Chapter 1. My first time writting doctor who fanfic, I have generally written Merlin in the past, but never got very far with anything, this one actually looks like I might get further than usual.
I don't own Doctor Who.
I sat still.
In my TARDIS. On my cloud. I sat still.
I thought.
I rarely get to sit and think, the world always needed saving, there was always someone there. Now there is no one.
I let the grief crash over me.
I'd always kept myself busy, never stopping, burying the pain. I don't see the point now.
I let my mind think. Of Amy. Of Rory. Of everyone I'd lost over the years.
Then the tears came. The tears came and I shook and wept on that floor. Each memory brought more tears and more pain, until there were no tears, and no memories left.
No more.
No more helping, no more companions, no more saving people who lived such short lives.
No more letting myself be hurt.
I could stay here, on this cloud, in this endlessly large ship. Alone. And I would be just fine. The world could solve its own problems, I'd been doing it for long enough, and I'd lost enough.