Sooo.. I had this description in my had how Regina felt inside during 4x11 and I had to type it down. Also, I wrote a little of what I would like to see happening next. ;)

When Robin called her after Marian left Grannys, she expected for the worst. She was who she was, after all. The author of the book wrote her as a villain. And she believed that she was far away from the person she was in the past. She was trying to be good and she was succeeding, but that doesn't seem to matter to the author. Everytime she had a moment of happiness, real happiness, always lasted for a brief time. She remembered of her last moments with Daniel, how happy she felt knowing that she was going to get out of that castle that looked more like a prison to her. She would finally be free of the desires and the orders of her mother and she would finally be able to live the way she wanted, with the man she so deeply loved. But that didn't end well. Another moment of happiness appeared in her mind. The day she broke the curse and the memories came back to Henry, Robin found her talking with Henry and she put her arms around their backs as they were leaving the place. She was with the two persons she loved the most and she felt so complete. But then Marian came back and Robin left her.

So while they were watching Roland playing with Marian in the park, she didn't dare to have hope. How could he choose her instead of the other woman? Marian was an innocent good woman, pretty, sweet and she didn't have a dark past. To her it seemed obvious that he asked her to meet them there because he wanted to end things between them for real this time, and he was polite enough to not do it by the phone. But he looked into her eyes, with so much love, and he said that he chose her. That his heart chose her. He picked up their page from his pocket and gave it to her, their fingers brushing slightly, reminding her that she should have hope. That she could have hope. And not even five seconds later, they heard Roland screaming and they found Marian lying on the ground.

As much as she wanted, she couldn't hide the truth from him. Even if that meant she would lose him forever. Even if that would kill her inside. Then she told him what the only solution was, and a few hours later, they found themselves at the town line. Whilst she waited in the warm car as he was saying goodbye to his merry men and Will, she couldn't help but think how easy it would be if she just killed Marian. This whole drama would be over, and he wouldn't have to leave. But, she remembered her conversation with Gold few minutes ago, that was not who she was anymore. From the car, she could see in his expression how hard this was being for him. Thus she decided to put on a brave face and be strong for him in this moment, deciding to deal with her feelings later. She got out of the car and asked him if he remembered to pick up everything. He nodded and Marian almost fell to the ground in pain, reminding them they were running out of time. Marian thanked her again, and Regina managed a small smile in return.

The woman with long hair crossed the town line with her son and while she watched them leaving, suddenly, she started to have flashbacks of what she and Robin went through together. She remembered being on the hallway with him, feeling so content, he gently took her hands on his and brought them to his heart, saying for her to use his heart for both of them. When they were sitting in her cozy couch in front of her fireplace, she understood for the first time that he could understand her so well because they went through similar things. They weren't good in the past but they changed, they lost someone they cared about very much and that brought a huge pain for them and they only found comfort in their children. When he said maybe things work out when they're suppose to and that maybe it's all about timing, she let herself to believe in that only to be crushed later. She came back to the present, and saw him turning in her direction.

"Your family is waiting. Go." she said looking into his eyes, half reminding him half reminding herself.

This is it, she thought as she looked at him stepping away from her. She closed her eyes and sighed, and when she opened her eyes she saw him approaching and joining his lips to hers. She closed her eyes instantly, allowing herself to feel this moment completely. She felt his soft hands on her hair, stroking it slightly, and she didn't even open her eyes when they parted to catch air for just a few seconds and soon his lips was on hers once again. They both wanted to store in the memory how their lips tasted, how their lips felt upon one another. They didn't want to forget.

"I.." he whispered when they parted for a mere few inches, touching his forehead with hers.

"I know." she whispered back.

And she truly did. His heart was hers and her heart was his. And it would always be that way. But something about saying it in that moment just felt so... final. Done. Finito. She didn't want that. She still wanted to have hope that someday they would find their way back to each other. She brought her hands to his arms and put his arms away from her with a painful look in her eyes. She thought how unfair the world is. She was good, her mother and Rumple forced her to use magic and become evil, and she found her way into the good path again, found her soulmate, but something always seems to get in the way. She was sure someone from above was laughing about her. They really seemed to enjoy seeing her suffer. Her eyes locked with his and his hands were still holding hers as he steps away from her. She is the last thing he saw before all that world went black. He stopped for a moment, closing his eyes, and though he couldn't see her, he could still feel her on the other side of the line, he could still feel her touch on his arms. He already miss her.

It hurts her to see him like this. But she knew it had to be done. To save a life that she once took. She watched as he took Roland in his arms and Roland started to give pats on his back, like he was comforting his father. That broke Regina's heart more than anything. She put her hands on her pocket and feels the page on her hands. That damn page. That damn thing that made me really have hope again. Well, look how happy I am now, she thought with bitterness. She opened the page and then ripped it, not being able to stand the sight of it anymore. She let every piece drop to the floor, and then she left the place in her car. Later that night Henry took her to the author's house, and that made her extremely happy for a while, it gave her something to hope for. But after six weeks of finding nothing more, she started to get nervous and frustrated.

