Everyone always forgets Max when it comes to Jalex.
& sometimes the consequences can't be reversed;
~ With great love, comes a price ~

"Outside Looking In"

You don't know my name, well technically you do. But you don't care. I never was apart of you two.
You don't know anything about me, you would know me if you would just stop and listen to me.

I try to play nice, it worked really good until I found out about the real you. It hurtyou know?

I want to be in your game, but I'll never be.
You two are to busy fucking each others brains out to let me in.
The things that you say, you think you can talk about me without any consequence.
That's true cause I can't stop you.

You may think I never hear about them, the names that you are calling me, but word travels fast.
I'm telling you to your face, I'm standing here behind your back.
I just want to screem but I can't...

You don't know how it feels, To be outside the crowd.
You always got more attention then I ever did.

You don't know what it's like, To be left out. Do you even care?
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in.
That's what I did my whole frigging life...

If you could read my mind. Maybe then I wouldn't need to write this letter...
You might see more of me that meets the eye.
But you don't, never care about my pain, my silent cries or my scars.

And you've been all wrong, I'm not who you think I am.

You've never given me a chance, to show you who I really am and how I really feel.

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

Well, I'm tired of being tricked and treated like a baby.

I go to school with you everyday, make stupid comments, get myself into trouble.
Im more invisible than the air you breath, at least you can feel it leaving your lungs.
Can you feel me leaving your life?

I hope you are happy now.
I hope I was never a hindrance. Wouldn't want you to waste your time.

I'm sick of wasting all my time.
That's why I wrote this and after I write this I'll take a knife and kill myself, I guess you
already know that.
Cause when you are finished with reading this my heart will already have stopped beating.

There happy now?

Now Justin and Alex can be happy in love and don't have to care about me anymore.

And Mom and Dad don't have to give me pity looks anymore either.

Oh and I wanted to tell Justin and Alex I love you, like you love each other but too little, too late as they say.
You would have avoided my even more if I told you anyway...

This is my last goodbye...

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

So I tryed to place Max's piont of view in this heart wrenching one-shot.
Yes this is a Jalex.. well more of a Jalex in Max's eyes. I really hope I captured it well.
Codos to thoughs who picked out the Alex/Justin/Max thing going on. Haha
Please your thoughts would be greatly loved :)
You know what to do... R&R ~ xx