Love trials! Case one: the one-sided love blues!?
Love; a four letter word with a deep and wonderful meaning. It was beautiful and the best feeling in the world but I quickly realized that, it isn't always cut out to be like it's told in the fairy tales!
I am Uchiha Sasuke and this is my love trial. I have been crushing on the the heartthrob Naruto Uzumaki (troublemaker renowned to like activities under the sheets with many people) that everyone else is crushing on. I used to believe in all the flawless-ness of love (If that's even a word) until I met Naruto in freshmen year. He was in my class for the first year and never spoke a word to me despite being seated right beside me. I would droll over him while he paid mild attention to the lectures until one day, he told me I had beautiful eyes and with that alone, my heart pounded and I knew that I had fallen. He didn't speak much to me again... maybe all my drooling annoyed him. Well either way, I didn't talk to him all that much that year it wasn't until senior year that my love trials began...this is how it went down.
-Case One-
"Mom, do you know where I put my student card?" I asked my mother as I fixed my uniform to attend the last entrance ceremony in my high school career. It was amazing to thing that the years that were supposedly going to be the best of my life were not that...great? It was fun sure but in the long run, it wasn't the super-fantastic-best-time-of-my-life that the movies often portrayed.
My mom ran up the stairs with an excited smile gracing her lips. I looked at her in question, wondering what got her so happy so early in the morning. She walked around me with a sway and I followed her towards my bed. Her hand shuffled in the dept of my drawers and pulled out my student card then handed it to me with a big smile.
"Here you go my wonderful baby boy..."She singsonged. Raising my eyebrow in confusion, I thanked her and set off to school before I run late. That was the last thing I wanted to be. I bid farewell to the other members of my family and walked out to catch the train.
The walk to the train was peaceful, the fall breeze was signature for this time of year and it felt nice. The train was packed with students from my school but I was lucky enough to get a seat instead of standing. My good friend Lee met me at the train station and we walked together up the hill towards Konoha High. The road was lined with trees that shook dying but beautifully colored leaves.
"Another great year is about to begin...I can't wait!" Lee exclaimed when we arrived and were seated in the huge gymnasium that was nicely decorated for the entrance ceremony. There was a load of people sitting and some rushing in, hoping they weren't late.
I scanned the room for a blond head. He was all the way in the front, probably looking casual as always...like he has no care in the world.
"You think so?" I wondered to myself as I stared at the back of his blond head, my heart pounding like drums. Lee nodded with enthusiasms that I congratulated him for having but I had already set to have a relaxing last year and if things were good, maybe...JUST maybe, I'd get Naruto to notice me again.
The ceremony ended quickly, my dazed and dreamy face probably freaked Lee out but I couldn't help but think of all the wonderful things that would happen if I succeed in getting the heartthrob to notice me. Lee and I exited the gymnasium -after the principal finished his entrance speech- along with the many students to head to our classroom for the introduction and orientations.
When we got to what looked to be our classroom, we were blocked entry by a bustling group of students crowding the doorway. Pushing and yelling, it was as if a superstar was in there. I looked at the class once again to reconfirm that it was ours. Indeed, it was. Fantastic! We were going to have to fight our way through!
"What's going on?" I asked one of the students.
"He's in there!" Random girl one squealed while random girl two was blushing like a cherry. I pushed past them squeezing my way through the crowd with the help of Lee until we finally popped into the classroom with gasps of relief. That was thick crowd.
And just as the girl said...there he was in all his handsome glory. It hit me like a brick in the face.
Naruto Uzumaki.
It was nothing as I expected, the feeling was surreal. This was great! I stood there being pushed and tossed around my the crowd of swoon boys and girls desperate to get their fill of Uzumaki. I was part of the crowd until a hand rested against my shoulder. Looking down at the pale hand in horror, thinking that someone was going to pull me back into the crowd.
"Who-" I stopped myself when I realized the owner of the hand was a six-foot something tall man with a mask covering the lower half of his face. He smiled down at me...from beneath his mask? Well, his eyes were down turned, hinting to me that he was smiling. Was this our teacher?
"Now, Now children. Leave my class if your not my student," He cooed the bustling crowd that dispersed angrily. He handed me a sheet of paper. I blinked. "Take care of seating, I'm going to read." He said cheerfully before draping himself on the teacher's chair and opening a orange covered book.
"Huh?!" I exclaimed, looking back and forth from the paper to him. Yet, I was ignored. So, I spent that morning guiding swoon and incoherent students to their seats.
I was scared out of my mind when I had to lead a reluctant troublemaker, Gaara, to his seat near the door. He was clearly not pleased. I was already hating my duty. Everyone was staring at me, waiting for me to place the one and only Naruto Uzumaki who was leaning against the wall, watching me boredly.
