Title: For him to be happy
Summary: He had always wanted him to be happy.
Chapters: 1/1
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or any of it's characters.
For him to be happy
When I first met him I thought he was great. Masculine, handsome and the best and most determined fighter I had ever met. He didn't talk very much back then. And when he did it was in a language I didn't understand. I only later found out he thought I was an idiot and threatened to kill me.
It was later that I realized I loved him. I remember quite well how I'd build up courage for over a month. And when I finally told him how I felt, I was rejected.
Not on the harsh way I expected though. He even smiled at me when he told me I was like a brother to him. And even though I was rejected, it warmed my heart to know he held at least some sort of affection for me.
And as war continued we bonded. We became closer, he loosened up a bit when being around me. And for me, that was enough. I didn't feel as if I necessarily had to be his boyfriend. Being friends and seeing him happy was enough for me.
Only too late I realized the selfishness I had actually included into that. And it was not too late for Heero. He never noticed and for him life only started to begin. Because after war he met Relena again. And during the Marimea Incident he saved her life. Thus making her more clingy and dependent towards him.
'Duo?'
My head snaps up so fast I think I'm going to have an aching pain in my neck tomorrow. I'm startled in a way I hadn't been for quite some time. Not since war, actually. It shows how deep in thought I had been. but the fast beating of my heart doesn't cease.
Because there is only one person in the world that can sneak up to me without me noticing. So I turn around, a bit nervous, and smile as I say: 'Hi Heero. What's up?'
'Nothing much.' He says as he sits down onto the couch. I look at him, see him looking at me and turn my head away almost immediately. It's only too bad he notices me doing that. 'Duo. How are you? Is something wrong?'
'Wrong? Nothing's wrong. I'm fine.' I say, a grin on my face. I only speak too fast for it to be honest. But Heero knows that when I don't want to talk, I don't talk. We sit in silence, no don't find it strange. I think it's nice to sometimes sit in silence with somebody. Be completely relaxed and don't force myself to talk. Heero is the only person I can do that with.
I turn to him. His eyes have a light in them they didn't have during war. It's bad for me to keep reminding myself that he is now happy, although not with me. So I decide I'll finally ask the question I've been dying to ask. Although afraid to do so. The question that will probably break my heart. But to finally get over him, I need to hear the words.
'Heero.' I ask and he turns to me, a bit of a smile on his face. But that smile disappears as soon as he sees my serious expression. 'Duo?'
'Are… are you happy now, Heero?'
'Duo, why do you ask?' He says, frowning since he thinks I'm acting weird. And I am. Because normally I'm happy. But I just need to hear him say it. 'I just… just want to hear the words from you.'
For a moment Heero looks at me. And then he does the thing that breaks my heart. He smiles, a real genuine smile, and his eyes shine even brighter. 'Yes, Duo. I'm happy now. And it's all thanks to you. Because you learned me to loosen up. I even think that because of you I realized I was really in love with Relena. So I'm happy now.'
I smile, I have to. He is happy because of me. And if he found out I was actually against his relation with Relena, he would break up with her. And I don't want that, because I want him to be happy.
But when my heart falls apart piece by piece I finally realize. I've always wanted him to be happy. But not ever with her.
Owari.