Alright this is my first fanfic so please take it easy on me ok so take it easy on me I know I got some spelling errors and what not but... bah you get the point.

I don't own anyone or anything related to the TMNT

You know I'll always see myself as the fun, loving, chilled, battle nexus champion. Yeah I'm bragging indeed I am. But I'm not going to lie, I always felt like something was missing in my life. Now don't get me wrong for what little we have I think I'm spoiled enough, Hehe, But there is just something...something that makes me wonder what is out there? I don't even know how to explain it. But either way I'm going to tell you a story of what I did find that makes me feel a lot better. And honestly I think it's what I've been looking for.

Well it started about a month ago. We were on patrol doing our regular routine, acting our normal ways. Leo the leader, Don the brain, Raph the muscle, and me, Mikey... well I've been told I'm a lot of things in this team. I've been told I'm the speed, the binding, the heart, the baby brother, etc...

But to myself I think I am all the above. Hehe

Anyway we were doing our thing with no luck of finding any crime to stop. Not even the petty crimes. We decided to split up to save more time and cover more ground. Leo told us that we should call if any of us found anything or were in trouble. And sure enough nothing happened within our time of searching. Leo called me on my shell-cell and told me that he and the rest of the group were calling it a night and to meet them back at home. "Well fine by me." I was on our way home when I heard someone crying. Being the curious turtle I am I crept over to see who it was? For the record at the time this happened I was separated from my bros. As I went to go see what was going on I heard a door open to the entrance of the roof top before I even got a chance to see who was crying.

Then I heard what sounded like a soft but gruff voice speak "yo, little man how you holding up?" well by the phrase 'little man' I can see the person crying was a little kid. "Why did skeeter have to die dad? He was the same age as me." I couldn't help but to feel for the kid he sounded so innocent such a pure mind and soul broken by the death of a loved one. "Well son dogs actually age faster than people" then the man paused. I could feel the intense conversation taking place a father trying to explain to his son about the meaning of life and death. "He was 49 when he died son I know it hurts but he's gone... I'm sorry" I was heartbroken at that last line it sent the kid sobbing into his father. I hate seeing kids cry it just breaks my heart but there was nothing I could do about it. I was just about to make my escape when the kid finally asked "dad, did skeeter go to heaven? I watched a movie that says all dogs go to heaven is it true"? I looked at the ground and kind of smiled at myself such a pure heart thinking the best for HIS best friend I liked that and that's one of the many reasons I love kids. Because I think like that a lot of times too "no son, skeeter did not go to heaven." the hell, what is this guy thinking telling his kid that and why " in fact there is no such thing as heaven, hell, or god they are just characters in fairy tales. Kind of like jack and the beanstalk." oh my god this guy is crazy why didn't he believe in god and in that case tell his son that there was no god. The guy picked up his now hysterically sobbing son and carried him back into their home out of the warm spring air.

On my way home I continued to replay the whole conversation in my mind. Man, the pain that kid must have felt now believing that there is no heaven or hell that there is no god that...that...that I'm in a way that kid. It didn't hit me until then that I knew nothing about what god did. What he could do. The miracles he performed. Heck I've never even picked up a bible a day in my life. The only thing that even came close to what I knew about life after death was from what I could understand from master splinter and his lessons on the laws of Bushido and what I heard on TV. In a way I had no religion to call my own. As I came to this realization my heart sank, deep sadness filled my soul for the first time in a very long time all I wanted to know was there a higher being controlling what happens in our life or are we, as ninja turtles and humans alike alone in this world? I went home and kind of chilled for a few my bros had already beaten me home and were doing their own thing. Without any questions being asked i went upstairs to my room and started thinking. Many of thoughts started to come to mind and started to make my head hurt. "I need some air." i said out loud to myself. I got on my clothing, jacket, baseball cap and some shoes, and went topside again. I walked around for a bit just thinking to myself and yet my head still hurt Hehe. I guess those quips that Raph makes about me hearting myself by thinking were true. I got tired of walking and caught a spot on a set of steps and stared blankly at the streets. I was snapped out of my own little world when a man put his hand on my shoulders and started to speak. "Whatever it is son the lord is with you and he loves you very much". And with that he took my hand and handed me a book medium in size too big to fit inside a pocket but small enough for me to carry in my pouch. When I turned the book around and read the title i in a way freaked out a bit because it was too much of a coincidence that i got this book while in my current predicament. Then I got to thinking why did that guy give me this book he could have given it to anyone but why me, Hehe. It was like a light bulb finally lit up. I got up and backed away from were i was sitting and realized were i was. I looked at the starry night sky and gleamed at it thinking to myself

"I think I found my answer"

That night I went back home book in hand and the widest grin on my face i think i ever had. For i knew this was the beginning of a very independent journey.

So yeah I think I might have rushed through that first chapter I'm not entirely sure though you guys are the judge. If this isn't crap to you guys I'll be happy to upload the second chapter