a/n: hey all! I think this will just be a one shot? what say you? let me know if you think i should add a little more….it's questionable. idk how much time i'm gonna have. School is KICKING my ass. :P But i'll try. sooo review. and let me know. and yeaaaah. enjoy.

*As usual, i own nothing, because if I did…well, paget would want to stay, aj and paget would have never left in the first place, and shemar would be my personal sex monkey. :)

Looove,

Kaitlin

"Good morning, peaches!" Penelope Garcia greeted exuberantly as a tired looking JJ walked through the door of the BAU.

"Later than usual," Derek commented with a grin.

"43.8 minutes later," Reid added, looking up from his watch. JJ rolled her eyes and put her bag down on Derek's desk. Emily was sitting on the desk, and as soon as JJ put the bag down, she moved her hand away, and looked down at the floor. JJ sighed.

"Late night with the boyfriend?" Derek teased. At the word boyfriend, Emily tensed up. Luckily, this went unnoticed by the profilers surrounding her, because their focus was on the quiet blonde in front of them.

"Oh leave her alone, boys. My darling's sex life is none of your concern," Garcia scolded, "Only mine!" She added with a chuckle.

"Actually, Derek," JJ began, sensing Emily's uncomforted, "It was a late night," JJ said with a shrug. She held up her hand. On it was a diamond ring.

"JJ! WHY DIDN"T YOU TELL ME SOONER?" Garcia exclaimed immediately.

"Congratulations, princess," Derek chuckled.

"Thanks, Derek," JJ managed to get out as Garcia smothered her with hugs.

"It's only been a year and," Reid paused to count, "24 days," He said with a smile, "That's very fast," He said matter of factly. He wasn't judging her. He was just stating statistics as usually.

"Well, you must really love him, then," Garcia said wistfully. JJ laughed uncomfortably.

"Guys," Hotch called from the cat walk, "Case," he said pointing towards the conference room where he and Rossi were waiting.

Derek, Spencer and Penelope began to make their way to the conference room.

"Coming, ladies?" Penelope asked.

"Yeah in a sec. I just have a file to give to Emily out of my bag," JJ lied. Garcia shrugged and entered the conference room.

"Em," JJ began sadly, when she was sure they were out of ear-shot.

"Save it," Emily said bitterly, shaking her head.

"Emily, please," JJ begged, "We need to talk about this," she tried, sadness emanating from her voice.

"No, Jennifer. Not here. Not now," Emily said firmly, standing.

"God, Emily. I'm so sorry. Will and I-" JJ began, but Emily cut her off, done listening for now.

"are great for each other. I hope you're happy," Emily said, with little emotion in her voice. With that, she walked away, leaving JJ shaking, trying to get her emotions in check.

Emily quickly masked her pain, compartmentalizing quickly as always, and entered the conference room. She was followed by JJ soon after.

"Congratulations, JJ," Hotch and Rossi chorused as the girls walked in.

"Thank you," She said graciously.

"Now, I understanding this is an exciting time, but I need everyone's head in this," Hotch explained gently, "It's gonna be a rough one," He said shaking his head. He flipped to the first picture.

"Mothers and their sons," Derek commented immediately. The first picture was a brunette woman in her early forties who looked like Emily, and young boy, about five or six.

"How many…" JJ asked.

"There have been four mothers and four boys," Hotch explained.

"Oh my…." Garcia said sadly. While Hotch explained, JJ stared at Emily, who ignored her completely. The younger agent felt completely broken, and guilty about what she had done to the older woman. It made her sick.

"Where are we headed?" Derek asked.

"Baltimore. It's a short flight, so as soon as we board, we're going to start a preliminary…wheels up in 15," Hotch said, and exited the room.

They had been going non stop for two days and they had located the unsub. However, they knew the only way to arrest him was if they caught him in the act, because at the moment, they didn't have enough evidence to nab him other wise. Their only option was to send someone in undercover, and because Emily was just his type, they knew it had to be her.

"Emily," Derek began, handing her the pager, "You sure about this?"

"Yes. I'm his type. He'll let me in. As soon as I have reason I'll call you guys in," Emily said nodding, hooking the pager to her skirt, "We have to get this guy."

"Derek and I will be right across the street, and Hotch, Rossi and Reid right around the corner. We'll be there in two minutes tops, after you hit that button," JJ assured her. Emily nodded in irritation at JJ and turned back to Derek.