And there was one more thing bothering her more than anything. She was starting to forget the little things about Robin. How his laugh felt like, how his sharp voice was like, how he smelled like. It's been six weeks without any communication at all. And that was almost driving her insane.

"Where are you going, Regina?" Snow asked worried after seeing Regina leaving her place with such a hurry.

"I'm going to the place I remember him the most. I can't forget about him." she said without looking back.

She entered in her vault and closed the door, going straight to the secret room. She ran her hands over the silky bed sheet and a smile appeared on her face because of the memory that appeared in her mind.

He took her in his arms, grabbing her by her butt and lifting her up from the ground, and without breaking the kiss, he walked into the bed and delicately laid her there. His body were on top of her, kissing angrily as his hands run all over her body wherever it reaches. His hands found its way through her unbuttoned shirt and she feels his hands caressing her breasts over her bra. She lets out a moan and tightens her hands in his hair. His hands finished open up her shirt and he lowered his kisses, going to her neck to her breasts. While he kissed her breasts, his hands go to her back and he frees the bra. He made circles with his tongue in one of her nipple and with one hand he caressed the other. She felt her pleasure grows each past second. He ran his hands to her belly, and their eyes met as he said with a husky voice You're so beautiful. She felt a shiver running to her entire body as he finished to say, because of what he said and because of the tone of his voice. He lowered her black skirt and took that out of her body, leaving her with only her underwear. He started to kiss her belly and his fingers went down to tease her underwear. She gasped and sank her fingers in his back in the way she knew he liked. He groaned and quickly pulled her underwear out and took her clit in his mouth. He stopped for a second just to put one finger inside her and then his mouth is back in her clit. A loud moan left her mouth and after a few moments of continuous movements, she wriggled under his touch.

He saw she was almost on the edge, so he put one more finger inside her, and after a few seconds he can hear she calling his name and he looks into her face, asking himself how he got so lucky to deserve someone like her. After her breath stabilized, she got on top of him, finding his mouth and sensing her taste there. He bit her bottom lip and she moans, biting his bottom lip too. When they stopped to catch air, she took out his white shirt and started to plant open mouthed kiss on his chest. She gets down and in just one second his pants, with his boxers, are gone. She took his member in her mouth while her hands tease his balls. After a few moments, she soothed her throat and took him completely in her mouth. He gasped and she felt him squirm. He stopped her, and said that he didn't want to come in her mouth. He got on top of her, and he places himself in her entrance. He slid inside her and they both groaned. It didn't take long for them to reach the edge, together.

Regina abruptly came back to the present and she laid in the bed, grabbing her pillow. Sleep quickly found her.

The next day she is awakened by Snow.

"Regina, I'm worried about you." Snow said with a distressed tone, after she saw Regina opening her eyes.

"There's nothing to be worried about me" she replied while she stretched.

"Of course there is. You may try to hide, but I've noticed that you have been throwing up a lot lately and you also have been sleeping more than usual.."

Regina quickly saw what Snow was trying to say. She started to make counts in her head, and she realized that her period was twenty days late.

"Oh my god!" Regina jumped out of bed. "Snow, what I'm gonna do?" she asked.

"Calm down." Snow placed a hand on Regina's arms. "First of all we need to figure out if you're really pregnant. And if you're, we all will help you to deal with it."

"Ok." Regina took a deep breath. "I need to go to buy a pregnancy test."

"If you buy a pregnancy test people will start to suspect. Why we don't do that way. You go to my house, I'll go buy the pregnancy test and you wait for me there?" Snow asks.

"Ok." Regina sighed. "I think is better that way."

Regina made her way into the Snow's house, and thankfully there was no one there. She sat in the couch and a panic attack started to go through her. How the hell I didn't realize what was going on? How I didn't notice my period was so late? I'm going to be such a bad mother. Tears began to fall from her eyes, and her hands started to shake. But a second voice appeared on her head. You raised Henry on your own and he looks fine. Don't be so hard on yourself. And with that she couldn't argue and she felt herself starting to calm down.

Snow came back in a record time, and Regina went to the bathroom. A few minutes later, she came back and there was three positive in her hands. Snow's eyes got wider and she saw the tears on Regina's face.

"Snow... he will never have a way to know." Regina sobs.

Snow spends her hands around Regina shoulder and sat them in the couch. Regina, get yourself together. All this stress can't be good for the baby. She took two deep breaths till she could feel herself calming down.

"Regina, we'll find him. You'll tell him he's going to be a father again."

Snow hugged her, and Regina felt herself smile.

I hope you liked it! Please leave a review, I love to hear your thoughts ❤️