A/N: This is a brand new story i came up with while writing my other story 'Lost moon' its new moon in edwards pov check it out if ya like its pretty much finished...

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Chapter 1:

I sighed as I stepped out of bed. Stretching my arms up above my head. I tried to suppress a yawn. I didn't always need as much sleep as you'd think. Then again I should just be thankful I can sleep at all in this family anyway.

The Cullen family. The name alone could get you just about anywhere.

I walked over to the dresser and changed, I put my fox baby doll shirt on, and grabbed my brown hoodie from the closet and threw it on. I grabbed my ripped jeans and pulled them on also. I sat back down on the bed and reached around underneath feeling for my sneakers. I found my Etnies and slid them on. To lazy to tie them.

I sighed as I looked at the calendar on the wall. Its been exactly 99 years since I had been born. And 82 years since I was forced to leave. Leave the only place I had ever known. The love of a lifetime. The family I had learned to love so much. Granted my true family had come with, but I had to leave half of my life behind. Because of them.

My moms side of the family had all died. They weren't like the rest of us. Defiantly not like me. I was different than everyone. Except Nahuel. Half breed, I was half vampire, half human. And that alone was a long story in itself.

I didn't fit in anywhere. I was alone in this world. Truly alone.

Jacob. I winced at his name. It was hard to even think about him. I had to leave him behind, along with Grandpa Charlie, and the rest of the pack.

Jacob was different as well. Werewolf, his pack was my family. We were all one big happy family. Ok so we got along for the most part. That was a big step for sworn enemies.

That all change the minute they were after me. They wanted to stand up, to fight, so did the rest of us. But it would have been futile. A fruitless effort. We would have all been destroyed, I couldn't allow that to happen. I also couldn't allow Jake to come with when he begged me. It was the hardest thing I had ever done. But I couldn't take him away from his pack, or his father. His father had passed away by now, just like Charlie. They were both gone, gone from this world to a place that I could only dream about. Whether or not creature like me would be granted access there was still a mystery.

I knew it would be hard, but I never imagined it would be this hard, or take this long. Apparently I was a very exceptional treasure. Aro wanted me in his so called collection, the talents I processed were a great treasure to him. That was all he cared about. Power, he also knew if he got me, he got the others that he wanted. My mom, dad and aunt Alice would not let me go alone. He wanted them just about as much as he wanted me. We couldn't allow that. So we ran.

Running and hiding your entire life never staying in one place for more than a year or so. Sometime even that was pushing it.

Great life huh?

Sitting here in the "safe" house what so safe about it. It was just a hotel suite. I wanted to go with them, but no I was still there baby girl. Fully matured and still I was the baby. Being watched over by Alice, Esme and Rosalie.

Something was happening I knew it. They just weren't letting me in on it. It had something to do with the Volturi, that I knew at least. It had been a day and a half and still nothing. Dad, mom, Uncle Jasper and Emmett had went off with Grandpa Carlisle. Although in public they were just known by there names. People would wonder if otherwise, but that was my life. Always the lies.

I walked over to the desk and opened the top drawer, and reached in and untapped the envelope I had stashed there late last night. It was to Jacob. 82 years and I still wrote him, once a week. It was all I could do sneak a letter out. I wanted everyday but I knew that I wouldn't have been able to keep it hidden for this long. We were supposed to have no contact. I had to let him know I was alright. It hurt to write him. Every day hurt worse than the next. But I had to at least let him know I was safe and ok. It wasn't fair to him to leave him wondering. We were soul mates. Separated by fate. But destined to be together. Eventually we would. I had to hope for that at least.

But did I have the right to hope he waited? No I knew better, I had told him to move on in numerous letters. It wasn't fair to have him wait. Not knowing if or when id ever see him again. I couldn't just let him wait like a love sick puppy. But then again, I also knew he never would move on. He would wait, forever if he had to.

Jacob had imprinted on me, and that's something that not even fate can stand in the way of.

I slid the letter into the pocket of my pants. I walked out of my room into the living room. Esme must have been out hunting. Rose and Alice looked up from what they were doing.

"Renesmee" Alice beamed.

"Don't call me that. How many times do I have to tell you.."

