The following characters of this story belong specifically to me. And if I mention material that if familiar to others I mean no intention of plagiarism. I'm just a girl with ideas similar to others. Anyways, enjoy and if u leave a review I might just update.. ~Themysteryofjade

Absence of Light

Chapter 1

Sometimes I asked myself what my purpose in this world was.

I drove through the cold streets of my city thinking many things. I thought about who I was and how I got here to where I was. A college student with a whole world ahead of her yet with nothing at all because all the good was waiting ahead. All the good was in the future not now in the present and it fucking bothered me. I cried and all I knew was that this wasn't what I wanted my life to be.

All I knew was that I wanted my life to be different. I wanted to be someone different. I wanted to be carefree, spontaneous, friendly, and maybe even fun. I was such a square and a timid girl that had no damn verbal filter. Through my tears, mind experience, and breakdown I could hear all the cars accelerating in the long winded road I was in. I, myself pressed my foot down on the accelerator not wanting to be beat by these motherfuckers that had something going on for them. To these people that had a life. A life that I wanted and did not have.

I cursed myself for being so selfish sometimes. I just wanted something that I did not have. I could not even make up my mind of what I wanted except some happiness.

Then I looked up and saw the big bright stars shining down on the city of Laredo. For one second just for one second I closed my eyes and made a wish.

"I just want my life to be different. I just want to be happy. Please… That's all I want." I opened my eyes and half laughed and cried at my stupidity. Then when I was about to change to another lane a car accelerated and the next thing I knew I was pressing down hard on the break. My car swerved and all I heard was the screeching of the wheels and a loud honking. I remember feeling a pressure in my chest. Then nothing at all.

Everything just…went black.

I would sometimes hear voices around me but they were so faint.

"She's lost so much blood." A male voice said

I fought to stay awake but I didn't stand a chance against the heavy darkness dragging me back down in to unconsciousness. Seconds, minutes, hours, or maybe even days later I heard, "Her heart is beating again that's good."

Yet as soon as I heard something I would drown and lose myself again.

"You think she'll ever wake Michael?" I heard someone ask in a worried tone.

"I don't know. I hope so…" Another voice said

Then I felt the darkness nagging at me and I fell towards and abyss of nothingness. All I heard was a constant sound and someone faintly yelling, "The line's flat! Get a doctor! Hurry!"

Maybe seconds later I heard a firm voice counting, "One. Two, three. Clear! C'mon Miss don't give up!"

Yet I asked myself: what is there to fight for anyway?

What is there here for me?

Where am I?

It's so dark and cold

It so easy to fall…

I'll just rest, I promise

Then maybe I'll wake up again.

I don't know if the voice could hear me but it's all I could hope for because then the darkness came back with a vengeance and dragged me towards a road of never ending peace and a place absent of light and sound.

I could just think two words before I lost myself I'm sorry…

And then I lost and stopped struggling with this force and just rested…