I could barely speak when I pointed Naruto to his desk which was a desk away from the window. It was even worse when I realized that I was seated next to him by the window because of our last names. My head was spinning and my heart was thumping loudly, he was right there. So close to me. The first person to ever compliment me on my looks...My first crush...was sitting right next to me. The heat was rising along with my pulse.
I spotted Lee waving at me from the front of the class and I sent him an awkward short wave back. His gesture calming me down enough to listen to the teacher's introduction.
"Alright, my name is Hatake Kakashi and I am your teacher for this year. Let's have fun together-yada-yada." My sweat dropped, was this serious?
I almost had a heart attack when I heard a deep chuckle erupt from the figment of my admiration. It was rich and deep...absolutely perfect laughter but it startled me. I blushed when I realized I had let out a small squeak, pressing myself against the windowsill.
Things got infinity times more horrible for my heart when he shot me a look with those famous dark blue eyes that were rumored to seduce people in a record five seconds. Clearly, I was one of his victims. Not that I wanted to be! I actually didn't want to be seduced by him that quickly, I wanted to know him and let him know me.
Our eyes kept clashing, my eyes darting to avoid the searching gaze but it was hard! I wanted to escape and my prayers were answered when the bell rang, appointing break time. I shot up from my seat and walked quickly off; trying to look as normal as possible yet my heart was beating radically. I felt special...Important. I felt like I was more then other with a mere look.
I walked down the row to meet Lee at his desk while Naruto was immediately crowded by people, it wasn't long before he had a boy and a girl under his arms. He was giving off a cool vibe, casually flirting with his touches and looks.
Suddenly, I didn't feel so special anymore. My heart was pounding but it didn't feel pleasant anymore. I clutched it, trying to rid myself of the feeling but holding my hands close to my heart didn't help.
"Sasuke...?" Lee called, worried as he patted my hunched over back. I shot him a shaky smile and begged myself to recover. This was Naruto's trap. He'd pull you with those eyes and leave you feeling like your something when your clearly not. Despite knowing that...I was still drawn. Maybe I was just like the fools under his arms. "Let's go get some air!" Lee exclaimed, grabbing my arm and pulling me out.
We leaned over an open window, taking in the slightly cold breeze that surprisingly cleared my mind. I had seen a side of Naruto I had seen many times. I didn't want to accept that I had fallen for someone like that but the matter couldn't be denied either. It may seem shallow that I was drawn in by Naruto's looks but my heart felt something deeper. There was something more to him that brought me in.
"Feeling better?" Lee asked with a sweet smile, I sent one back to him. Grateful for his constant help.
"Yes, Sorry. I was feeling a little queasy back there." I lied, I didn't want to admit that I realized that I am just like everyone else to Naruto; a toy. I didn't want to bother Lee with my problems.
He sent me a sad smile that concluded our break as we had to return to class for the rest of the day.
-Case One-
"Alright, students. I forgot to appoint the student responsibilities so let's go ahead and do that because I want to go home." Kakashi-sensei singsonged. The classroom atmosphere turned somber, I smiled a little. I knew nobody wanted to do anything me included. I kept my head down, praying that I wasn't chosen to do anything.
I was ecstatic to find out that I wasn't elected to do anything until Kakashi shot me a look and I froze. Knowing that it was coming, I braced myself.
"The boy who kindly volunteered to seat you students can be the class president!" He announced, I shot him a accusing glare for lying about me volunteering " Any oppositions?"
"Yes!" "Noooo~" The class chorused over my gasp of protest.
"Alright, Sasuke Uchiha will be our class president...Please take care of the class...And yeah that's it." He concluded, leaving me in a flabbergasted mess as he casually walked out of the class with a book in hand. The bell rang not long after, signaling the end of the day.
"A-Are you se-serious?" I croaked out as I sank to my desk slowly and pathetically. This was the last thing I wanted. I wanted to take this last year easy but now I was responsible for a whole classroom. I was interrupted from my despair by a scoff that came from no one other then Naruto.
"Damn, I have to sit beside the class president. Great." He snorted and got up, leaving the classroom along with the other students.
That's when I came to the conclusion. Trying to get Naruto to like me was useless. He had no interest in me whatsoever- I was probably more of a burden then anything at the moment. This was probably the first time he's actually said a sentence to me...he didn't care about me.
But I wouldn't let that upset me! Maybe he just isn't right for me...? Maybe it would be wise to just let my feelings go and dive head first into my studies?...Maybe that was for the best? Was it wrong for me to try to lower myself to force someone to love me back when the person clearly held nothing for me?
I rested my head on my desk with a bitter smile. Why was the prospect of letting go seem so hard?
I was nothing but a fool!