"Oh Nessie stop." Rosalie scolded.

I sighed heavily. "Please don't call me that either. Its Carlie. It has been Carlie for the last oh I don't know 80 years!" I stomped past them.

"Where are you going?"

"I still don't know why we cant call you your name." Rosalie grumbled. She loved my name.

"Because Renesmee is a retarded name. It's cute and all but seriously what was mom thinking? I like the idea of Renee and Esme but come on?" I smiled.

"And what's wrong with Nessie?" Rosalie fought. My chest felt like it was going to explode.

"Nothing. I just don't want to be called a loch ness monster." I tried to smile, but it came out forced.

"Is that the only reason?" Alice asked quietly. No, it reminds me to much of the one thing I don't want to be reminded of. The love of my life that I haven't seen in like 80 years. It hurts every second of every day and being reminded of that pain just kills even worse. Oh no nothing like that.

I just nodded.

I went to open the door.

"Where are you going?" Alice asked standing up.

"To go get something eat down stairs in the restaurant."

"Well I'll come to."

"No its fine, I'll be fine, it's food. I'll bring it up here when I'm done. What's the point of being in a big fancy hotel if ya cant enjoy the food?"

"I'll get room service."

"Exercise. I've been cooped up in here for the last 3 days. Please its just downstairs."

"Be quick." Alice warned.

I nodded and left. As soon as they were out of ear shot I ran. I walked up to the desk in the lobby. There was a husky man standing there. Looking horribly annoyed with just about everything.

"I'd like to mail a letter." he sighed and pointed to the left.

"Out going mail." He barked.

I smiled politely up at him. "For some one who works with people, in a big fancy hotel like this, you sure are rude. I would hate to have you manager hear about how displeased your guest are." I smiled as I walked toward the box. I pulled the letter out of my back pocket. I stared down at it. It was all I could give him. As much as I wanted more I knew it wasn't safe. I couldn't tell him where I was. I couldn't receive anything from him. I knew that. It broke my heart even more to know that this was all I would get. The only thing I would get would be the satisfaction in knowing he knew I was alive, that I was ok. that's all that mattered to me, that he wasn't sitting back in forks worrying day in and day out. Even though I knew he probably still did. All I had were memories and pictures. It gave me comfort in knowing that he knew I was ok. I could only assume the same for him. I checked online, news articles anything at all about forks and surrounding areas looking for anything that might tell me other wise. Nothing did. that's how I found out about Grandpa Charlie, and Jakes dad. When I told mom she about died. Her father was dead. She knew it would happen eventually, but she never wanted it to. There was a picture in with the article about Billy, Charlie and Jake were standing over the grave. I felt a tear slid down my face. I reached up and wiped it away.

I sighed as I looked down at the letter.

"What's wrong Nessie?"

"Nothing Jake."

"Sure sure. that's why your crying. What is it?" Tears streamed down my face, as I began to sob even harder. I collapsed to the ground. But he caught me

He stroked my hair out of my face and patted my back and just held me."Nes your scaring me."

"Jake." My voice broke. "We have to go."

"Ok I'll take you back." he tried to stand up but I pulled him my head.

"No we have to go, we have to leave forks. For good."

"You guys said that before. But we managed to work around it. Just stay out of town where people know you."

I shook my head harder. "No."

"Then I'll come with you."

"Jake, please stop. You cant come with me."

"What do you mean?"

"I'm in danger. They want me."

"Who wants you. Danger from who?" he was angry now. He had that protective nature about him. Ready to fight anyone who dared try to hurt me. Something I loved about him. Protector, even though I didn't need it.

"You cant Jake. I cant ask you to leave everything behind. I wont let you."

"Renesmee Carlie Cullen. You are not going anywhere with out me."

"Jake, the Volturi want me. Aro sees me as very useful to him."

"Well we'll get everyone together again and we'll prove them wrong. We'll fix this. You cant go, you just cant."

"I'm sorry Jake."

"Don't." he barked, tears began to fall from his face. It made it even harder to look at him. He gently pulled my lips to his. "You cant go. I love you. Were supposed to be together." he whispered. Tears ran down my face like rivers.

"Forever." I whispered back.