The tension between the two women was so thick it could be cut with a knife, but they didn't have the time to sort it out now.

"Be careful, Emily," JJ said softly. She knew if something went wrong, Emily would have their issues stuck in her mind when it happened.

"I'll be fine," She said shortly and walked towards the car that she was to drive in. They had had a mechanic set it up so that a few houses away from their unsub's house, it would break down.

"Also, JJ and I will be able to see everything that's going on, so if for some reason you can't hit the pager, we'll be in," Derek told her. She nodded.

"You got this, kiddo," Rossi said squeezing her shoulder, as she got into the Jetta.

"Thanks," Emily said with a small smile.

"Let's get this son of a bitch," Hotch said firmly. Emily nodded and closed her door. She drove away, followed distantly by Hotch's SUV and Derek's SUV.

The car, as planned broke down about three houses from the unsub's. They knew that the unsub repaired cars, and by chance, their was a car being repaired in his drive. As Emily got out of the car, it started to rain.

"Even better," Emily chuckled, shaking her head. She made her way quickly to the unsub's house, in her short pencil skirt and tight sweater and heels. She looked good, and she knew it would attract the unsub.

She rang his door bell. After about a minute, a young man in his early thirties came to the door. He was muscular and attractive. Although Emily was strong, this man could easily take her.

"Hi there," He said with a grin, "Can I help you?" A charmer, Emily decided.

"Hey. I'm Emily," She began softly using the seductive voice she had often used with JJ. This made JJ tense. Derek sensed that immediately, but didn't question her. They had to stay focused.

"My car broke down a few houses down and I saw the car being repaired in you drive way, and I didn't know if that was something you did, and if you could maybe help me out?" Emily began biting her lip, "See it's my son's sixth birthday, and I promised him I'd be home soon. He's with the baby sitter. His father walked out on us when he was little, and I'm just trying to make it up to him. Any way the car was coughing and sputtering and all of a sudden it just stopped," Emily rambled, then blushed sheepishly, "I'm sorry, you don't need to hear my whole life story."

"No, no, it's okay," He said putting a hand on her shoulder. Emily acted as if she was grateful for the hand.

"Here, why don't you come inside, it's pouring, you must be freezing," He offered, "I'll make you some coffee, and then we'll take a look at your car," he said with a grin, helping Emily through the door. He shut and locked it. Emily acted as if she didn't notice.

"Thank you so much," Emily said in a husky voice. She casually noticed the unsub's tent in his pants. He's sure not impotent, Emily noted.

He led her to the living room.

"Here take a seat. I'll put some coffee on," He offered. She smiled and sat on the couch as he went to make the coffee. When he turned the coffee pot on, he took out a bottle. Date rape drug, Emily figured. He then walked back into the living room. She smiled when she saw him.

"Here, let me help you warm up," He offered. Then Emily knew what was going to happen next. She held her breath. He gently took off her coat and hung it on the back of the couch. He then wrapped his arms around her and snaked his hands up her shirt.

"What are you-" She began.

"Shhh," He murmured and started to kiss her, forcing his tongue into her mouth.

"Derek if we don't go in there now, he's gonna rape her!" JJ exclaimed.

"Jayje, if we don't have probable cause this thing blows up and a criminal gets away with 5 rapes and 10 murders," Derek said, trying to reason with her.

"Derek! Look at that! Doesn't that look like probable cause to you?" She yelled.

"Stop!" She exclaimed and she bit his lip hard, and went to hit the pager.

"What the hell is this?" He asked angrily, ripping it out of her hands, before she could hit it. He threw it at the wall.

"What are you?" He yelled, "Police? FBI?"

"Get off of me!" She yelled. She prayed to got that JJ and Derek saw what was going on.

The unsub tore Emily's sweater off of her body, and then did the same to her skirt. He discarded the ripped material to the side, and quickly undid the button of his jeans, and slid them off. Making quick work of her panties and his boxer, he straddled her body.

"Oh god, no!" Emily cried out, as gently moved his hand down to her waist

"Derek we need to go in now!" JJ yelled at Derek. He looked and saw the man ontop of Emily.

"Shit. Hotch dude we gotta go in there. She can't page us!" Derek yelled into his ear piece, and both he and JJ jumped out of the car and ran.

