So, Mitchie" Ellen started. I was being interviewed on the 'Ellen Show'. "I saw your performance on 'Good Morning America'…."
"Oh No" I said quietly feigning fear. The audience laughed.
"Well, you were singing your new single, 'Heart Attack'" the audience then cheered at the mention of my newest song. Ellen waited for the applause to die down. "and I noticed that you messed up on the first part." The clip played on the screen behind us. I laughed watching myself sing the wrong lyrics.
"And cue the signature smirk." Ellen said. There was more laughter. I knew what was coming up next.
"and you also messed up last year on 'Good Morning America' as well. It was in July while you were perfoming, 'Give your heart a break" More applause. Yes, it's true I mess up on stage a lot, and the reason for that is a certain someone. If people found out about that certain someone, my career would be ruined.
I felt knots in my stomache as the man behind the camera did the count down excluding the 1 for the time till I was live on TV. The band started playing and I waited patiently till my cue to sing. I wasn't going to mess up this time. She wasn't here, so that means she's probably not going to show up. Now don't get me wrong, I want her to show up. But the fact is, she's why I keep messing up. I got past the very first line when she walked in. As usual she was in disguise. She kept her distance, so that nobody there would recognize her, but she was close enough so that I could see her. My mind immediately went blank for a second. Just the sight of her could take my breath away. I was able to recover quickly, but I couldn't think of the right lyrics for this part of the song. I sang the lyrics that came to mind without having paused ( by some miracle) then I realized they were the wrong ones. 'Crap' I thought as a small blush creeped to my cheeks. I sent out the smirk that everyone calls my trade mark. I could see her smiling, trying to hold back her laughter. How could she not notice the effect she had on me?
The one before that as Ellen kindly pointed out was last July. I was almost finished, it was the last verse, when I spotted her. Once again I scanned my brain for the lyrics and confidently sang the ones that came to mind, but again, they were the wrong ones. Any time she was ever around me, I ended up making a fool of myself, That's why I messed up a lot on stage. She shows up to a lot of my concerts where I have fallen down , or forgotten the lyrics, and that's because she was the cause of all of them.
"Now with most people, I would understand a small mess up here or there, but I've noticed it's happened a numerous amount of times. During Until your mine, La la land, Don't catch me. So everyone here was wondering If there's a reason for that" There was dead silence as people awaited my answer.
"yes" I finally said, "There is." I was going to do it. I was going to tell the world my biggest secret.
"And what's this reason?" Ellen pressed.
"I-I'm" I stuttered. People were leaning forward in their seats, waiting anxiously for my response, almost scared that they might miss the answer. Too bad I chickened out.
"I'm very clumsy, and can be a bit scattered brained at times" I said in lieu of the truth. Yes I was planning to tell my secret one day, just not today.