Disclaimer: Never owned it and probably never will
It was just a moment of weakness. It's kind of like how someone who never gets mad might get mad in a moment of weakness. He was frustrated. He was scared and he just couldn't continue. If he continued he may have to let go.
Karen didn't understand. She couldn't understand.
"Captain, you okay," Randy asked
"Well you know about the situation… having to do with Jennifer," Leland said, "I'm thinking about just giving up. Karen doesn't understand and she's furious as all hell about that"
"OH HELL NO YOU'RE NOT GIVING UP," Randy said firmly
"Look you know the statistics as well as I do-"
"Yeah I do," Randy acknowledged, "but I also know she's no statistic. She's out there,"
"And what if she's gone," Leland said, "statistically speaking it's the most likely outcome"
Randy turned on the radio and put on a CD.
"Listen to this," he said
"What are you-"
"LISTEN TO THIS," he repeated.
Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on
Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And your heart in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone
Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever that way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
"Great song," Leland said, "one of my favorites. WHAT'S THE POINT?"
"You can feel her," Randy said.
Leland smirked
"NOT LIKE THAT," Randy scolded, "I mean in your heart you can feel her"
Leland looked at his friend for a second. Randy was always so goofy and this was probably the smartest thing he had ever said.
"You are absolutely right," he admitted, "but I'm scared"
"It's okay to be scared," Randy said, "but it's not okay to let fear stop you from doing what you know is right. You should know that by now"
Leland shrugged.
"I get that," he said, "but it's complicated. You wouldn't understand"
"I think," Randy said, "I may understand a lot more then you think I do. I've been in your shoes before and I KNOW how much they pinch. But quitting never is the answer"
"Did you give up?"
"Never"
"Did you feel like giving up ever?"
"Plenty but I knew one thing. My heart never lies"