"The door's locked," JJ said.

"Move," Derek commanded, "1, 2," Derek began and on three he kicked the door down.

"You like this baby?" The unsub asked as he put two fingers on her lit.

"FBI!" Derek yelled with his gun up as he entered to the room, where the unsub and Emily were.

"Don't fucking touch her again!" JJ yelled and grabbed on to the unsub, pulling him off of Emily. Derek quickly helped her restrain him, and soon Hotch, Rossi and Reid were in with cuffs.

"You're under arrest for the attempted rape-" They heard Hotch say as he shoved him out the door and led him out to the SUV.

"Emily, holy shit, are you ok?" JJ asked, running to Emily's side. She was lying naked on the couch, besides her bra. Derek took off his jacket and covered her waist.

"Get away from me," She hissed at JJ, just loud enough so that only JJ would hear.

"Em, hon, I have a blanket for you," Derek said gently, taking the blanket Reid had found. "C'mere princess," Derek said softly. He wrapped Emily up in the blanket, and in seconds, she was wrapped in his arms, sobbing.

That should be me, JJ thought, If she wasn't pissed at me it would be.

"Come on, baby, let's get out of here," Derek said to Emily, and helped her leave. JJ followed sadly behind.

"I'll drive," JJ offered quickly, "I think it'd be better if you were with her"

"Ok," Derek said, not thinking anything of it. He helped Emily to the back with him and held her tightly.

After a quick trip to the hospital, to make sure that the unsub hadn't hurt Emily too badly, and a quick debrief at the Baltimore Field Office, the team was on the jet ready to go home.

It was a short 45 minute ride. It consisted of a few, "are you ok"s, and emily shrugging it off with ,"i'm fine"s. She refused to talk to any of them, especially JJ.

Derek was so angry that he had let this happen to her. He sat angrily with his head phones blasting music. Reid reviewed the case files, wondering if there was anything he had missed, that could have helped Emily. Rossi read a book, determined to get his mind off things, and Hotch wrote his report, following protocol as usual. JJ sat quietly on her own, across from Emily, watching her intently, as she slept. JJ knew that she had hurt Emily badly. Emily had been her best friend, and then so much more, and then in one night, JJ had ruined it all.

When they arrived at the BAU, Derek offered to drive her home.

"But Derek-" Emily began.

"No buts," Derek told her, "I'll drop you off in the morning," He told her. She reluctantly accepted, too tired to fight.

When they arrived at her house, after ten minutes of persistence, Derek finally agreed to leave.

"But you'll call me if you need-" he began.

"Yes. I will. Get out," Emily said with a small chuckle.

"There's the smile I know," Derek said with a grin, "Good night, Emily," He said, kissing her forehead.

"Thank you," She said.

"No alcohol, Emily. I mean it. Not tonight," He warned.

"Fine! Go away!" She said pushing him out. She shut and locked the door.

"Finally," she murmured. She went upstairs and drew herself a hot bath. She sunk into the water, letting it numb away her feelings. She was so angry at JJ, and hurt, and scared and she felt so alone.

Normally she would have called JJ at a time like this, and JJ would have come over, and they would have talked, and then one thing would lead to another. But tonight was different. JJ had hurt Emily's very core. How could she have said yes to Will when she had told Emily she loved her over and over again, night after night?

After a while, the water grew cold. Emily took that as her cue to get out. She dried herself, noting a bruise forming on the inside of her thigh, and got dressed.

As she went to sit on her bed, she heard a knock at the door.

"Fucking Derek," She said rolling her eyes. She threw the TV remote on the bed and made her way down stairs. The knocking grew louder and more persistent.

"I'm fucking coming," She yelled. She opened the door. It was JJ.

"Oh great, hello. Just the person I wanted to see," Emily said sarcastically.

"How are you feeling?" JJ asked softly.

"Like I almost got raped. Thank you," Emily said bitterly, "What the fuck do you want, Jennifer?"

"To talk," JJ said sheepishly.

"What did you tell Will?" Emily asked, letting JJ walk in.

"I had to stay late to finish reports," She said quietly, walking over to the couch.

"Very nice. Already lying to the fiancee. It's only been one day," Emily smirked, "But I guess you already have lying under your belt."

"I've never lied to you!" JJ exclaimed.

