Too Late For Regrets

By: Riley

Full Summary – They did it. Big Time Rush ended and now they've gone their separate ways. Kendall is off to Minnesota to play hockey, Logan is staying in California and taking classes at UCLA, James is starting his solo career, and Carlos is engaged, ready to see what the world has in store for him. But as time moves on for the four boys, it seems that they may start to regret the decisions they have made. Kendall is lonelier than he thought he would be as he feels left behind, James doesn't think he can make it, Logan realizes that studying to become a doctor is harder than he thought, and Carlos is dealing with pressures on all sides and its starting to break him. But the four boys always pull together and make it through; it's too late for regrets. They need to take their new dreams and go big time.

.:Prologue:.

"This is it. After this, we're over."

Logan sighed heavily, tilting his head back. A towel was draped over his face, wicking away the sweat that had collected on his forehead from the exertion of energy on stage. He had to leave it all out on that stage, for everyone that had come to watch them, everyone that wanted to revel in the best show Big Time Rush could ever put on.

The last concert as Big Time Rush, their last concert as the four boys on stage together.

Ever.

"Please don't say that," Carlos whimpered from off to the side. He sat on the floor, back resting against the black wall. Even in the dim lights of being just off-stage, there was enough lighting for the boys to see there were tears already falling down his cheeks. "God just…" he trailed off, shaking his head. "Please don't say that."

"It's reality, dude," James said gently. He walked over to his friend—sans helmet—and placed his hand on his best friend's shoulder. "After this…Big Time Rush is over." The four boys looked out towards the stage as they could still hear the screams, shouts, and cheers of the fans as the light show continued on. As soon as the house lights came up, it would all be real.

The musical journey that they started four years before would be over and done with and the boys would be moving onto bigger and better things. Things each and every one of them was excited to be going into and would, without a doubt, continue to support each other with. Knowing that in just a few minutes they would be starting their journeys that would take them their separate ways for the first time since they met each other.

They wouldn't be living up the street from each other, they wouldn't be living in the same apartment, they wouldn't even be living in the same city. Kendall was going back to Minnesota, Logan was going to either live in the dorms on campus or move to an apartment closer due to the commute, Carlos was more than likely going to be moving in with Stephanie because of their engagement, and James was looking for an apartment. Yes, there was space in the house that Mrs. Knight and Katie were moving into, it was a point made so that there were two guest rooms for the boys to come back, but they were men and shouldn't be living with their parents much longer.

"No, we're not," Kendall said firmly.

He had been leaning against the wall, watching his friends for the past couple of minutes as he grappled with what he was feeling. There was a part of him that was very excited to be going to play hockey for the junior league team in Minnesota. It was the start of the dream he had since he was a kid and he knew he would do it well. But…leaving his best friends, his family, to do it?

Mrs. Knight and Katie weren't going to leave LA; it was their home as much as Minnesota was. Katie enjoyed going to school at the Palm Woods and she was starting a volunteering job with a talent agent. He couldn't have her pack up and move all over again, LA was the only place where she felt like she fit in and as much as Kendall was going to miss her, he wasn't going to take her away from it.

As all eyes turned to him, Kendall pushed himself off of the wall and walked forward a few paces until he was in the center of the room. Logan's lips twitched upwards in the corner as James said the common phrase, "I smell speech" that always came around when the time came.

"We're brothers on and off the ice," Kendall started. "And have been since Logan moved to Minnesota and we got him onto a pair of skates. For the past four years we've been off the ice and we still achieved some of the biggest and best things that we've ever managed to accomplish. Now we're going to be doing different things…that doesn't mean that we're going to stop being best friends…brothers. I'm going to be going back on the ice and you guys are going to be off it, but we're still brothers. I know that if I ever need anything I can be on the next flight home or you can be on the next flight to me. We're not going to fall apart like other friendships have due to distance. We're not like those people. We're brothers for life and we always will be, even when we start having families and more than likely end up in some nursing home after some sort of plan crashes and burns."

Carlos laughed.

"Just know that when I'm out there, playing on the ice…you guys are going to be there with me just as I'm going to be playing for you. Just like we're going to be there with James when he makes his music or starts acting or whatever he decides to do because he's going to be amazing at it. Just like Logan is going to become the best doctor the world has ever seen, just like Carlos is going to excel at everything he does because of his passion and enthusiasm." Kendall clenched a hand into a fist before placing his palm flat against his chest. "I don't see it as Big Time Rush is over, that Big Time Rush is ending…because we're Big Time Rush and we're never going to end."

And as Kendall stood in the ensuing silence James, Carlos, and Logan all looking at him with admiration and acceptance, the screams of the fans died down, signaling the official end of the show. It didn't hurt as much anymore, not when their future was so bright.

It was as Kendall said.

Big Time Rush was never going to end as long as they were brothers.

And no one and nothing was going to change that.

The cheers slowly decreased to silence.

A/N: So I just need to say like a lot of authors, we left this fandom because of bullying. Specifically Rhu and I left because we were tired of writing the stories we enjoyed—with OCs—and constantly berated for it and then when we wrote what others asked/demanded that we write (canon characters only) to get no feedback. A reader should not demand a story to be written the way THEY want to see it/complain about it on the story. If you want to see a story plot we or someone else is doing with OCs but with canon characters, then I suggest trying to write it yourself, or at least send a polite PM to ask if they'll do so.

I'm over letting the constant negativity that got to us before and while I feel it was the best thing to do, there is a part of me that was ashamed for allowing it to let me move from a fandom I loved. Having re-watched the show recently re-ignited my love for the show and the stories we wrote within it. That being said this story focuses on Kendall, Logan, Carlos, and James though does have my OCs as well.

So with this story I am writing in this fandom again.

Cheers,

-Riles