said with a smile. "Come on, let's get started!" She said clapping her hands together. I groaned and stood up. I took one last look at Jasper and was dragged off to Alice's room to start the torture.

Four hours later and I'd had a manicure, pedicure, light make up and hair curled and not a strand out of place. We stopped now for a brief toilet break and for me to have something to eat. I wouldn't miss this when I was a vampire... I chanced a glance in the mirror and was pleased with what I saw. Alice didn't go overboard like I thought she would. The only thing left to do was to put my outfit on. I checked my phone and had a text.

'Alice won't let me in. How are you doing? Jasper :) x'

'Im fine, pleased with what Alice has done actually :) Bella x'

It was 2pm. Alice was just taking a quick shower and getting herself ready at vampire speed so I didn't have long before my pixie best friend was at me again. Just then, the door opened and Rose walked in. Before I had a chance to react, she put her hand up to silence me.

"I know we aren't friends, and might never be, but I'm here to make a truce. Peace offering if you will. Here," she handed me a simple plain gold bangle, medium sized gold hoop earrings, and a long dangling gold chained necklace with a large crystal, old styled key and large solid silver heart. I stared at the items she handed me. I liked them. Maybe we had some things in common.

"I knew you would like them, and I thought they would match your dress for tonight. I helped Alice pick it." Rose said with a small smile. I returned the smile with a whispered "thank you." She nodded her head at me and left the room. I was dumbfounded. I couldn't even think straight. Just then Alice came out wearing a baby pink halter dress with an open back that left nothing to the imagination and black open toed stiletto's. She smiled at me and pulled out a dress bag and shoe box. I took a deep breath. Here we go. I opened the dress bag first. There staring at me was a mid thigh length dress with three quarter sleeves. Modest and plain. I smiled. I liked it. Alice smiled even wider. I opened up the shoe box next. There staring back at me were not a pair of heels, but a pair of black pointed toe flats with gold studs. As if to accentuate the shoes, Alice pulled out a black studded waist belt. The outfit was perfect. I was looking forward to tonight now! I couldn't wait to show Jasper.

"I knew you would love it." Alice said. I smiled in return and happily got dressed. Once all done, Alice grabbed my phone and took a photo of me just as I turned to face her after admiring myself in the mirror.

"What was that for?" I asked.

"Just sending it to Jasper." She replied with a smirk on her face. I went to object but she already sent it. Not a moment later there was a knock on the door. Alice opened her door and there stood Jasper in a black tight fitting t-shirt, dark blue faded jeans that hugged him in a the right places, and well worn brown cow boy boots! Oh my! Alice slipped out of the room leaving us alone. He stood there and looked at me hungrily, up and down. He walked toward me slowly. It felt like an eternity before he reached me.

"That dress exceeds anything I ever imagined it looking on you." He whispered close to my ear. I shuddered. He wasn't even touching me.

"In that case, I might wear it more often." I squeaked out. He chuckled snaking a arm around my waist and putting his hand under my chin to tilt my face up to his. He looked at me, asking permission. I nodded slightly, he didn't need to be told twice. His lips met mine gently at first. Lovingly, sweet, chaste. He pulled back slightly then kissed more deeply. I put my hands in his hair and balled my fists. I could tell he liked that. His hand glided to my backside and I gasped, giving him the perfect opportunity to slide his tongue in. The moment was short lived. Alice stomped back in and cleared her throat. We both pulled back and glared at Alice.

"As much as I'm glad your both having your first kiss, I don't have time to re-do Bella's make up." Jasper and I both rolled our eyes and pulled away from each other. "We are leaving in 20 minutes. Are you ready Jasper?" Alice asked.

"I've been ready since you dragged bella off to play Bella-Barbie." Jasper deadpanned. I giggled and Alice rolled her eyes.

"No funny business. Not until we at least get there." Alice warned, using two fingers to gesture she was watching us, then walked out leaving the door open. I took a deep breath and looked at Jasper.

"To be continued." I said. He just smiled, grabbed my hand and placed a kiss on the back of my hand. He could be so sweet. "Where are Carlisle and Esme? I haven't seen them since last night." I asked.

"There was some emergency at a medical research lab in New York. I'm not sure how long they will be gone for, but they didn't say what the emergency was." Jasper said. I wonder what the emergency was. I suppose if it was detrimental they would have called in.

"Ok. I would have liked to see them after what happened this morning, but I'm sure I'll see them soon enough." I said with a smile. Jasper kissed me cheek.

"Don't stress darlin'. Everything is and will be fine." Jasper said with a smile.

"Ok, I believe you." "Ready for our first date?"

"Got my fake I.D?" I said with a smirk.

"Of course ma'am." Jasper said with a bow. I giggled and he grabbed my hand and we walked down the stairs together.

"ok let's get going! We still need to get Bella some dinner so she doesn't fall on her ass after 2 drinks!" Alice said.

"She doesn't need two drinks to fall on her ass." Emmett said laughing. I glared at him.

"Let's just go." I grunted. Emmett grabbed me up in a bear hug saying "but I still love you, Belly!" Damn you Emmett!