"Telling me you love me and then accepting a proposal from someone else, is DEFINITELY a lie!" Emily exclaimed, moving in her closer on JJ.

"Emily stop it please," JJ begged, "I'm sorry, ok?" She tried.

"No, god damnit Jennifer it's not ok! I gave you everything. I've never trusted any one like I trusted you. I never loved any one like I loved you! And you completely ripped everything I had out of me. You used me to the core and then threw me out!" Emily yelled, pushing JJ onto the couch.

"Emily I do love you! More than you know. It was just so complicated with Will! He's the father of my child! It was easier! It just made sense!" JJ yelled.

"Fuck you," Emily hissed, and then her mouth crashed with JJ's and she was on top of her on the couch, tongues battling for dominance.

"Will can't make you as wet as I do," Emily hissed at JJ. She pulled of her shirt and bra and began sucking on her breasts. JJ arched into Emily's touch. As Emily pulled off JJ's sweat pants, she began sucking on JJ's neck.

She bit her neck, drawing blood. This caused a whimper to escape JJ's lip. Emily ignored and continued. JJ's panties were so wet, by the Emily had trailed her fingers down to JJ's wet folds. Without warning, Emily plunged two fingers deep into JJ's hot center.

"Emily! Fuck!" JJ exclaimed, as she writhed with Emily's thrusts. Emily pumped her fingers, quickening her pace.

"What was the ONE thing you said to me AS soon as I gave you the release you needed? I made you come like you'd never before, and you always said the SAME fucking thing to me after! WHAT WAS THAT, JENNIFER!" Emily screamed. JJ was in tears, bawling her eyes out, as Emily thrust a third finger into JJ.

"Emily I'm SOOO close!" She screamed out through her tears.

"WHAT WAS IT, that you said, Jennifer?" Emily yelled, quickly pulling her fingers away from JJ.

"Emmmm," JJ moaned, writhing, arching for Emily's touch.

"JJ what was it?" Emily asked, she was now crying too.

"That I loved you Emily. I fucking loved you! I do! And I'm so fucking sorry," JJ said, her body wracked with sobs.

With that, Emily lowered her self, and plunged her tongue into JJ, sucking her clit. Moments later, JJ let go with a scream and a white hot orgasm raced through her body. She hit her ecstasy harder than she had ever hit it in her life.

Emily rolled off of her nonchalantly and stood.

"You loved me," Emily murmured quietly, "And now you love him," Emily said walking away up the stairs into her bedroom. JJ was left on the couch, panting for breaths, still recovering from her orgasm.

JJ slowly stood and made her way upstairs. When she entered Emily's room, she saw the older woman lying on her bed, with gently tears streaming down her face. She looked up and saw JJ's beautiful naked body.

"Go away. Go to Will, JJ. You're committed to him now. He doesn't deserve what you've done to me. You don't have to hurt two people," Emily said in a whisper.

"No Emily. I…I can't go back to him after that," JJ said shaking her head.

"So you gonna sleep here? And go back in the morning, liked usual?" Emily asked bluntly.

JJ shook her head, "I can't go back to him ever," she whispered.

"Why? 'Cause he can't make you scream like I do?" Emily asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Because I don't love him like I love you," she replied quietly.

"Bull fucking shit. JJ that's bull shit. Get the fuck out of my house," Emily commanded.

"Emily, stop!" JJ exclaimed angrily, "Shut the fuck up!" JJ climbed on top of Emily on the bed.

"Don't fucking touch me!" She yelled at JJ.

"No, Emily! I will fucking touch you! If that's what it takes to get you back-" JJ began.

"Don't TOUCH ME!" Emily screamed and then broke down sobbing, "because if you do…I'll never be able to forget it…and when you leave me one day like you did today…I won't be able to live. I will never be able to forget your touch and if I can't have it…I won't want to live," Emily said. And she wept. JJ had never seen Emily cry this much. If there were ever tears, it would be three max and then the mask would come on. But tonight that mask was broken. Emily couldn't wear it. She felt so raw.

"I will never leave again, Emily," JJ whispered. She wrapped her arms around Emily's waist, and held her, kissing her cheek gently, "because I do love you." She kissed Emily's lips again, chastely. There was no lust. No hunger. Just pure love.

"I'm so sorry," JJ said softly. She held Emily tightly as she sobbed, and hopped when this was all over, Emily would love her the same way, too.