"Renesmee?" I jumped out the sound of my name. startling me out of my memory.

"What are you doing?" I dropped the letter in the box and turned around. Alice was standing with her arms crossed.

I smiled up at her.

"Nothing, just wondering around stretching my legs." I smiled again. She eyed me with curiosity. I walked back toward her.

"I couldn't imagine my life with out Jasper. It would be torture to be apart from him, and not know if he was ok. Not be able to get a call or a letter. It would be pure agony. Then again, I could take comfort in sending him news that I was ok." she smiled at me as she put her arm on my shoulder.

"Yes, agony." she didn't know the half of it. But I did take comfort I the fact that at least he knew I was ok.

"How long?" she asked.

"How long what?" I tried to act dumb, she saw right through me. 82 years and I had finally been caught.

"Since we left. You've hid it from them all this time."

"Alice." she put her finger up to her mouth.

"Shh. I've known for about oh I don't know, the last 81 years."

"What?"

"Like I said, I couldn't imagine if it were me. The sacrifices you have made." I leaned my head onto her shoulder.

"It's hard but at least I know he's safe from all of this."

"We wont let anything happen to you." she smiled down at me nudging my arm. "You miss him a lot don't you?"

"Mine is bigger," I stated with a sense of pride as I compared my blood drained buck to Jacob's small mangled doe corpse.

Jacob entered the clearing in a pair of cut of jean shorts. No matter how close we were, he still refused to phase in front of me. I think it has something to do with the nudity issue.

"I let you win," he said harshly. He was irritated that I had beaten him once again at our hunting game.

"Why do you always let me win?" I asked sarcastically. I flipped my bronze-colored hair over my shoulder, causing Jacob to pause with his answer and stare for the briefest of seconds.

"Hey! I won last week when I caught that mountain lion!" he exclaimed with a hurt pride when he broke out of his trance.

"I let you win," I said and unlike when he said it, I meant it. I would purposely ignored the ;larger ones, just so he could win.

"Whatever," he said, trying to sound indifferent but not succeeding.

"Renesmee?" she asked pulling me from my thoughts again.

I shook my head to clear it. "Jacob Black was my best friend. Since the day I was born, he has always been there for me. First, as a brother figure that was constantly looking out for me and willing to risk everything just keep me safe. Just like the rest of you. And as time passed, he became instead the big brother but my best friend. He became the person that I could tell everything to. He wouldn't judge or any thing. He would just listen. It's not that I couldn't trust the rest of you or that I didn't tell you guys, but Jake was always first to know. Unless dad got in my head. But I truly wanted him to be the first to know. Eventually friends became more. I know dad isn't happy about that, but it's the truth. I don't care what anyone else says, were meant to be together. Eventually all I can do is hope that we will." I tried to smile but it didn't work. Talking about Jake like that hurt.

"I'm sorry. I know it must be hard. I don't know what I can so to make any of this better. I wish I could see what was going on there, but there blank just like you."

"It's ok. I understand we can't let any one know where we are. I just wish, we didn't have to run anymore. I'm tired of running. I miss home."

"You miss Jake."

"He is my home."

"Well, your secret is safe with me, like it has been. Meanwhile I will try to find a way to do more for you. Figure a way to contact him to actually speak to him. I don't now if it will work but I will try."

A true smile appeared on my face. I jumped up and hugged her around the middle. "Alice your amazing!"

"I know." she hugged me back. We walked toward the elevator.

"We'll order room service." she smiled at me

I just nodded as the elevator doors closed behind us.

"Oh." She squeaked. I looked up at her. Had she figured a way out that quick? "They might be coming back." she seemed relieved, almost like she was scared they weren't coming back. Finally. Wait might? What were they doing anyway and where did they go? An why was she scared.

"What are they doing? I mean where did they go anyway?"Alice looked at me. She looked like she was debating on telling me the truth or not. "Alice, I am not a child I am not a baby, I haven't been for some time now. I would really appreciate it if everyone would realize that. After all this is all about me." I said annoyed.

"Your right." she sighed. "Its just," she paused. "they, they went to the Volturi. " scared, got it now. There was totally a reason for fear. She bit her lower lip slightly before continuing. "They went to talk to Aro."

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